I panted hard as I stared up at Gao Chen, the woman wiping off her sweat stained brow as she began to clothe herself.
Her orange eyes were fixed on my body, and she let out an annoyed sigh as she tugged on her robes, before moving to clean me off.
"Damnit..."
Cursing softly, she wiped me off, removing all of her fluids from me before gently pulling my robe over my shoulders, tying it around me tightly to keep me warm.
She did so with such a warm tenderness that I felt my eyes water, which only made her curse again, her actions growing flustered.
"Shit... why the hell did I..? Fuck!"
Yanking at my collar, she made sure it was secure before sighing, raking her hand through her hair before lifting me into her arms.
"Alright little bunny, we're home... let's get you to bed now..."
I barely registered her words as I stared at her tanned face, my mind drifting from the pain and pleasure.
My body ached something fierce, and each movement made me wince slightly; but, with each sweep of pain came an even larger burst of pleasure, and I became incapable of independent thought.
Gao Chen's disappointed, annoyed face did come through perfectly clear, and my heart shattered yet again, my ears refusing to work as I watched her lips move around.
Was she cursing me?
Ridiculing me for being incapable of satiating her urges?
Would she toss me aside now for someone better?
Each thought made my eyes water even more, until I was sobbing into her chest, which made the Void Realm Cultivator flash into her Shimmering Palace, swiftly entering her luxurious bedroom before she gently laid me onto her bed.
Raking her hand through her hair again, Gao Chen paced around the side of the bed, before she turned and started walking towards the door.
Seeing her pacing anxiously before attempting to leave, I let out a loud sob as she walked a few steps away from me, my heart pounding inside my chest.
Hearing that, Gao Chen bit her lip as she instantly turned back around and approached me, her face conflicted as she grabbed my outstretched hand.
"Yi'er, what's wrong?"
With her holding my hand, my worried heart calmed down slightly, and since I was stationary again the aches relented, allowing me to focus on hearing her.
"P-Please d-don't leave me..! I-I d-don't want to be a-alone!"
Tears streamed from my eyes at that, and Gao Chen bit her cheek as she lowered her head, her gray streaked hair concealing her face from me.
"Damnit... damnit it all! What the hells is going on..?"
Muttering to herself, Gao Chen let out a long sigh as she looked back up at me, a tired smile on her face as she whispered "Fine, Yi'er... I'll stay here. Now sleep. You need to rest."
Staring into her orange eyes, I shook my head, making her frown.
"Why not? Why don't you want to sleep?"
Her question was sharp, but I gulped and whispered "B-Because y-you'll leave me w-when I go to sleep... y-you'll go... go to t-them..."
Furrowing her brow, Gao Chen pursed her lips as she asked "Them? Who?"
Clenching her hand, I gulped again as I responded with my shaky whisper.
"Y-Your maids... y-your flowers... a-anyone..."
I clenched her hand harder, in an attempt to keep her with me, by my side.
Understanding dawned in those orange eyes, and she gave me a wry smile as she shook her head, mirth replacing the worry as she chuckled.
"Oh, believe me, while I wouldn't mind a few rounds right now, I'm trying to not get myself killed. Besides, for the moment, you're more important then me getting off... if only I could remember that in the heat of the moment..."
Letting out a sigh, she stood up and used her free hand to shrug off her robe, leaving herself in her undershirt and pants as she climbed into the bed, laying down behind me.
Pulling me into her embrace, she left my hand in hers as she nuzzled her nose into my neck, making me shiver slightly.
I could feel her breath on the nape of my neck, and I grew warm as her body heat spread to me, calming and soothing my weary heart.
My eyelids grew heavy as her warmth washed over me, while my hand desperately clung to hers as I slowly drifted off to sleep.
"Go to sleep, little bunny... I'll be here until you awaken. I swear it."
With that, I closed my eyes, deciding to believe my fiancee as I fell asleep, her words easing my mind as quickly as they could make it grow anxious.
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Gao Chen PoV
Keeping the petite woman secure in my arms, I pulled the covers over us as I held her close, listening to her breathing slowly even out.
Her body was slightly cold, and her Qi was slugging along inside her meridians, moving at a snails pace.
Frowning, I couldn't help but grow angrier as I felt her in my arms, the woman's deteriorating health making my blood boil.
I wanted to curse, to grab something and destroy it, to hurt something, but I couldn't do anything.
If I left this spot, while she was like this, I would do more harm then good to all parties involved.
Myself, her, and our child.
Each would be harmed by me being selfish right now...
Which pissed me off more.
I hated being restricted, but I needed to accept that this, this right here, was the consequences of my actions.
During the carriage ride over, I had taken things way, way too far, and I had broken the balance inside her body with my self serving actions.
Which scared me.
If something happened to Li Yichen, I was as good as dead.
If something happened to the child in her womb, I was as good as dead.
Either way, I needed to get her healed, to get her back to that balance, but I didn't know how.
Even with all the breakthroughs Cultivators had had, we knew so damn little about what was happening inside the woman's body when she was with child.
There were so many intricacies inside the woman and the child that could be influenced by incredibly minute things, and they could cause lasting damage...
The methods to harm the mother-child pair were innumerable, but the list to heal them was limited.
I needed to treat this little bunny of mine with the utmost care going forwards, physically, emotionally, and mentally.
No over teasing, no rough sex, no demanding physical work, no emotional triggers...
These would be some of the longest months of my life, but...
Taking a sniff of her long black hair, I felt my mind calm down at the honey like sweetness wafting from each strand, before I sighed again.
"Damnit Yi'er... what the hell have you done to me?"