Fogs, cold breeze, and memories of me with you, tears me, I was supposed to enjoy, escape and breath, but all I can think of is me, knitted blanket, coffee and you, hugging me.
Julian, everywhere I go, it's still hard not to think, of you. Yes, I'm ready to let go, but I'm sorry Julian, my heart can't still forget about you, I guess it will not. But eventually, it will be over it, my heart will be able to unlove you, to forget those beautiful feelings we shared and will be tired of loving someone that I cannot be with, ever again.
It's hard to accept that the love that I'm supposed to give, all comes to nothing. I surrendered my feelings but my mind is still clouded with your memories.
"The weather's just right, not too gloomy." Brianne noticing the weather.
"Guys I want to hike a mountain tomorrow morning before the sun rises, and should we try kawa bathing?" Joenie said while chewing food in her mouth. "I heard it's relaxing, perfect for the stress we had last week." She continued.
Brianne nodded and I immidiately agreed at that thought. I quietly laughed because of her rants about our stress week last week.
"I also want to go to a cafe, I guess before we go home, we still have so much time for tomorrow if we will start our day so early." I added.
They all nod to my suggestions, I heard that they have so much aesthetically pleasing cafe here at Rizal.
"Brianne, buy us beeeeer!!" I shouted.
Joenie nodded aggresively and wave her spoon on the air, "Yes! Buy uuuus!" She teasingly said.
We end up having a beer and enjoying the cold night. At last, after so many sad and helpless nights I can finally laugh happily again.
I slightly laugh at the sight that I'm seeing right now. Antipolo is not in my list of places to go to. The real thing is, I want to wander more far. I want to enjoy extreme adventures, explore, and overlining my limitation. Even so, I found this place for sad people, perfect place to cry, to laugh, and realize that, even the universe didn't do the thing that you want it to be, the life still goes on, my life is the perfect universe and happy place to live. If it's not Julian, atleast, I've loved him, more than the way he wanted to be loved.