Xavier p.o.v.

"Who are you?"

when I heard those words I was shocked

and heartbroken after everything

how could he forget?

he promised- we both did

[Back to third P.o.v ]

"it's me Callus your lover-" Xavier replied

"lover?- I- don't have a lover - but I know that I did use someone- but- regretted it and I love them- but- I couldn't apologize to them-" he replied

"Callus- you did apologize to me and that's how we became lovers-" Xavier replied

"but--I- can't love you- it's not possible- and I can't remember who you are-" he replied

"But you do Callus- come on remember what you told me? the heart remembers-" Xavier replied

"but I really shouldn't love you- I was just using you- but deep down--" he replied

"you feel something for me don't you? how could you forget me? you promised me that you never forget me-" Xavier replied

"I'm sorry that- I forgot you- I- but maybe- I do love you- it's just- I know- that you are that person- that I fell for- when I shouldn't have but- I don't remember anything after-" he replied

"well I could help you remember-" Xavier replied

"so,um- handsome stranger what's your name?" he replied

Xavier blushed

"it's Xavier- but you always called me Zavi-" Xavier replied

"And what did you call me?" he replied

"Cal-" Xavier replied

"And when you said lovers-" he replied

"we're married-" Xavier replied

"married?" He replied

"we're husbands- and you still have the ring on your finger-" Xavier replied

callus lifted his hand there was a ring on his finger and Xavier showed him his ring

Callus's eyes widen

he was shocked- but he also felt happy

this man in front of him was his world

even if he couldn't remember everything

he knew that to be true

but still, something felt off not all of Callus's memories were gone but he didn't remember anything of that world he saw someone in his memories but their face was completely blacked out it felt as if another part of him was missing- and he knew deep down that it wasn't Xavier- he knew he loved him but was there someone else as well?

"um- Xavier? was there ever someone else?"

"Lorain? or do you mean someone else you loved?" he replied

"the second one- and who is Lorain?" Callus replied

"Well Lorain was my past lover- and you had one too- his name was Malik-" he replied

"Malik?-" Callus replied

the name didn't ring any bells but there was a strange ache in his heart

"he was my brother he loved us both even though he didn't know how to show it right at first- after he saved my life he changed

and he fell for you - he once had you in the past but he had buried the memory deep and he changed your fate because of how much pain he went through and that's why you ended up with me - and all I could think was that I was just a replacement- that you never truly loved me and it all added up but I want to believe that a part you does - that apart of you did-because why did you -" he replied breaking down into tears

"Why did I what?" Callus replied

"Try so hard to protect me?" he replied

"From what?" Callus replied

"Yourself-" he replied

"Myself?" Callus replied

"It's a long story Cal- that I can't tell you now-you were so broken and it hurts seeing you like this but I'll be here for you- you were always there for me every time I forgot- so I'm returning the favor-" he replied

"you forgot?" Callus replied

"mhm- I believed that I loved someone else-

but at the same time, it felt as if something was missing and I never wanted to forget you again but it happened anyway and now you're the one that forgot- I mean this isn't the first time you had forgotten but you always somehow remembered me- but now it's as if I'm barely there- ha it feels quite ironic- I always forgot you and now you forget me-"

he explained

"I- may not remember you but your presence does feel familiar- and I do feel bad for breaking our promise-" Callus replied

"you didn't break our promise at least not entirely-" he replied

"what do you mean?" Callus replied

"remember how I told you that the heart remembers? you clearly remember- your feelings and wanted to make up for our mistake-" he replied

"our mistake?-" callus replied

"I understand that you think that it was all your fault but it wasn't we were both guilty- if we both communicated better none of this would have happened- you could have just broken it off- I would never do something that made you uncomfortable-" he replied

"I- couldn't- I loved you too much but I didn't deserve you not after what I've done- I manipulated you and used you for my own benefits-" Callus replied

"and that's why you acted out the way you did but it wasn't the right way to do it-" he replied

"I know-it's-just-" Callus replied

"it's just what?" he asked

"I- don't know-" Callus replied

he wanted to say "I love you" but he couldn't

it just felt strange to him he felt familiar but

he couldn't recognize him

how do you say I love you to someone you know in all your heart but you can't see their face? he knows that he used to remember it

but he can't at all - what did his Zavi look like?

he could see the rest of him but a piece was missing and he hated that he couldn't see it

Xavier looked at him

"Cal? What's wrong?" He asked

"what- do- you look like?-" Callus replied

"Callus- are you blind? wait no you saw our rings- so that can't be it- so what is it?" he replied

"I- can't see your face-" Callus replied

"you can't see my face?" he replied

callus slowly nodded

Xavier felt himself on the edge of tears again

how could have this happened?

first a coma and then amnesia

and now- he couldn't see his face?

he wasn't paralyzed but this felt ten times worse and he wasn't really paralyzed

it was just an act and he wanted to hope that was the case this time but- it felt real this time

he wasn't completely forgotten but just barely

it all made sense- and this meant that Cal was really sick- and this scared him even more

so he said his good bye to Callus for the day

"Will I see you again?-no will you come back and see me?-since I can't actually see you-" he replied

it would have sounded funny If he said it in a less monotone voice- but he lacked the sound of humor or sarcasm- and it hurt even more

"I promise I'll come back I'll be here every day I promise-" Xavier replied

"Thank you-" he replied

"no need to thank me Cal- I'll always be here for you-" Xavier replied and kissed his forehead

callus felt his heart race but he wished he could see his face but that day was never going to come even so, at the very least there was someone who cared for him

he really didn't deserve it but he was happy