"Mmmm" I stretch my arms. What a night it has been. I went out for a drive which led to drinks and...I stretch my legs and my legs is blocked by something. That is strange, am I not in my room? I slowly open my eyes to take a wink of the place. I jerk myself up. Where am I? This is not my room. What happened?
A memory of me saying I want to go home flashes in my head, although its a blurry distant memory. I look at myself, at least I am dressed. I turn my head, he is dressed too, he looks far gone into lala land. What should I do? I get off the bed and slowly tiptoe my was out of the bedroom into an open area lounge. Everything looks messy, cups and snacks everywhere, the TV is still on and load at that. What really happened yesterday. I have no time to recall that right now, let me sneak out while he is still asleep. I search for my shoes and put them on and head for the door.
"Where are you going without your phone? " A voice echoes behind me, "at least said goodbye or let me drive you back".
I turn around ashamed that I am caught in action. "Ha!" I chuckle, "I didn't want to disturb your peaceful sleep" I rub my arms.
"Mmmm, okay. Let me brush my teeth quickly, don't run away" He waits foe my response and I nod as I settle on the vouch covered by crumbs of chips.
A flash of memory me dancing along to a song, and Lucas joining me and we twirl. Okay...what the hell Paris, you are not that close.
"Something is jogging your memory?" He smirks with complacency.
"Uhm...no" I stand up ready to leave.
"Aren't you hungry?" He pours water in a glass and takes gulps of it.
"Not really, I just want to sleep" I point out honestly.
"I remember you tiptoeing out of the bed minutes ago..." He places the empty glass on the rank.
"My bed..."I murmur.
"Okay, let me not be a pushover" He takes the car keys and lead the way out of his house.
My eyes scan the vast space covered by the green lawn and adorned with nice succulent flowers on the sides. It is quite a sight to see.
"Where are we?" I ask. "My house" He answers plainly. "Place", "Winding down estate" . I lose step a bit, with what salary I ask myself. "Oh..." I exclaim. "I bought it my life savings for the how part" He opens the door for me, how sweet so gentlemanly. I get in and he closes the door.
"I guess you are disciplined when it comes to money" I comment as he starts the engine. "Maybe then but not anymore, I am like everybody now" He smiles at me.
"You smile a lot" I comment while staring at him as he drives on the pavement that leads to the exit gate. "I do, with you" He steals a peek at my face. "Why?" I settle myself on the seat and put the seat belt on. "Because of how I feel when I look at you" He purse his lips, "My smile is the best and possible way of me expressing my feelings right now. It would be rude if I could do all the things I think and feel about you, don't you think so?" He turns his head to look at me.
"I think it is weird you smile a lot and the next minute you have a grim face infront of the learners" I try to change the topic becayse pretty soon he will be telling me he loves me, too soon. "I smile for a reason and those learners had upset me. I didn't like them saying all those things" He point out.
"But they were true..."I argue, "So it is okay for them to say nasty things about us..."He pauses, "What?" I enquire, "I guess, you have become of the things I am touchy feely about. You got me behaving out of character" He lets out a little sigh.
I purse my lips. What to do? What to say? I press the button to open the window and let the morning breeze in. "How far are we?" I gaze at the surroundings. "A bit close. You don't mind the kids seeing you? Its still early morning hours".
I close the window. He is right, I don't want to fuel this rumour some more.
He drives close to the entrance at my place. "It was a great night" I wrap this all night hang out. "Like you remember" He muffles his laugh. "I do..." I unbuckle myself, "Sure..." He shrugs his shoulders, "We ate, drank, danced and slept. That is what happened" I smile, "Alright, alright, that is what happened. Would you be down to doing it again? I mean we both not going to work for a while..." He glare at me as he wait for my response. My lips part. What should I say, yes or no. Make an excuse or say yes and do this again and see where it leads.
"Uhm...isn't this off work thing for a short period?" I move my gaze away from him.
"Maybe with you but it might be while for me" He leans back to his seat and put his hand on his head. "Why?" I turn to face him. "You...", "Me? How?!" I seat upright. "The whole kiss story, its very unprofessional of a H.O.D, I abused my power" He heaves a heavy sigh. "But that was an accident and...you have been nice and...", "It is okay, I do not mind the free leave. I get to recollect my thoughts and see if this place is still for me. There is something I want and I think that should be a priority" He turns his face towards me. His eyes meet mine, he has beautiful eyes. My eyes move slowly to his nose, then his lips brushing against his moustache. They are so beautiful designed.
"Uhm yeah, you must do what makes you happy. Well...at least I know you are a nice guy" I disrupt my chain of thoughts. "If you knew what I want you wouldn't say those words" He softly smiled.
Why do I feel like his face is more closer but I Linda love this space. "What if...I don't care" I tear a tiny smile. "You understand a drunken statement can be disregarded but now you are sober" He places his warm hand on my face.
My breath...noooo! I violently pull back. "Ha! You are right. Let me go." I open the door. "It was nice, lets do it again tonight. Bye!" I close the door and quickly walk away without looking back.
Shit! Not the morning bad breath, I am not going to have my first kiss after the break up in this statement. Not with him either. I was lost in trance. That was close.