"What?"
"Can I hold on to you, hug you, and just feel you so I can feel better at peace."
"No, you weirdo."
"But I'm sad, and the internet says that to not be sad anymore. I need a hug."
"First of all, don't trust anything you read on the internet, it makes you feel like you are better than everyone but you're not, secondly, can't you just get a hug from your family?"
"But I don't want a hug from my family, I don't have an urge to just get a little physical contact and family love, no, what I want is to have someone to hug, feel and hold in my arms and a shoulder to cry on, I don't want to just go up to someone, hug them and then walk away. I NEED to have someone by my side forever and ever."
"Then go ahead and make friends or something."
"But I can't."
"Huh?"
"I can't, I mentally can't because I always overcomplicate stuff, and I can't keep in touch with the people that I want to."
"But it's not so hard. You just need to send some messages to them every now and then, and you're keeping contacted with you."
"But that isn't the contact I WANT with them, it's the contact that they expect to get, but when I don't give it to them I feel like they are just not there anymore, I just want it to be different from the standard stuff and not the overall sugar-coated stuff of that everything is a-ok and that my life matters to a lot of people, but what about ME why don't you care about what I think, what I do that makes ME feel like my life is good and that I know what my purpose is!"
"...."
"...."
"You know, not everyone knows what their purpose is or what they want to be when they grow up, and that's okay because people aren't made to know their purpose, or what they are for type of person.
Some people think that they are nothing, just a different dust particle in the universe, and that's okay because everyone thinks that at some point in their lives and then they get over it and you look back at it and you think that you were a little overreacting about it.
But to some people, they can't or won't want to get out of there. Because why do you want to do ANYTHING when you can just whiter away into nothingness and stop thinking about unimportant stuff like food, water, and family when you can get isolation, peace, and quiet.
The only thing that makes you feel better is talking about it with someone, it doesn't have to be a psychiatrist or a therapist, just you and someone you like to talk to about anything, it doesn't matter if it's sports, games or over books, you just need to start talking to someone, and that's how you make yourself feel better.
And that's what makes humans so special, we are created for no purpose but the one that is what you want it to be, and sure, you might never find your purpose, but that's okay, that doesn't make you any less human, hell I think it makes you MORE human. Because you are YOU, not me or them, but YOU, yes you might make masks for different people and show them a different you, but I think that just means that you have to find the special one for you."
"....Thank you, I needed that."
"No problem, I've if we have differences, we are still people, and nobody can make you think any different."
"... About that you said about isolation, you want to talk about it?"
"... Yeah, I'll like that."