"It scares me you know? I don't know when I'll die, I don't want to die whilst creating good memories with you. I don't want that."
"Spending more time with you — as much as how those moments were beautiful and heartwarming, it also causes me great pain."
"It makes me want to live again! It makes me think that maybe somehow, by some magical and miracle means, I'll be able to live a long life with you." Von's pupils trembled, his eyes red from holding back his tears.
"But that, that's just not possible, however my mind cannot help itself but think that and when I realize it, when I realize that I think of these unachievable dreams! — burns heart burns and aches like it's being crushed by some overwhelming force."
Silence…
Von let a tear fell from his cheeks, "I'm a coward, and as a coward, I'll take the cowards way out…"
He turned around and climbed the railings of the bridge, Jana abruptly stopped crying as she saw what Von was about to do.
"No, no, no…" She continuously muttered as she picked herself up and ran after Von.
As much as she wanted to run fast, her legs were shaking and her heart was weak.
She could not exert the necessary strength.
Swooooosshh!…
"Waaaaahhhhhh! Hc- wh-why, hic, haaaah!"
She banged her hands on the railing venting her feelings out.
Her face a sobbing mess.
She was too late, Von had already fallen and got swept away by the river current.
The bridge was high, the river was quite strong and rocky, no matter how much she denies it, it would be impossible for him to survive.
She cried till she couldn't breath.
Bang!
Bang!
She continued to bang on the railing like a madwoman.
"Wh-why? Why is the world so cruel? Am I really…destined to live this eternal life…alone?"
She fell on her knees as she closed her eyes, her eyelids trembling with tears accumulating.
Memories of her time with Von flashed before her eyes, she could remember her happiness, bless, and even her satisfaction.
It was truly the most precious moments of her life, yet now that the one person who created those previous memories was gone.
It became a memory that haunted her. It caused her pain and an invisible scar that very much so inflected mental and physical pain on her.
More so than the precious memory, the precious person whom she had greatly loved, was gone.
"I just wish…I hadn't even been born."