When I fall asleep at night I can still feel his lips caress my as if he was a ghost. With how he disappeared he might as well be one. I still remember as Tashi was kissing my neck whispering "make love to me." We were at base camp waiting for the climb up to advanced base camp. I remember when I first got to Nepal there was a mysterious sherpa who was smiling and winking at me. He had a sensual smile that made me melt.
Soon I was kissing him during the ritual ceremony of burning a juniper bush. We were making out and whispered I love you to me. I just meet him and he was madly in love. I wanted to feel his touch and kisses on my skin.
That night was the first night we made love.
At the time I was 22 and was going to be the youngest submitter of Everest. But when he was exploring my soft skin, I didn't care about that. All I cared about was Tashi.
"Oh Tashi....." I moan as he was inside me.
"Love you Tessa," he said as he was making loveto my flower as he waskidsing it. Making moan some more.
I will tell you I never that of being desirable in my life. But there I was being made to my an exotic handsome young man.
You see I never had a boyfriend nor any friends at that when I was in high school. I was goth who was bullied for who I was a loner. When I was 17 I discovered Buddhism and mountaineering on TV and I watch and read up on everything on the two subjects. I was skinny and not that attractive still thought I was.
When I was first made love to by Tashi I felt like I was attractive for once.
I was crying because I was feeling safe and for once loved by someone.
After making love to Tashi, he wanted to learn more about me.
"What do you like?" He said kissing me .
"I like the poems of the 6th Dalai Lama."
"Me to" Tashi said.
That night we were reciting poetry as we nearly made love to eachother again. In my 22 years of my life I never that I was going to be in love if at all.
He caress my chin and cheek with the outside of his hand and Softly and deeply kissing me.
He was crying this time his tears dropping from is eyes to my cheek bone.
"I was outcasted by family and was forced to work as a guide. 23 I am."
"You're a year older than me.....hmmmmm I took you for thirty."
"Ineed" he said as he slipped his right hand down my pants and was fingerling me.
"Tashi..... please " I said feeling his loving touch to my flower. "We should just rest."
"Just do that as I pleasure you....just relaxed."
I couldn't be too noisy this timed as everyone getting breakfast and could probably here me moaning.
I was going to marry him one day, have his children on this mountain but my mom wouldn't approve of that.
She was angry since I took my college fund for this expedition. The salt to her anger was the fact that I was in love while on the controversial trip.
I could hear here make a scene if I came back that I was more less out.
Soon we went for a late breakfast and Tashi was holding my hand. Him saying he will cherish me. I was feeling a rush of excitement and love.
"I want to do tantra with you Tashi."
"Yes same with you Tessa."
I was shocked that he wanted to that same thing I fantasized about for 5 years.
"Tashi, you have feelings for me," I asked.
He deeply kissed me. Before went in for breakfast. Yes!
There the kissing continues and we hardly had any breakfast. Everyone was staring at us as we were practically making out.
"Let's go behind the prayer flags......."
"Tashi," I said.
After breakfast we when where the prayer flags were he pushed my hair out of my face and started to caress my lips with his. Soon we were kissing deeply.....the flags flapping in my ear and tickling as We made out.
Oh Tashi.....
When my face was sore from making out with him. He kissed my nose and told me that that he wanted to give me a Tibetan name Yeshe.
"Yeshe"
"Yes it mean spiritual one." He declares. "You like the name?"
"Yes" I kissed him gently
He put his hand on my stomach and said "the name for this one"
"Poppy"
"Good name, Yeshe."
"I think it's a she"
What would you know I got pregnant when we first made love.
I could just think of what my mom would think ....even more controversial raises trip was. If I had to go to write her she would have a shit fit.
Soon we had to get ready fir for advanced base camp.
I was starting to worried about the little girl that was growing in me. But Tashi reassured everything will be alright.
He was nit of any knowledge he was a simple yet mysterious man I loved to begin with.
I just hoped that I wouldn't show or it would be off... the expedition.
As we got to know eachother thime mystery of him was still that.....a loving mystery. That's what I loved about him
Would I give up on him or our child.
Never nor this expedition.
There has been an old sherpa saying that Everest was haunted by the ghosts of climbs past as we started to get high up....but that was just legend.
I don't think i will see any ghosts. But will that be wishful thinking but Tashi said he was like a ghost whisperer where he can tell them too bug someone else If need be.