Elvida .
After a while I don't know of the woman whom i suppose to be a pack doctor helped me to calm down , I could tell she was older just like my mother but the glasses on her face gave her incredible beauty .
After she was done attending to me , she took a seat beside the bed I laid and leaned forward looking at me very professionally and the gaze was getting uncomfortable .
" My name is Tressa Wilson , I am a pack doctor of Dark Royal Pack led by Alpha Damien , a king of werewolves too but also your mate if you noticed "
I didn't but Newbie did and reasoned with how sexy he sounded and how handsome he was and she also said about the sexual tension she was experiencing and how thankful I could be to a moon goddess to give me a whore of a wolf after having me raped and made sure I survived that shit , how kind of her .
" For the little I can guess is that the name of our pack scares you let alone the Alpha himself but let me be straight with you my dear .
I know you have been through some kind of shit back there and now you're having a difficult time with that but I understand how you feel cause I have been there and I would like to be of help if you allow me to .
Nobody and I mean nobody here would hurt you especially Damien , and he won't allow anyone else to hurt you by any means and even the members here wouldn't want to hurt their queen "
This was another lie and a point of defense to them .
" I know you don't trust anyone and I won't force you to or even manipulate you , I would just give you a piece of my word and see how beautiful it is in here , people here are kind to heart especially the Alpha I aren't defend him for being scary , he has reasons to , being a king isn't a piece of cake .
Today you had a panic attack and I now know that it's beamcayse if men , I will help you all you want until you can adjust but believe me Damien would be of much help than anyone but take your time to know and see whether you can trust or not .
And another thing , killing yourself isn't the best solution , find a reason to live and see how life can be beautiful , you surviving all the shits means something here and you need to find out , dear...so stop doing what you're thinking and take the gift from the moon goddess and see how beautiful it can get "
Gift ! I scoffed inwardly and newbie nagged me instead , she was really believing this woman and tells me constantly that she's trustworthy while trust is the last thing I want now .
Dark Royal Pack is rumored ri be the most cruel pack in the world and yes this was because Alpha king , a totality himself ruled the pack .
No one dared to mess with this pack and no forgiveness was granted to those who piss them off and here I was told nobody can hurt me .
I haven't really see what they can do but Red moon pack gave me a vivid pictures about what these royals can do and the very first thing I came to realise , they were manipulative , they would want you to trust them and break you at your weaknest point and that was very terrible .
" Take a rest and I will meet you soon " Tressa spoke before covering me well and walked outside with her brief case .
Seeing me soon sounded impossible but I would like to give it another thought , maybe I will see you soon .
I then gazed at the ceiling and slowly sleepiness took over me drifting me to new world .
After sometime I heard newbie nagging again , ' Another woman ! ' she spoke surprised and I scoffed , was being a whore not enough but also crazy .
' Whom are you talking to ? ' I asked when suddenly disgust feeling downed my stomach and I nearly vomited , where was this feeling coming from .
I slowly moved from bed as my eyes gazed at the bathroom , I needed to throw up , I walked but the feeling kept coming to my throat and I couldn't breath for a time .
' What was happening ? ' I asked newbie but she buried her head between her paws not giving me a glance .
' Stupid Newbie ' I cursed as I opened the door to the bathroom and stood in front of a sink but the vomitus weren't there , nothing was coming out .
Then suddenly I felt something hard like someone beat me with a steel stick on my stomach and I fell , my hands holding the sink .
" Aah " I cried and then it came another one hard and I fell to the ground completely , ' What's happening newbie ?' I asked her again and then I saw her lifting her head from her paws tears on her eyes and she howled in my head in pain as another wave came .
This was affacting her as well , she was getting this pain too . Then it came another one when I nearly screamed , the pain was unbearable and I crunched my stomach .
" Please stop ..." I cried and tears fell down my cheek profusely and I couldn't ebmven understand what was happening .
' Newbie ' I called and this time she responded weakly , ' Mate is with another woman ' .
I knew it , the moon goddess wouldn't pair me to a mate who would care and love you like no one else ,as stories told , I knew she was hating me but I didn't know the extent .....was it hard for her not to see me in pain even just few days ....how cruel she can be .
The pain came again and again ,folding two times than the previous waves as they came harder and harder .
I crunched and crunched my stomach but the pain couldn't go away , I cried and cried but just as that day , the moon goddess chose to ignore my cry and energy seeping out of my body I laid down powerless taking every wave of pain until the last thing I could see was darkness .
This was why I wanted to die because living is more painful than death .