Part of me does lie about how I feel toward Ellyn. But I can't help it. I do have feelings for Kather but I don't think I will ever be able to love her as I do with Kather. Though I would say that my feelings toward Kather were beginning to falter.
But I am still unsure about what I really feel towards Ellyn. My feelings for her are confusing me.
But I am not going to let that bother me. I am just going to focus on making Ellyn happy for now as part do not want to make her sad either.
"Good, I'm glad. I'll do everything to keep you happy." I assure Ellyn as I hug her.
I am not sure if I should tell her about Kather and our situation right now. But I don't want to hurt Ellyn's feelings either. So I decided to just leave it as it is.