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Chapter 13 - Coward

Nora perspective

It was midnight and I can't sleep. I slept for a while but woke again maybe because it is a new atmosphere or I don't want too. I was staring at the ceiling, not thinking, not saying, not sleeping, not feeling anything. I don't know how much time went me staring at the ceiling but I got tired. I glance at Nicholas, his face was towards me and he was sleeping. I almost was turned towards to him but than I sat up and went to balcony.

His room has also balcony that give a great moon light, mine has too. When ever I didn't got a sleep I just stood on the balcony railing and look out the world. Today I am doing the same, looking at the world. The world which have many people would be happy, sad, broken, feel like there in the sky, failed, passed. Some would be like all the problem in the world are on they're shoulder, some would be in so much depression that they want to die, Some already be dead in the world, some are already dead from inside like me.

This night has many secrets like that night had.

Tonight is everything that I always want the moment sana came in my life and she was in my life when I wasn't even born. Sana, Sophia, Lily, Elizabeht. Four friends that can gave each other life for each other, what would happen in they're life that those friends want to kill each other. What did mom did to Sana that she is so obsessed with her revenge and me. What happened between those four friends that sacrifice anything for each other? Was it love? A boy? Beauty? Family? Jealousy? Money? But what good for me to get the answer of these questions?

Now I am far away from these things. Sana - Revenge -Plotting - Elizabeth - Lily- Mother - Pat- Four - Friends - Husbands - Kids - 23rd July - 1999 - car accident - Park - James - picture. All of these, But one thing I can never back off that finding my uncle. From the start revenge was not important for me the only thing I want is to want my uncle back. I don't know where is he? What is he doing? What is he up to? Does he have kids? Did he forget me? How he would look? Does he still like cooking, painting, finance? Does he miss me? For now. I will find him somewhere but-

"At least I can be peace in now." I sighed hard and leaning on the wall I crouch down, pulling my knees to my chest and put my chin on my knees on it, and close my eyes. Someone put a hand on my shoulder and I jerk back.

"Relax, its me." Nicholas said putting his both hands in air and raise a brow. I calmed and looked away, facing towards ahead where there was light sky color. Sun just started to risen. "What are you doing here?" He asked me after long silence.

"What time is it?" I didn't answer his question, he wasn't bothered by it. My voice was groggy and little tired.

"Its almost 5." He answered looking ahead. "Why were you sleeping here?" He asked me again.

"I was not sleeping here. I just lost the track of time and... and slept. " I said yawning and tuck some hair behind my ear and put head on my kness.

"Last night you were limping so I pick you up and now you can't sleep." He said, almost to himself with a soft laugh..

"Because I was hurt" I whispered to myself.

"Hmm?" he turned to me.

"Hmm?" I also hummed, pulling my chin up. His lips curl up in amusement.

"You said something?" He said raising his eyebrow.

"No" I answered shortly.

He frowned but let it go and started to look at the sky. We were silent for I don't know but At that moment sun was risen and shining on us. I glance at Nicholas he was staring straight at it.

"Your eyes doesn't hurt constantly looking at the sun?" I asked him staring at him, curiously.

"Were you comfortable sleeping like this?" He throwed while meeting my stare.

"What........do you.... mean?" I stutter looking away..

"You were sleeping in one position for too long like hours and your body doesn't ache from anywhere." He asked worriedly.

"Its a habit." I said looking down at my lap. He open his mouth to say something but interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Who is it? " He shouted still staring at me.

"It's me Seth, breakfast is ready dad is calling." Seth voice came from the other side of door. I look at my phone, it showed 9:07.

"Okay" Nicholas shouted from beside me. "Come on get up and ready." He take his hand out and I took it. Our chest almost met he stepped back. I went to bathroom to shower, then head to closet to change, there was light blue dress with full sleeve that come to my thigh length, I changed into it, do a little makeup and went out. I got out and see Nicholas was sat on his study table and working on the laptop. I got close to him and see he was working on his company project.

"I am working with same company." He jumped hearing my voice but smiled and shook his head.

"That's great we will see each other in the company to." I don't know why but I smiled at what he said, it was a great thing to do. Nicholas glance at me and stared at me, a warmth cross my cheek.

"Aren't you going to shower? Everyone is waiting" I said to him. Suddenly very interested in his shelf. I pull a book and tried to read it than put it back. .

"Huh, oh yeah, I was just going" he did little typing on the laptop then got up and head to the closet.

I sat on the sofa admiring his room. His room has black and white contrast, in the center there was a bed in front of it was the sofa on my left there was desk where his laptop some files were scattered beside it was a shelf.

I got up and arranged the scattered files and step toward the shelf I was going to touch but a thought came in my mind.

What if he doesn't like someone touching his things?

Nicholas was out, I backed away from his study and stand beside on the sofa, he glance at the arranged files. I stand awkwardly there. Suddenly he got up and went out of the room. I don't know what to do so I just stand there and rocked on my heels looking down. A hand slip through mine. I jumped a little and look up meeting with brown eyes.

"Aren't you going to come?" His voice came. I nodded and tuck some strands behind my ear and went out with him.

It was a hallway there were two rooms we pass by a light further we went stairs came two sides stairs, In the end of the hallway there was also two more rooms. We were on second floor, I suddenly stopped, hearing some noises, I don't know I have to be scared or confident after what happened the past month, because what they said. Nicholas was also stopped on his way after realizing I was not behind him. I was froze on my spot. Nicholas came towards me, looking confusedly.

"Nora, what happened?" Nicholas asked curiously. I look at him.

"Umm .. Are my parents here?" I asked ignoring his question. He looked at me then at his back then back at me.

"I-I actually don't know that your family is here." he said confused, he waited a little then asked, "Shall we go they are waiting?" I didn't said anything and he slip his hand in mine and tucked me with him we were coming downstairs, I saw my family with Nicholas family sitting in the lounge. They were talking and laughing.

"Oh my dear Nora, how was your first night here?" Sana squeal when she saw me, as she come closer and hug me, I didn't hug her back, "Do you miss me?" she said, and I gripped Nicholas hand, he rubbed his thumb continuedly on my back of hand. "You do remember what I told you, right?" She whispered in my ear also patting my back, I bet she is smiling. She let go of me smiling looking at my face to find an answer. I nod my head, then look away.

Then dad came he hug me also, I again hug him back, tightly. We pulled back and he smiles and I forced a smile on my face and backed away. Nicholas mother said something to Sana and she laughed, dad was talking to Nicholas father.

"Oh, I think breakfast is ready, come on, lets have a wonderful breakfast." Nicholas's stepmother said. Wonderful, that's not in my family vocabulary. Everybody obeyed Nicholas's stepmother and in few minutes lounge was empty, we both were still standing in our places.

Nicholas coughed "Nora you can leave my hand." he said.

"huh" I look at our hands I lessened my grip, "Sorry".

"Nora, are you alright?" Nicholas asked, I looked at our hands and slowly remove it, but he grab it again.

"Sorry, I am just so surprised my family is here." He looked weirdly at me.

Does that make sense, to me its not, because what she did to me that day I am not that Nora anymore. Who was not coward, scared and never she has a thought to be dead. But now she has and she is me.

If I wasn't gone to be married, I jumped from a building and killed myself.

But I know Sana won't give this merciful death at least not now or never.