splash...splash..
'should I kill them all? haha...
splash...splash..
Akira at that moment was seen putting on a blank expression on his face while staring at his figure in the sink mirror while thinking about his crazy idea.
unknowingly Akira was drowning in his own anger that peaked to the point where he himself was unable to control it, what was in his mind at that time were all in the form of very negative ideas but this was also due to his trauma from his childhood
when he was sixteen, he lost his mother due to an accident that left him alone without any relatives to rely on and on the day he lost his mother, he also had to live independently even though he never lived independently when his mother was alive.
his life is still not as bad as he thought after losing his mother despite having to go through various life challenges that are very difficult to go through without anyone's help but at the same time he got another trauma that caused his view of the world to change completely from before
he thought all this time that his mother's death was just part of the heavy test in his life that he had to go through so that he could achieve success in his life as a main character in this modern world.. but what he thought all this time turned out to be far different from the reality he wanted
since that incident his mind became unstable even at that time he was forced to meet directly with a psychologist so that his mental condition would not be so bad than before but he chose to lie to everyone who had forced him and continued to pretend that in reality he have met with a psychologist and have been doing well..
he as a person who is still naive about the cruelty of this world so far does not understand anything about everyone, their way of thinking and why they do such cruel things? even he himself is confused with himself.
who is he in everyone's eyes? and in his own eyes?
why is it that every moment of his life his mind was always filled with quite negative ideas even though he himself has no intention of thinking about it? he always wondered about that while holding tightly to his right chest which continued to cause him pain
his chest continued to beat giving him a life but at the same time he felt pain from every beat of his heart
was he actually just born as psychopath or a villain in someone's story so that he has such an evil mind? isn't the reality he's been dreaming about all this time was that he wants to be the protagonist in everyone's story and that should happen to him?
or is he actually now nothing more than a former protagonist in his life story? and that role has been taken by someone else? who knows?
splash...splash..
'hmmmmm..I'll think about that another time..and...ugh... this pain is really annoying..
Akira said that while holding his right chest that was hurting him every second
he has been questioning it for a long time and even met with a doctor but unfortunately he is said to be suffering from a mysterious illness that even the doctor himself does not know how the pain was on him and was imposed on him.. the answer is quite mysterious
for a moment Akira managed to control his mind from being poisoned by his own emotions until he finally managed to erase all his evil thoughts
'huff...am I capable of carrying out mass murder like I thought earlier?...no...just forget it..
creak..
tap..tap..
Akira said that as he started to walk out after cleaning all the small wounds on his hands at that time
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tap...tap..
"I don't know how long I have to keep controlling the madness that was in my mind right now.. but I have no other choice but to try to keep pretending in front of everyone and putting on a mask so that I look okay..
'and one of the ways for me to stay okay is...
creak...
the classroom door opened and suddenly all of Akira's classmates began to turn their attention towards the figure of Akira who had just arrived there
"watching her can make my mind distracted from any negative ideas because I once heard a psychological tip on the internet that if you often see beautiful people or places, then your mind will feel relaxed, but honestly, I don't know whether this is true or not! but this seems to work for me! even the waifu character from the anime alone calms my mind okay!
Akira said that while smiling bitterly at his class teacher who at that moment was just staring at him with an annoyed expression just like the rest of his classmates
what Akira meant by seeing someone beautiful earlier was that he always wanted to look at Shirley who at that time are also sitting looking at him carefully making Akira a little nervous about it but at this moment he had to stop that because it seemed that at that moment his class teacher was also staring him with an annoyed look
'why was your smile always as horrible as a pervert's? you better not smile at me anymore because I seem to be disgusted by that
'A-ah...sorry my bad..
'enough! go to your seat now
'thank you very much teacher!
Akira's class teacher said that as he started to continue the learning session while Akira started to walk away to his seat
'hmmmmmm? what the..?
'uh...hello?
when Akira arrived at his seat what he found at that moment was the figure of Aika sitting on the chair next to his seat which therefore made Akira a little surprised by that
'........'
'uh....hello? are you okay?
Akira didn't expect that to happen to him