It has been a long time since I've done something like this. I understand how reckless my actions are tonight, just to get here I had to break a few rules, and with the decision to kill everyone involved, the odds of this making news are high.
I've been trying not to gain unnecessary attention, but...
In this situation, it's hard for me to care about it.
Hurting himself to protect his own sister was a sacrifice I would have gladly made in the past without thinking twice about it.
While I have no intention of backing down tonight... I can't say things are the same as they were back then.
I can't help feeling sad about what I'm risking this night.
I thought I was doing good... the home and the peace I built with the girls, our everyday life filled with joy... I was proud that I had achieved these things with them.
I wanted to protect their image of me, and the fun and warm that we had.
