A/N: The chapter ahead is raw, which means not been proofread yet nor edited.
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Azarese Elyzena's POV
Hands lit up the invitation I found on the breakfast that was already served to me before I even woke up. I read it and thought it was bullshit, so I let Hands handle it. They made a paper plane out of it while I only drink the cold tea, leaving the dish untouched and not bitten even once.
I got so much to do on my revenge list, but I'm feeling unmotivated and lazy these days. Maybe because I can't see my son. Even when I call to him. Before, he used to follow me.
His soul, his shadow, his ghost.
He's once everywhere. I've completely lost my mind and crafted him out of my imagination, made from my despair and loneliness. When I had him, even when he's just an illusion, half of me was healed from the unrecognizable pain I'm going through. I need to see him. Just his shadow.
My Zodiac.
I palmed my face and get up. I walked to the whole-length mirror to see how dishelve I have become. Not bathing for weeks, having sleepless nights for months, and not eating but only drinking for the whole year.
Hands brushed the dirt that already build up on my lace nightwear.
"Fine. Let's bath."
But when they saw me walking to the bathroom, they pulled me back.
"What?"
They spelled 'swimming pool' to me, so I rolled my eyes on them and went out to go to the pool area extension of the Palace. I'm not even inside yet but they already are, playing with the water. I stand by the edge, watching my reflection ripple. I turn around and spread my hands apart before plunging into the water.
I could finally feel clean...again.
If I drown, will my Zodiac come running to save his mommy? I miss him so much. I need him very much.
I closed my eyes as I fall deeper. My body adjusted to my environment and opened gills on my neck and upper chest, just below my collar bones, giving me the freedom of breathing underwater.
"...In our next life, I will love you earlier and harder."
Though he did, he ran out of time and made a mess out of everything. He tried only to fail miserably.
I can't even remember what we used to have, but why does the thought of him brings so much peace to my soul?
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I was softly gasping for air now that I am out of the water. My gills closed, turning my skin and body back to normal. I run my right hand through my hair, clearing my vision. The first thing I saw was the magic circle in front of me. And then I looked around, seeing familiar and recognizable faces of the people that damned me for life.
My stomach felt sick, so I turned around to throw up the teas, coffees, juices, and waters my stomach has ever contained since I took over this body on the swimming pool.
My legs...are trembling.
"Why...?" I asked Skadi Eira and raised my stares to her. She's on the other side of the pool, floating gracefully on that stupid cloud.
"They were fighting. I thought you'd want to join,"
I palmed my forehead. Flashes of memories are returning to me. The noises, their screams, the antagonizing looks on their faces---it's all coming back to me.
I thought I was brave enough. I am, but I was not ready. I can't... I don't...
My heart skipped beats. Then it will pump so fast. It's tightening so much that I couldn't breathe. It was much easier when I am under the water. Every part of me is aching and going numb. Every inhale is so painful like there's a stake buried in my chest.
"H-Hands..."
I grabbed on the railing as tight as I could, only for it to be squeezed and broken. I threw the useless thing to the pool and gave Skadi a look. I slowly shook my head to her and turned away.
"Hands!"
They released the hostages and went to me. They immediately supported my balance.
Until I saw a pair of bare feet below me. When I look up to see who it is, my heart twisted.
I grabbed on both my wrists when I start to shake uncontrollably. My wrath, my sadness---and everything I could feel circled in my gut, transforming me into a helpless and vulnerable little bitch Golden Azarese was.
"S-St...ay... St---ay---"
I looked around me once again. I see their ghosts standing beside them, as if they're showing me how and what they looked like before meeting me.
"My daughter---"
"DON'T CALL ME THAT!"
I shouted at the top of my lungs as I step back. I couldn't look straight into this motherfucker's eyes.
The tears I had to shed. The pain I had to endure. The trauma I had to brave.
All because of him.
"I'm no little bitch of yours. I hate that I am. I hate that you are my---my---! Because of you... Because of YOU---!!!"
I held my head when I remembered it again.
Panicking, Hands gave me my black heart. I was taken aback. When I placed my hands on it, it worked like magic.
Serenity.
"Oh, my heart. My heart..." I murmur in my shaking breath as I pull it closer to my face. It fits perfectly in my hands. My heart.
I heave a deep, relaxing breath with my eyes closed. I kissed my heart before placing it close to mine. And when I opened my eyes again, I could look into his eyes without fretting. I straightened my back, standing tall and high because I am the Third Empress of Heart and he's just a traitor.
"Kill him." I told Hands, so they rained down to him, burying holes in his body.
"I changed my mind. Not yet. We're still on the lowest hierarchy."
When Hands pulled themselves back to my side, they showed me his heart, his liver, his lungs, his eye, and his brain.
I smiled on them, "You did a great job. Give it to them."
My shadow wobbled in excitement. Hands dropped each body part in my shadow one after another. After that, they clapped for my shadow who absorbed it gratefully. I bet my pets are having a tiny feast.
"Feed them more. Choose freely from those," I looked at the bystanders around us.
Hands beat that Dragunovv to pulp first, removing more of his limbs to feed my pets in my shadow before throwing what's left of him back to his family.
Then I walked to this activated magic circle. I stood there, seeing who's inside of it. When I saw her arms coming, my upper pair went back to me and toppled them four to the ground.
I hear humans screaming. It got louder when they made it behind me.
"NO! NO, PLEASE HELP ME! I DON'T WANT TO DIE! HELP ME!"
My eyebrow arched and looked at the bitch who should've been grateful because Hands chose her as nourishment for my pets.
"You don't want to?"
She shrieked before me, but she nodded.
"P-Please... I-I'm not her supporter! I don't even know you! Forgive me! Forgive me for not believing you! Please, I want to be with my family forever!"
I looked at Hands. They all gave me a thumbs down.
I nodded and smiled at this pitiful bitch.
"Great choice," my smiled faded and turned my back on her, "Breed her with a dog. The big one."
I sat down, waiting for the magic circle to calm down, for that ritual to be over.
From my shadow emerged a werewolf. Furry, strong, and so fucking ugly. But I find it cute, so I kept it as a pet.
"N-No... NO! NO, I'D RATHER DIE! I'D RATHER DIE! PLEASE, HELP ME! HELP ME!!!"
"If any of you help that poor girl, you'll take her place instead. You wouldn't want that," I then turn and smiled on Izaac who's just about to jump and slay my dog, "---would you?"
"This is MADNESS! Free the girl at once, Azarese!"
I scoffed with disbelief, "Azarese?"
I pushed myself up and faced him.
"Am I? Since when did I have a name? Am I not 'Moon' anymore? What changed your mind?" I pressed my finger on his forehead and pushed it twice. When he grabbed me by the wrist, I slapped him with my other hand before taking it back.
Then I slapped him again, and again, and he's not fighting back. So, Hands brought me his wife. And right in front of him, I punched her so hard in the stomach that it flattened her insides.
"AURORA!"
See? That's how you juice him of emotions.
"I told you, did I not? Or you want to see your wife getting NTR-ed by a werewolf? My, what wild kink you have."
"You are CRAZY!" His brothers protested, so I threw their writhing sister-in-law into their faces.
"Don't get in my way. Your time will come."
"Why are you doing this? If it's because of the past, tell us and we will fix it! Can't you understand that this is a chance for you to make things right!?"
If only I am not holding my heart, I would've punched Davorin for saying that. He's not the type to say shit like that, so even I was surprised.
I gently scratch my forehead and turn back around to face their family.
"Fuck." I laughed sarcastically and massaged my nape.
"Ah, even in this life, you're blaming me for something I didn't have the responsibility of. Did I gave birth to myself? Am I the one who fucked your mother's cunt, Davorin? This chance wasn't given to me to make things right. It was given to YOU. But you missed it. You completely, miserably missed and lost it like the big losers that you are. You should've seen this coming. Ah, wait. You can't, because Brother Astaroth isn't here."
His eyes widened in rage, so I sent Hands to gouge them out.
"Feed it to him."
Hands opened his jaw and pushed his eyes down his throat. I smiled.
I looked at the others, "Who's next? Don't be scared. I'm very nice."
But none of them could look at me in the eye anymore and stepped back.
"Very good. Now, where are we?" Hands pointed at the girl and the werewolf. My dog is waiting for me.
"Make a good show for me. Make sure you will fill her up good."
The lower pair of my Hands folded so I sat on them. My dogged ripped the girl's clothes, licked her body with his salivating tongue, and then probed her cunt with his penis. I yawned when she began screaming, bleeding after that one, straight push.
"I-It hurts! Help me! PLEASE! AAAAHHHH! Your Highnesses! Your Majesties! HELP ME!"
Hands let her go, so my dog carried her on his own. I sighed when my dog was cut into half. Crosswise, that is.
The blue Izaac faced me. He's protecting his family inside a barrier that I don't think is solid and secure enough. Hands can still get in undetected. Hands is the best.
"If you want to exact revenge, do it on me. I will take it. But I won't promise you that I would only stand still---"
Hands returned to me with yet another addition to my organ collection.
The beating heart of the proud Izaac Tyrant Eclipse Dragunovv.
I put my hand behind my ear, "And? What's next? Come on. The volume suddenly went down? What happened? Oh, it's your heart right here!"
I laughed and squeezed his heart in my hand. He threw up blood. He's still standing and he healed himself.
"Send them back to the Palace, Skadi. Leave the highest bitch alone with her lowest bitch," I told her, so she lazily flew to me. The kid with her is gone.
"I'm not the one who did it~ I'm hungry~"
"You were chewing on something just a while ago. And I don't care if its not your doing. SEND THEM BACK."
She rolled around the cloud, whining, "But I'm hungry! I said I'm hungry!"
So, I pointed Titania. "Leave her, then. You can have her."
That made her stop.
"Really?"
And I smirked, "Of course, NOT. Send the Dragunovvs back to their crib before I do something crazier on you."
"Eww!" And with a flick of her fingers, the bunch of air heads are gone, leaving Siofra and the impostor alone.
I stand up and walked to the magic circle. I took a stance and then kicked them out of it, making her ritual incomplete and a failure. Though I lost my thigh for that because the aura of her magic circle cut it, it's worth it because I got to kick her.
She's alive.
And still alive after that kick.