Overcoming Yin

I'm at the end of my life....

I have thought many times that death would be a relief for me.....

I've experience being molested at ten and growing up I have to many doubts...

I let myself submerged to self pity, anxiety and insecurity through out my life....

I make myself worthless because of pressured, I put....

I can't commit to any relationship because of self pity. Thinking I don't deserve any of it.

I have lived my life being a normal office worker.....

I tried everything....

Single, lonely and poor that's what I am.....

Everything is dark...

Is this really how my life would be?

I've been to engrossed in the bad experience that I didn't get to enjoy the life that I had.....

I always imagine if there is really a rebirth. I wish to live a life without insecurity and be happy with everything.

So at my death bed in this white four corner walls.

As I take my last breath...

"Please fulfill my wish" ....