i sat silently with new knowlage running in my mind, i take a long gaze at my 'student' it made me smile
they all filled with energy and ambition
i grimace at the thought.
i try to shove the thought out with random things
'its funny how noone care about the bandage wrap around my head' the thought suddenly came.
"teach why you have a bandage on your head?"
'ah.' my mind almost went to this morning
"something happened, its nothing really" i answer calmly, the kid that ask just reluctantly nod and return talking to his fren
'geez.. all this kid is so easy to lied to... and probably so easy to kidnap to,' i snicker at my own thought.
"why are ya laughing old men?" one of the student grumbles at me
'old...' i suddenly want to go home
"its nothing" i answer with a 'smile'
"tsk!" the student than left and talk to itoshi
'....that kid.....IS ITOSHI FRIEND?' i want to pull itoshi from that kid and hug him
"osamu–chan pleasee! ill pay you later kay?" i overheard a pleading voice
i take a glance and it was the rude kid, with another kid. and they were
'begging? for what?' i think as i observe, they both have theyre hands clap togheter and theyre voices was more high pitch
"you say that last time hyogaiji–kun! my money, my choice!" itoshi joked, i can see theyre masked started to slip.
"aww! please! this is the last time i swear!" i love how theyre tone suddenly got angrier than got back to thst annoying high pitch voice very quickly.
'its funny how hard they make theyre voices high pitched, its like theyre life depends on it pfft..'
"nu-uh! pay me back first!" itoshi shake his head
"ngh....fine...." they both give up
'GO ITOSHI GO!!' i quietly cheer itoshi
***
as the bell rung, almost all the student groan in dissapointment? tiredness? i dont even know
"aww man! the new teacher is so cool! but.. he looks so empty..." i heard a student a student whisper as they exited
'...but i talk to them with a tone! how am i 'empty' ?!' i shock hearing the comment
'wait that mean– if this true itoshi will not gain trust on me because im 'emotionless' ! geez!! why is it so hard to gain a kid trust!!' i groan leaning to my chair
'if i cant even finish this mission... i will not know what auntie... what her connection to this yamikumo person she seem to see in me, and what boss know about this person'
"teach?" itoshi soft voice rung in my ear, i fix my posture with a 'smile' in my face
"yes osamu-kun?"
"can you teach me after school?.. because today you seem really cool.. you play it with so much emotion it looks like you love someone so much! im so jealous!" i chuckle hearing this, 'i didnt even see the melody, the white room, the tune when i play it. that means i didnt push my emotion to the limit, or play it with love.'
i look at itoshi as he exit with a smile 'its amusing he thinks i play it with many emotion... the only emotion i felt was anger and frustration'
i stand up and opening the door with close eye
'i hope i wont get lost...'
***
i wait in the music room, sadly when i was going to the restroom i got lost
'i was lucky that a student help me get back to here'
the door slides open and there it was, itoshi breathing heavily.
"sit down, you look tired are you ok?" i ask abit concern for some reason
"yeah its fine, my fren made me run for a drink.." he tells me sitting down.
"oh..."
'i bet its that rude kid! poor osamu-chan!! dont worry! i will try to make you svoid that rude kid!' a sudden protective wash over me
"..ji"
"mr.Fujita!" i heard itoshi called my name
"are you okay?" he ask
"oh yeah! sorry... okay lets continue where we left okay?"
"mhm okay!" itoshi say excitedly and get into position.
'so your the errand boy huh?' i thought, zipping my guitar out
"ok, so lets try—
***
we walk to a small ramen stand. itoshi insisted we ate somewhere after practice to show his gratitude.
'lucky' i think slurping the noodles. it was delicious
"this place is the best let me tell ya! i remember eating with my frens and the owner gave us an extra serving!" itoshi say munching
"mm...i think i should go in here more often, the soup is delicious"
"thats what i think! like, its soo hot but delicious! you should try theyre spicy ramen! i try it and its just! perfect!" itoshi continue to ramble, i listen to his rambling while eating.
'he...is like me but so diffrent'
'when i was a child i always try to talk to auntie, she always patient with me while i try to talk with her..'
'i always stutter and stumble with my words, but osamu-kun... he is easy to talk with' i glance at itoshi who is talking and eating
"you really remind me of myself" i accidently say out loud.
but instead of panicking, i feel proud saying that
itoshi pause than look at me with sparkly eyes
"really?! that means ill be good at playing instrument as you?!" he ask
"maybe. but you remind me of myself when my aunt teach me, her name is itoshi too you know"
"oh! is it her last name?"
"no its her first name, her last name is ito" i say
"why is her and your last name is diffrent?"
"well...my aunt took her husband last name" i lied
'she isnt married and even if she is, she will not take anyone last name'
"what...what is she like?" he ask, semingly sound nervous.
i pause, taking a moment of silince
"well...she is...patient." i started
"she, is very gentle.. atleast with me, and she teach me alot of stuff. like instrument.. heck she is the one that introduce it to me!"
"and well.. she teach me diffrent stuff too.. since i never go to any grade or kindergarden school"
"hah?! you never go to school? even middle school?" itoshi exvlaim loudly, i just scratch my head with a nervous smile
'i dont even remember anything about my childhood... expect...that' the time i encounter the memories suddenly flashes.
'i....want to know... who really am'
"mr.fujita? you there?" i flinch
"uh– yeah! sorry...i was...–my mind was else where" i stutter with a smile
'i was? why did i say that? 'sorry i was elsewhere?' im so dumb... its not like i have another me around here' i think, amuse by myself
"well.. i never go to middle school.. but i did go to highschool" i continue
"but mostly all my life just filled with practicing playing instrument" a small smile form in my face as i finish my noodles.
somehow, i feel a warm in my chest, the same warm i feel when im with auntie.
i think itoshi feel the same as he smile, a geniune smile.
i cant help but make my smile abit more bigger than usual.
one step at a time, soon ill gain his trust