I flicker my eyes open as I feel like my whole body is on vacation. I am so weak I can't even move. I try to move even my head, but then the only thing moving in my body is my eyes. I can't even hear anything. I seriously hope I'm not paralyzed, because I can't even move my lips. I feel helpless and break down into a furious cry as the thought of being paralyzed overpowers me. Just then, a face comes to my view, and as I read his lips he says,
"Don't be alarmed. It's just the antibiotic. Calm down."
I look at the doctor who nods at me but still it doesn't help. All I want is Raul at this point. Just then, he walks in and takes my hand, kissing my forehead.
"It's funny how sometimes Principessa, I understand you by just looking at your eyes. I have never had anyone do that to me again. And I promise you, that you and I will never be separated, ever again." with that, the memory of how I killed Wallace replayed in my mind. As I pulled the trigger, he smiled at me. As if he knew that I would really never be happy with Raul. What did he mean. As the life drained out of his eyes, I saw the shock in Elizabeth's eyes and Wallace lip synced,
"I love you Iris."
As if lt wasn't bad, my chest rise and fall and my oxygen supply dropping. My chest was closing in and I just wanted to scream, but I couldn't do anything. The mere thought of being helpless made it even worse. I was trying to fight it mentally but nothing was working. The tears started flowing and at this point, Raul was holding on to my hand as if my life depended on it. A million nurses rushed in and the one who tried to touch Raul got out of there with a broken hand. The doctors didn't even try to tell him to leave because he released that aura again.
He held on to my hand and immediately he started to draw little circles in my palms I gave in and relief washed over me. He calmed me down so fast, I went to sleep.
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When I woke up, I was no longer in the hospital, It was in Me and Raul in his room. It was different. There was s huge portrait of me and Raul, on our wedding. The duvet was how I had left it, but my clothes were everywhere.
"I know sometimes I'm a mess. But I just wanted to feel an aspect of you at least." He says .
"Why is there a fridge in the room?" I ask him.
"You will stay here until I make sure that you are completely safe." he says, and I jump up in shock.
"Wait, you want to confine me in this room all alone like a psycho?" I ask him.
"No, no, you got it all wrong. You will move around the house. Just not out yet. If anything, and I mean anything happens, I should be the first to know. Right now, I have a lot of enemies Principessa. When you left me, I went on a killing spree. I have killed a lot of people, just to quench my anger, and not to expand the syndicate, though we did. Now we are the most powerful syndicate, and my reputation is definitely not a good one. People see death when they see me. Honestly, I don't care about their opinion. It's only yours that bothers me."
"What bothers me is how Wallace said with a lot of confidence that we will never be happy together. He said it with a lot of confidence. I know he had a plan. I fear for us Raul. I have a feeling." I tell Raul. He just slipped inside the duvet and takes me into his arms. The feeling of safety overwhelms me and I purr. But somewhere deep inside I knew that he was hiding something from me. That feeling has become very familiar with me.
"Raul dont ever keep any secrets with me. Promise." I tell him.
He shifts then finally speaks.
"I might have done something really serious. I just don't want you to leave me again." he says, with a tremor of regret in his voice.
I feel a cold sweat run through my face and immediately my heart pounds against my chest as if it wanted to move out. By the look of heavy guilt in his eyes I could tell that he had done something serious. Really serious.
"What did you do Raul." I ask in a shaky voice.
He grabs my hand and holds it tightly.
"Swear on Mary that you will not leave me when you find out." he says.
Whatever he has done must be very serious. But then I promised to always stand by him. Through everything.
"I swear. I will not leave you Raul Accardi. Now please tell me." I say, pressing his hands in anxiety.
"I might have gotten Jenna pregnant. Wallace had taken me out for a drink, spiked it and the next thing I know, I was with Jenna in one bed ... I swear I didn't want to. It is only you that I love and that I have ever loved." he said, his tone cold.
I let go if his hand and fold them up into a fist. I was angry. But not at Raul, just at Wallace. He knew what he was doing. He knew that When Raul found me, one of us would eliminate him and he had to make sure that none of us would live in peace even after his death. Well played Psycho.What's worse is that he hit me where he knew hurt and I felt tears burn up,but I kept them from flowing.
"I'm sorry. If you want, I can get rid of the both of them..." Raul started.
"Get that idea out of your head. Nobody is dying. If you got her pregnant, it's okay. As long as, that woman does not interfere in our personal life as a couple, then it's fine by me. But when I feel her getting on my nerves, then one of us will have to move out. Either me or her..." I say, but he shuts me off with a kiss.
"You are mine for all eternity and nothing can change that. I don't know how I got an angel like you. If you ever leave me again, I will travel to Hades to find you." he says.
I kiss him and excuse myself. As I shut the door, I release the sigh of despair that I didn't want Raul to see. I was headed to the kitchen, but then I saw Stefano on the balcony with wine and liquor on his table sipping slowly. I joined him. He had an eye patch Wich made him look hotter, considering that his other eye was ocean blue.
"What happened love?" he asked me as he opened his arms and I jumped on him. Immediately I broke down like a baby throwing a tantrum. His touch was so fatherly, light as a feather.
"I will not be the one to give you an heir Papi. Raul got Jenna pregnant...I know it's not his fault, but it breaks me so much. I feel like maybe if I had accepted Raul earlier, I wouldn't have been worried, but then here I am. I don't know what to do." I say amidst cries. He runs his hands through my hair and I calm down.
"Don't worry. Jenna will give Raul a son, but you will give us an heir. Don't worry. You are my only daughter and Raul's only love. Jenna is the last person who should scare you. Wine? It's sweet. I promise." he asks handing me a bottle and I pour some of its red contents in a beautiful wine glass.
"Anything to distract me." I say as I take the bottle. I know she'll be here Tomorrow so I'm waiting for her. And I feel a small part of me yell in my head to push her down the stairs.
"She had better not try and snatch Raul from me." I whisper in rage, as I hold on to my glass so tightly, it almost cracked, eyes burning with jealous rage.
"She had better not. I agree." Stefano says and gives me a reassuring smile that made me know that he will be on my side no matter what.