***Matty's POV***
Everybody looks at your girl, when she looks like Taylor. They can't help it, she's attractive without knowing it. She catches a lot of eyes, and then they see me and look away. I'm not even intimidating. I feel protective of her, and yes possessive. But she is her own person and she is with me out of choice. If that choice were to change I would of course respect it. I would be devastated all the same.
As we walk back towards the car she's holding onto me. Before I would have always been really put off by a girl doing that. But with her, it's different. That closeness feels right. I love her holding my hand, and having my arms around her.
When we get in the car it's cooler outside so I start the heater. We've pre-rolled a few cigarettes and she places them in the console next to us. It's a long journey back. I also bought a takeaway coffee and hot chocolate and I put them in the cup holders. Look at us, practically a married couple. After she's warmed up I light up and share a cigarette with her.
This is such a simple thing that we do together. It's totally given that we will share a smoke.
If she were pregnant of course that would change. I would not be smoking around her. At all. I wonder about how that would feel having her sit next to me in the car pregnant, having her lay next to me in bed holding my child in her womb. I'm beyond attracted to the idea but I'm going at her pace. We have a place to live, my brain tells me encouragingly. I can't be too on that though, I don't want her to feel like I'm taking her life away from her by getting her pregnant.
When we arrive home, to our home. The time has vanished, and it's now 9pm. I ask her what she wants to do, and she pulls me upstairs. Yeah I can't resist her she's insatiable all the time. I was trying to give her the choice because I don't want her to think I'm trying to have sex without contraception. I have been more vocal out of the two of us about pregnancy and how I feel about it. Her less so.
Once we get upstairs she strips completely in front of me, and wow. She's wearing a white sheer bra and matching pants. I can't help but just to stare at her. She smiles at me knowing that I'm admiring her.
"You ugh suit white" I say feeling like a lemon.
You suit white what am I trying to be her fashion guru?
"You suit everything you wear. Especially nothing" she tells me.
She's flirting. It's so hot.
"Waking up to you naked is my favourite thing ever" I tell her. As she pushes me down to sit on the bed. I wink at her.
She pulls off my top and runs her hands through my hair. I close my eyes, her touch is so sensuous.
She bends over and kisses me on my lips. And I start wondering how did I get so lucky.
Then she pulls away assessing her next move and I cannot take my eyes off of her.
"You gonna give me another dance" I ask her. I lean back on my arms looking up at her. I give her my best cheeky grin.
"You like my dancing?" She asks genuinely.
"You have to be kidding me." I tell her.
"You like me doing this" she says moving her hips.
Lord she's really pulling a number on me tonight.
"I think though you need to have less clothes on" she tells me and she leans over me kissing my neck briefly and undoes my jeans.
I place my arms around her trying to pull her on top of me.
"Not yet baby" she teases me.
I sigh pulling off my jeans and she just waits.
I pull off my boxers too laughing.
She has me where she wants me.
She starts moving her hips again and I can't even hide my erection. She's lost in moving though, she's utterly captivating to watch. I can't stop staring at her.
"All good Matty?" She asks me a smile playing on her lips.
"Mmm" I tell her clearing my throat
"That good huh?" She chuckles.
She's moving her hands over her body, up and down over her breasts her hips are still moving. And I can't believe how hard I am. She takes off her bra and I want to touch her. But she touches herself in front of me. Her hands playing with her nipples. She breathes in sharply. Her nipples are hard.
She shimmies out of her pants and she is in front of me completely naked. I just stare at her, I've seen her naked so many times and it never fails to amaze me. The way her hips curve, her thighs and of course her breasts.
She chuckles sweetly and she climbs on top of me. I look at her in awe.
"You okay baby?" She asks me in between kissing me.
I smile and wrap my arms around her. I feel complete with her.
"Yes babe, you literally are a goddess" I tell her. Searching her eyes.
She wants me so bad I can tell, and I want her more.
"I can wear a condom..." I begin.
She shakes her head, no. And blushes.
She moves on top of me teasing me, grinding her hips against me slowly. Not sure I've ever been this turned on.
She gasps and I am inside of her. She's sitting on top of me. I feel her quiver as she leans into me. I keep my arms around her as she is bouncing up and down.
"Matty, I'm so in love with you" she tells me. And I nearly come.
Hearing her say it first is a real thing for me. I tell her I love her a lot.
"I love you more, baby" I tell her.
"I want you and only you" she says to me.
A moan escapes my lips I can't help it she's turning me on so much.
"I want you to come inside of me, Matty" she says in my ear. And then she's kissing my neck. She nips me with her teeth and she's driving me wild.
I lift her up and I place her down on the bed. Her legs opening for me and I am back inside of my girl. I thrust into her and she's saying my name again.
"I'm going to come for you" she tells me.
"Mmm fuck Taylor" I say to her losing it.
"It feels so hard inside of me, like that baby" she tells me.
"Does it feel good baby?" I ask her, smiling.
"So good. You always make it feel good" she tells me.
I'm pulling in and out again and her body is really responding to me. I can feel how close she is.
"You're so beautiful, I'm going to come inside of you." I tell her. She arches her hips up to me.
"I want you Matty" she says out of breath.
I hold her hips against me tight, not moving as I reach my climax. I need her so completely. I'm filled with thoughts of her all the time. All's I ever want is her. Before I felt so insecure, crazy even being this consumed by just her. Like I was out of depth. But now I feel confident and nearly losing her put everything into perspective for me. I need her forever and that's right, it's fine to be this in love, this involved with just her. I look at her, completely naked and I'm inside of her my hands around her hips she's thrusting slightly into me and I can feel her orgasm around me.