SAM
"Sammy?" Her voice brings me out of my trance, but I still can't put out the fire of rage that asshole lit up in me. I don't turn around because I can't look into her eyes, I can't because I am the reason she suffered for those seven years. I am her sinner. I feel her standing just behind me as her soft warm hands grab my cold ones. But I frown when I hear her gasp.
"S-Sam... it's bleeding!" Her panicky voice and her wary gaze that looks at me with worry makes me want to cry and sit on my knees in front of her because I do not deserve her.
"W-wait...let me get the first aid. But...where is it? Sam? SAM?"
"Y-yea?"
"Where is the first aid? Baby, I need to treat this." I take my hand back from her grip as she frowns.
"Lien...I am so sorry. I am terribly sorry baby...I didn't k-know. I-I had no idea t-they would--"
"Shush. Don't blame yourself, Sammy. You absolutely are not responsible for anything that happened to me hmm?" I look at her with widened eyes, but she just gives me a little smile.
"I was coming with water but then I stopped when I heard him say that I seemed familiar to him. I heard everything. I was just so shocked that I couldn't move, and I was also kind of scared of him. It was as if I froze. But when he left, I got my strength back. Sammy, you are not guilty in any way. Don't feel like it happened because of you. It didn't. I know, if you knew in the slightest, they would actually go this far, you would have done everything to keep me safe. I remember the reason you did leave me in the first place was for me, to keep me safe. You have only ever tried your best to do me good and keep me safe. And I feel the safest when I am with you. Now, tell me where the first aid is," she says holding my hand again in hers and giving me warmth. Her words echo in my mind until I cannot hear anything else.
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"Lien, you are not safe with me. You need to leave." I feel her hands pausing for a few seconds but then she continues to massage my hair. Her fragile fingers softly brush my scalp, making my headache vanish.
"Can I sing you a song?" She asks in her soft voice. I sigh and nod my head that's on her lap. She leans her back on the headboard and starts singing in her melodious honey-like voice.
~In all of my lonely nights, when I was a ghost inside
You were there for me; you were there for me~
My heart starts beating fast realizing what song she is singing.
~Legend never lies, we were meant to be
I am blessed to be alive, when I am in your company
The battles I would fight, blood that I would bleed
If you found danger~
~Memories we have made could fill a whole book
If we were a movie, we would be in Hollywood
On my lowest days, you were all it took, my biggest savior
You make my demons go away, bleach the sky on rainy days, clear the path when I am afraid, I have lost my way~
Her voice softly and melodiously ringing in my ears makes me close my eyes. The lyrics she sings make my eyes fill with tears. I know she is smiling while singing this right now because she means every word of what she is singing.
~In all of my lonely nights, when I was a ghost inside
You were there for me, you were there for me
Whenever I drank too much, whenever my eyes cried floods
You were there for me, you were there for me~
~Remember when we would say we are at each other's house
when we were far away drinking in another town
The glorious days, I wish they were around, with us forever
Nothing gets close to London at night
Missed the last train, then our batteries died
Started to rain but it was all fine, cuz we had each other~
As she continues to massage my scalp with her slender, soft fingers and continues to sing the song, it makes it hard for me to keep my feelings in.
~You make my demons go away, bleach the sky on rainy days, clear the path when I am afraid, I have lost my way~
~In all of my lonely nights, when I was a ghost inside
You were there for me, you were there for me
Whenever I drank too much, whenever my eyes cried floods
You were there for me; you were there for me~
~You were there, you were there
through the heartbreaks
You were there, you were there
when I lost faith
Be aware, be aware
I would do the same
In all your bad days~
She finishes the song but continues to massage my head. It makes me wonder why she isn't stopping. She has been doing it for the past hour almost, in the same position, while we are on our bed, her back leaned against the headboard. I am laying horizontally with my head on her lap. Why isn't she asking me to get off so she can stretch or relax? Why is she like this? Why does she care for me this much?
"Sammy, you have always been there for me, in college, in university in London, and even now in America. You are still here, right? Do you expect me to leave you when you need me huh? Do you want me to leave you on your bad days? Well, I am sorry to disappoint you, but I am not only a girl who is deeply, madly, and only in love with you anymore...now I am your wife, who will be with you till death do us part. I will be here for you; now it's up to you to deal with it. But I am not leaving you. Don't even think in the slightest that I will leave you because I am afraid of what will happen. I am never afraid when you are with me. So, if what you want is for me to be afraid and lonely, then you will have to get rid of me by yourself and that's only gonna happen by killing m--"
Before she can complete that stupid sentence of hers, I get up and smash my lips to hers at such a speed that her body jerks back from the impact. I close my eyes as tears escape them and kiss her lips softly. When she finally registers that I am kissing her, her hands go to cup my cheeks and she kisses me back...softly and slowly. We don't kiss like earlier, but with a very slow rhythm. My hand cups her jaw while the other holds her waist, and I open my lips tilting my face, and softly take in her lower lip as she does the same with my upper lip. We don't involve our tongues as we are not kissing because of lust or need. But as a promise, that we both will always be there for each other. I feel her hands slowly wiping my tears as I open my eyes and slowly back off from the kiss. She opens her eyes two seconds later and looks at me with a hurt expression. I know she is mad at me because I asked her to leave but I had no choice. I got scared for her.
"Don't you dare talk about death with me, Lien." She just looks at me with her mad and hurt green eyes, and then gets off from the bed making me look at her with my brows furrowed.
"Lien?" She doesn't look at me, and after wearing her slippers walks to the door.
"Lien? Baby...please, don't ignore me," I say, getting off from the bed myself, and running to her. I hold her hand in mine and turn her to me. I feel as if someone poked my heart with a needle when I see tears in the corner of her eyes, she is barely keeping them in. I sigh and even though she pushes me when I keep my hands around her, I embrace her tightly, keeping my chin on her head.
"I am sorry, I am really sorry, love. I just got scared for you. You know how much I love you; I cannot even think about leaving you. I just got...scared," I say, my voice barely audible but I know she heard it as she stops resisting my embrace, and lets her body fall on me completely, her head now on my chest and her arms on her sides. I feel her tears pouring down on my shirt like a waterfall and I feel like killing myself for making her cry. Taking my hands to her hair, I caress them and kiss her head multiple times.
"Shush...I am sorry. I promise I am never leaving you. You are stuck with me, Lien, forever."
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THE END