( A SHORT BUT COMPLETE JAPANESE STORY)
BY ROSELL
JAPANESE WORDS USED IN THIS CHAPTERS AND THEIR MEANINGS
Shuah. - King (Persian Meaning)
Kami. - God
Shimin. - Citizen
Taiyō. - Sun
Caulifla never expected his words to have such a great impact on her. It feels like a thousand beings kept saying those words he had said over and over. She could see the innocence in his eyes.
The fire.
The passion.
His eyes were like two rare emerald gems, each time looked at becomes more beautiful with every shimmer. His touch on her hands were like soothing notes, making her feel like a ballerina in every dance. Being with him felt more like a princess story, charming, elegant and full of romance.
It felt so awkward but she felt he was telling her the truth by barely looking into his eyes. Truth can be a strange notion, for it always relies on perspective.
Truth is treason in an empire of lies.
She looked into his eyes and she could tell he meant every word he said.
She did not know what to do or what to say. The person she had sworn to kill just declared his love for her and all she could just do was stare into his eyes and wish this was not happening.
It makes it all the more difficult to fulfill her mission. Yes, although her own father killed his own mother, she still had to kill him because of her swear, but something makes her to hesitate. She could not just wipe the only child of his deceased parents.
She did not have the nerve to, it was against her beliefs in her Kami.
But yet, something other than that makes her not to harm him. Some strong force makes her not to. Even if she had planned earlier to push a sword she had hid under her garment into his chest, the plan had failed.
She did not have the courage to pierce a sword through his heart.
She had to sort this either way.
She had to give him reasons why he should not love her.
Because she was going to kill him. She will be responsible for his death. And the last thing she wanted this man to do was to love her, a thing that she does not believe it does exist.
"Love is nothing but a mere fairytale My Lord. A King of your status is not meant to believe in myths and legends. It is not possible under the Taiyō and it has never been heard of before so i believe My King jokes"
"A normal King of my rank does not joke around Caulifla. Yes, love reigns in our the myths and legends we believe in but it was never stated that it was not impossible. This way i feel for you i have never felt for any other woman and that is why my heart says it is love. The heart never lies"
"The King does not mean what he says. It is better he withdraws his statement because it is not at all possible to love the King's servant" Caulifla said as she tries to push the King away but proved futile.
"I know Caulifla, but there is a force that pulls me closer to you. There is this feeling I get when I see you and this restlessness that sets in when I do not. For the two days you were unconscious I was worried about you.
"It felt so weird to me but I just felt all worried because it seemed i was going to lose the first person that had taken my heart away. I never could imagine being worried about someone but when you came to my chamber not long ago, I felt calm.
"If I do not have you by my side i will be restless for the whole of my life. I want you to rule beside me as my Queen. I want you to be mine and no one else.
"You are mine and mine alone" The King whispered as he came closer to her neck, using his nose to tease her neck. She felt a hot breath on her neck, then the tender brush of lips, burning as they make contact with her neck.
A hand runs through her hair, as the kisses become harder and more urgent. Another hand slides around her waist, and pulls her close to his pine scented body. His kisses are now on her shoulders and in her hair.
Caulifla closed her eyes as she felt his touch.
It felt so relaxing.
It felt so romantic.
It took every power in her to push him away from her.
"You are so selfish My King. All you want is to use and dump any maiden that comes your way or falls for you. Are you not content with the wives and numerous concubines you have? Here you claim i am yours and yours alone. Don't you care how i feel about all these? Does my feelings not matter My King?"
Caulifla said, her eyes staring into his.
"There are days I wonder if my mind is an engine or an exhaust. Am I the master of what I think or are my ideas the result of deep thinking I'm only loosely aware of? There is a third possibility of course, that it is both, and it depends on my feelings at the time.
"I feel most clear thinking and in control when I am calm and happy, more driven by impulses when I am fearful and anxious. So I made a vow never to make choices that matter when I am feeling afraid, perhaps then my life can make a turn for the better.
"I am sure I will not always make the right choices, but if only the balance of good to bad shifts in my favour the results will be awesome. And there is no doubt about this feeling I have for you"
"I do not care if I am sounding rude or possessive but I want you and you only. I know i have a lot of wives and different concubines but i will divorce them if it is only to have you.
"I will make you happy my dear, fulfill all your desires and you can do anything you wish. I just want you to always be with me because i need you" He said as he came closer, his eyes staring so deep into her eyes.
As if he could see right straight into her soul.