The Appearance Of An Hopeless Teen-ager.

Happiness is wonderful to hear, and wonderful to experience. But to acquired it, we run towards some obstacles of mistake, to acquire it, we should suffer, from getting it. People who doesn't suffered, doesn't have rights to acquire happiness, those smile they have, a smile of a person who have a easy life, that person is clueless towards the future.

That person doesn't learn to be independent, that always trying to push to the easy way. But the easy way, make you nothing, and the hard ways, will make you learn something, so doesn't mean your suffering is a bad thing, no its not, its a chance to make us to be a independent person, who make us stronger from mistake, and making us stronger towards the harsh reality and the nothingness.

You will never happy, if you continued to find the real meaning of happiness. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

In the end, the most happiest person is, the more ignorant they are.

As I was walking towards the school, I am attending, I walked pass by some middle-schooler students, and they are having a blast for conversation, and joking, and they talking about the things they did in the summer breaks, right because today is the first day of the school, and I was attending as a 2nd year high school.

I walked passed them.

What you must do now is nothing more than live like everybody else. You deserve, by what you are, a happiness, a fullness that few people know. Yet today this fullness is not dead, it is a part of life and, to its credit, it reigns over you whether you want it to or not. But they always think, once they fail its over, it will be hard to get back up. That's why they taking their own lives.

Well like I care for their, future, if they fail, they fail, if they success, they success. Its their decision, I will just focus live like a human nothing more.

Right today is the first day, the stress and anxiety of starting at a new school or beginning a new job for other people, we called this May blues.

To be honest, every day of my life, I didn't recognized any stress and anxiety, maybe because, I don't care about those, and I eliminated those meaning to my thoughts and feeling.

And so, I walked to the school, peacefully and calm.

I am attending at Naikuri High School, where one of my mother best-friend when they're both in high school working here as a teacher. To be honest, I don't want being treat as a son of her best-friend, but as a student. I don't like special treatment.

I just realized, my mother mentioned to me, when I was a elementary student, that she was my god-mother, so means, they really are close.

Therefore I continued my journey towards Naikuri High.

Finally I arrived here I left the house what maybe 7:00 Am because my mother said I need to meet with my god-mother, now I arrived 7:40 Am, and right now I am still waiting for her, now its 9:10 Am she is late, well the start of the school is 10:00 Am, it took me some questioning myself, right now I am sitting inside of the teachers cubicles.

As I was sitting here, the door has been opened, and a gorgeous lady have entered.

"Yo, sorry took me long." She said to me, and so she sit in the sofa and crossed her legs, and facing me.

"So your the kid of Nanami?" She asked me.

"Yes, I am Asahi Kuromi." I said and sound polite.

And suddenly she let out a huge sigh. "What happened to my cute god-child, before you get Baptist, you look cute, right now your appearance looks hopeless, and gloomy, I thought, you will be grow energetic and lovely, and it become opposite of it." The hell, I just got insult by Inasuki-sensei.

"Inasuki-sen-" Suddenly she cut my sentences. "Called me, Onee-san when were alone." She said to me.

T-That's embarrassing. I don't want to do that, I can even called a girl by her first name. "I-Inasuki-Onee- Inasuki-sensei."

"Ha~ What a shy kid you've become."

"Look I can called you that outside this school, but your wearing a uniform and I am wearing student uniform, I follow what is the ethics of being a student, and respecting my teacher." I said

"Are you using some logical excuse because your being embarrassed? Hahaha."

"Sensei, why you need to tell me to arrive here early?" I asked her.

"I want to know you, because I didn't saw you for a year so as your home-room teacher, I will first know you." She said to me.

"H-Home room teacher you?!" I reacted.

"Why are you so shocked? Don't worry, I will not treat you special inside the school, for example if I will stump some of my student, I will stump you too." What a evil example this that.

Suddenly she asked me why I transferred here in my second year high school.

"I heard on your old school, when your a 1st year, that school is a private school and a religious school, why did you transferred here?" She asked me.

"Well, I just realized now, that there's a way to reduced a problem from parent, by going to public school, its free, and you will learn how to live as a human being, not like some special child, who is born to have a silver plate and silver spoon, inside, out, and this is just my belief, that school is running by a leftist, they using the word of god to steal money from people, just by learning." I said to her.

"Uwah, I am now concern for you, what really happened? Did Nanami abused you, when you're a kid?" She joked to me.

"Abused no, Okaa-san is a wonderful parent, I am grateful that she is my mother, even though she is not home always." I said to her.

Suddenly I can hear a bunch of voice outside the window, a bunch of student is arriving now.

"Well the first day of school will start, let's head to the court, for the ceremony." She said to me.

And so we leave the teacher faculty, and we go straight to the court.

And each year creating a line of their section and separating the line of the boys and girls, and so each year have 6 section.

And so I headed to the Year 2 Class 6 line of the guys.

In the first day, of school, I know every plan of every student here, is to find their first friend, some already know each other because of their old middle-school the both went. So I don't have any persons I know that graduated at the school I graduated too, and I don't have any interest sparking some conversation to the other people here or, my classmate, sure I will treat them my classmates, and I will not let them assume that I will treat them as friends, no they just my classmates.

Suddenly there's some students walked up the stage and headed to the mic.

And she was a girl suddenly...

"Everyone! This is the first day of the school, and as the president of the student council, I will say, I will make you all enjoy the rose-colored youth, and follow the ethics and moral!" Suddenly she smiled, and so she let out a huge aura, that blinded me, and other people.

キタ～キタ～(Kita Kita)

Uwahh. I can feel the light of extroverted person. She blinded me.

And suddenly the second year high school cheer for her.

"Hikari-chan continued being our student council president!!!" The guys shouted.

Wait so her last name is Hikari? Damn her last name suit her personality, not like mine Asahi a morning shine, but my appearance is gloomy and depressing its like the sun have giving up rising to see the humanity.

Suddenly the girls in my class that in the line said. "Guys here really are just a bunch of idiots."

Damn, this guys making me already have a bad reputation. Well who cares.