Roy felt little bit annoyed by Carl's current attitude.
Why this guy can't accept the truth which is almost in front of his eyes?
Will he be killed by just accepting that he cares about Zenaida?
Caring isn't even counted as loving her.
With the annoyance in his heart, Roy said out loud " So, what will happen even if you were to love Zenaida? Isn't it better than getting married to an unknown girl like Anna? I could say that Zenaida would always love you and put you first before her own needs, if you were to marry her in any kind of situation."
Carl never expected to hear this kind of thing from Roy. He stared at Roy through the rear view mirror of the car before averting his gaze towards the passing scenery through the window.
Roy looked at Carl through the front mirror and he couldn't clearly see the expression of Carl since Carl was looking out of the side window.
Why is Carl suddenly being very quiet?
Did he say something wrong to him?
Roy couldn't figure out what he said wrongly even after he went through again and again in his mind about what he said to Carl for few times.
But after few minutes, Carl opened his mouth to talk and said in a very serious tone " It seems that I have overstepped my boundaries with Zenaida today. From now onwards, I will try my best to not make this mistake again."
Roy was puzzled by the Carl's sudden words and he asked Carl with a very serious voice "What do you mean by that? I don't have a single idea of what you are saying."
"I shouldn't have given fake hopes to Zenaida in that way. Even you have misunderstood that I'm caring about her. What if Zenaida has also misunderstood in this way? So, I think that I should distance myself from her for few days to imply her that I'm not giving her any kind of special treatment from the others." Carl explained to Roy.
Roy slightly glanced at Carl and then, he continued to drive silently by himself.
Did he misunderstand that Carl was caring about Zenaida?
Roy was so sure that he didn't misunderstand about it. But why Carl is trying to deny it so badly?
Most importantly, why doesn't he want to give a chance to Zenaida at all? He could atleast try to date her for awhile. He doesn't have to distance himself from her to this extent. Also, Carl knows the deepness of Zenaida's love towards him.
Roy really couldn't understand his friend at all, eventhough they have been friends for a long time already.
Roy has been friends with Carl since the kindergarten but he still couldn't understand his friend's behaviour at all.
Roy asked Carl with curiousity "Carl, why do you have to avoid Zenaida in this way? You can also try to love her as she is loving you. I don't think that anyone would be able to love you as Zenaida does. She is such a precious person to own and keep beside you until the end. Why are you trying so hard to lose that kind of precious thing?"
Roy saw through the rear view mirror that after hearing his words, Carl lowered his gaze as trying to hide his current expression from the whole word around him.
Carl said with a seriousness filled voice"My goal is not to become a good lover. I want to become a successful businessman oneday. For that, I can't let emotions get in my way. It only weakens a person. I have to be strong by myself without anyone's aide at all. To be strong, I can't open my heart to anyone. "
Roy was stunned by the words of Carl. Eventhough Roy asked Carl that kind of question, he didn't expect Carl to reveal his real thoughts to him.
This was the first time which Carl has revealed his feelings to Roy ever.
Why is Carl telling him all these things unlike the other days?
What is he expecting from him by revealing all these things to him?
Roy asked "Carl, are you truly happy by being like this? "
Carl remained silent for awhile and said "Why am I not happy? I'm obviously happy. Can't you see it?"
Roy again asked "Are you sure about that? Is this truly what you want in your life? Or is this what your parents want you to do in your life?"
Carl was stunned by Roy's words and looked at his direction. Roy noticed that Carl was slightly surprised by his words.
Roy smiled and asked Carl"Are you wondering that how I know that your parents want you to become a very successful businessman?"
Then, he answered to his question by himself "That day, when you saved me from that bully in the middle school, I heard what your mom said to you while calling for you in to her study. "
This time, Carl again looked out of the window with a deep gaze and said "May be that is what my parents want from me. As their child, I have the responsibility to fulfil their dreams. Also, they love me and this is the way which they are loving me."
"They love you? " Roy laughed out loudly at Carl's words and said again "I will believe those words, if any other person to say these words. But not you, Carl. I'm the closest person to you and I know clearly that you are not living your life to the fullest. You are just a tool for their greediness for money and power. "
Carl was little bit agitated by the words of Roy and said to him with a stern voice "Roy, don't cross the line with me. You should know what to speak and what to not to speak in front of me."
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Chapter 49- Hitting the Carl's sore spot