How can this time with Jason become so bittersweet when he's here at every moment and always near. As a few near death moments when a tree nearly crushed me, he was at my side and saved my life . Jason was there as he pushed me out of the way.
We were at our house for about three months working to firstly lay foundations, then put the floors and walls together for our awesome self made home. I wanted to consummate our love so many times , as I decided I was head over heels in love with him. My hesitancy was due to the revenge my father would rain down on Jason and his entire family ,no one would be safe.
He has taken to calling me Anti.He would do that when he was angry with me. Its unbearable not to tell him the truth as I want to do just that at every moment. I would like to speak to him openly but I cannot face his rejection as I know his feelings towards the royal house yet he has remained a loyal servant towards his King who is my own father but he's expressed his true feelings of hatred and anger towards me and my family. He has no idea how hard it is to run a kingdom as big as the kingdom my father has and as far as the running of it what my father had to become to maintain the power he has as he runs everything with fear as his people fear him. I don't condone that and I told my father that is the main reason for his treatment of me
I have to learn the "right,way," according to my father is to rule with an iron fist. Jason will hate me when he finds out the truth but I yearned to tell him this story of me and how it really was I would come to regret not doing just that this would have saved me so much pain and agony.
Yesterday he came running up to me, shouting with joy, holding a baby elphant he says he found it in the sea abandoned by his mother or other family members. I was quite upset with him , what were we going to do with it and how could we keep a animal who would become as big as a house.
I would become pleasantly surprised at Jason's gentle attitude towards this elephant. He was so cute and adorable as he was growing he ate quite a lot. At least Jason knew what to feed the elephant we named him Arnie. This name also means no in some of the dialects that is spoken in our country, it was a joke as we were repeatedly saying no to his antics whenever he was being naughty. The pull of Jason's wonderful bubbly personality was definitely making it harder to say no whenever he wanted intimacy. I have to be strong but of cause I eventually gave in , who can blame me.
Instead of being angry Jason was surprisingly sweet and endearingly funny especially since I was always rebuffing him in his romantic moments especially when the kissing became so intense I wanted to become naked with him,but the truth was my fear always came in between. I had to accept the reality of my father's fury and I also had to accept my father would find me and kill Jason soon , as he has a magician who can find me anywhere in the world. He has the ability of locating people through some nefarious ability I do not understand and frankly I don't want to either. I was able to keep my father at bay ,especially now that our home and this place we are living in has become our private paradise. My happiness would become a honing beacon for the magician as he has strange abilities of devining anyone's location even in strange circumstances such as this very one I am in at the moment.
It was the beginning of our fourth month here when I could no longer say no to Jason and we became lovers. The morning started out as usual with Arnie following us as we fed the other animal's. We were fortunate enough to be able to save all the animal's and plants we found onboard the ship. Jason stopped outside our house with a surprise picnic dinner he made for us. He spread a blanket on the ground , I was surprised actually I was gushing over with love for his thoughtfulness and sweetness. It was inevitable when he eventually touched my cheek with so much heart stopping desire I wanted him with all my heart.
Arnie went off chasing a butterfly as we were alone on the blanket he slowly came over to my side of the blanket. As he leaned over I forgot to push him away. His breath was sweet against my lips, his beautiful face fitted with mine in the most intense kiss I have ever experienced in my life. Before I could pull away from him he intensified the kiss to such an extent that I could not say no.