That feeling of utter emptiness is present. You can't feel anything and start wondering,
Why am I still alive?
or am I really living?
The urge to make myself feel even a little bit of pain would be great,
but they said "you were not supposed to do those things."
So how am I supposed to know if I'm still alive when a simple breath isn't enough for me anymore?
I wonder why I am still in this place.
Can I runaway?
but where?
Am I allowed to?
probably no.
Damn, I'm tired. At the same time, I feel like nothing.
an empty shell, but breathing.