Death Is Death Nothing More Of It.
It's been day seen what happened to me.
I wake up in my bed at the morning, I stare at the ceiling for a sec, and I asked myself. "Should I kill myself now? Or have myself a cup of tea, or a cup of coffee?"
And so I get my bed, and fix it, and so I decided to brew myself with a cup of tea.
I turned the tv and changed the channel to news.
-Today is going to rain heavily, so don't forget to bring your umbrella.-
After I brew my tea.
I take a sip, and get my uniform to iron it.
A few minutes have passed, I finished Ironing my uniform, I turn off the tv, and wear my uniform.
And so I grab my bag head outside, I locked the door, and so I walked to my school.
As I was walking, I saw a memories of Shizuki at the spot she always waiting me.
Therefore, I walked passed it, like nothing happened.
I arrived inside my class.
And yet same noise, same people, same story, same day.
Suddenly, Hikari greets me in my side.
"Good morning Asahi-kun." She said to me.
"Good morning." I said to her.
And so Hikari notice something to me.
"Hmm?" She was thinking it.
"What's up?" I asked her.
"I notice, you look like you lost your motivation." She said to me.
Lost my motivation? I didn't thought of one.
"Really I always have one." I said.
"Really?! What is it?" She asked me.
"My motivation is to live." I said to her.
She pouted. "That's absurd." She said to me.
"Well, I have one because I just told you now." I said
And so, the class continued.
Therefore, the class have been finished, but Hikari approached me. "Asahi-kun let's walk together."
"Sure, why not." I said.
In the dawn, the rain is too heavy. As were walking down some street.
"Did Shizuki-san said that she is going abroad." She said to me.
"Yeah." I said to Hikari.
"You're not shocked about it?" She asked me.
"Past, is past, present is present." I said
Were approaching a bridge that the river is flow is wild.
As were walking, we saw a girl in the bridge, and so.
"Oh, its Satsuki-san." Hikari said.
And so, suddenly Satsuki climb up the guardrail, Hikari suddenly shouted.
"Satsuki!!" Hikari run towards her, and so Hikari stop, because if she continued to walked closed by, Satsuki might jump off the river.
Satsuki was crying.
"H-Hikari-senpai." She said to Hikari.
"Satsuki, climb down and we talk about it." Hikari said.
"There's nothing we can do about it." She said and hold her stomach, and so Hikari realized Satsuki, is positive to pregnancy.
"No, there many ways! Just climb down for now." And so Hikari walked closer.
And so, Satsuki decided, and so she jump off. Hikari run as fast, but she didn't stop her.
"Satsuki!!" And so, the Hikari trying to called Satsuki. But Satsuki been eaten by the wild water flows.
Meanwhile I just walked passed Hikari who is crying, and I looked like nothing happened, and said.
"Well see you tomorrow, don't soaked too long in the rain, you might catch some fever." I said.
And I leave Hikari alone.
I finally arrived home, I suddenly, changed to my normal clothing, I turned on the tv to watch the weather today.
-Breaking news: A body of a girl, been found at the river, one girl claimed the girl took her own life.-
And so, Hikari been interview but her face is blur because maybe for her social protection, I felt the voice of Hikari filled with guilt.
I opened my book, and read.
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Hikari Perspective, after the incident.
Hikari arrived home, but she go straight to her room, she locked her room.
"Hikari, are you alright?" Her mother asking her behind the door.
Her eyes are dead, she looks hopeless, her aura, been tainted with sorrow.
"I am fine." Hikari replied to her mother.
"If something wrong, talk to me okay." Her mother said and leave her alone.
It's all my fault, Satsuki will not jump, if I hurry and grab her. Its my fault that she is dead.
Suddenly a massaged from Hikari phone notified.
And its Asahi.
-Did you catch some cold?- Asahi texted.
Hikari turned off her phone, and sleep.
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I arrived at the school, but Hikari is not here yet.
Therefore, so many gossip, about Satsuki incident, but I pay no attention to it.
Hikari didn't reply to my messaged last night.
And so, Hikari arrived, like usually, she still have here aura, an angelic aura.
"Hikari, are you alright? You didn't replied to my messaged last night," I said to her.
And so, she smiled to me and replied. "Oh, I fall asleep last night."
"I see, after school, I want to walk with you." I said to her.
"Sure why not." She said to me
Therefore the class started.
A few hour have passed, I stand up and walked outside the class, even though Hikari talking to her friends.
And so, I was waiting at the gate.
Hikari arrived.
"I thought were walking together." She said to me.
"Yeah, in the street not, at the school corridor." I said to her.
And so were walking, as the rain pouring.
I asked her so. "You, I thought you sleep last night, I noticed you have bags under your eyes." I said to her
As were walking suddenly Hikari said to me. "Asahi-kun sometimes I hated, how you treat each situation, its like you are not aware of other people." With a down tone.
I am aware of them, but I just ignored it. "Like what?" I asked her.
I continued walking, and she stop, and I looked behind. She looked at me, with her eyes getting filled with her own tear. "Are you even human!?"
I replied to her. "Sure, I am living, so I am human."
And so, this is the first time I heard and saw Hikari got anger, and crying. "Why are you not reacting to what just happened, you witnessed it too? Why are you not reacting like me?! Why you just treating it just a normal thing!?"
She raised her voice at me.
I replied to her. "What I witnessed yesterday, some people finishing their own task, that's all."
And so, she walked in towards me, and stop.
I looked at her. She looking at the ground, maybe because she don't want to be seen her crying from close up, and I was a bit higher from Hikari, because of my height.
"I didn't get you sometimes Asaki-kun, its like your a different person sometimes." She said to me.
I let out a sigh and said "You only get one chance of life. Such is the cruelty of existence. One mistake will follow you for the rest of your life, like some dark shadow at night. To be or not to be, or to do, or not to do, either way you're doomed. So either if we helped her, we don't know if she will be thankful, and if we didn't help her, we don't know if she is thankful either. Maybe she is happy to killed herself, and will she be happy to live if you happened to save her? If yes, then why she in that moment. In the end, we can judge people easily. Death is Death Nothing More of It." Asahi said to her.
"Is that a bit cruel?" She said to me.
"I know, because life is cruel, all we need to do is accept it. And move on." I said to her.
And so, she snicker, while crying she wiping her own tear with her own hands she is using her uniform sleeve . "Hehehe, life sure absurd to you, Asahi-kun." She said to me.
"Asahi-kun, I am not anger at you, but sometimes, I wish you could act like a human more." She said to me, looks like she not crying anymore.
"Sorry about that, I try." I said to her.
"Good, act like this nothing happened, is that what you're thinking right?" She asked me.
"Yeah, but in a good way. We didn't argued today, we just walked peacefully" I said to her.
And so we continued to walked together, until we separated and said goodbye.
Life is sure absurd.
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Hikari Perspective.
Me and Asahi-kun walking, and I just realized, we all same people, the same species, the same place were standing, but we become different comes to our environment, and doctrine and an attitude of mind. A person defines themselves by their own make-believe as well as by their sincere impulse.
But like Asahi-kun said, we don't know what inside of people mind, once they in that moment, are they happy if they do that, or are they happy to live.
But I still don't get what Asahi-kun feel of each scenario.
He's acting like a stranger, sometimes. And that's all I know from him.