****BOSS.
My brows furrowed together wondering where it was. I looked around the house for it but to no avail.
"Sometimes all we need is time to believe everything happens for a reason, like how everyone needs time today heal, grow, learn and love even the heartbroken".
I inhale the smoke from my blunt feeling it in my lungs as I felt more relaxed than ever. I skipped into the Cool music looming around the apartment making my eyes closed to satisfaction.I relaxed my head at the couch then blow out the smoke from my mouth that I had stocked in for a second. My legs were close and I placed them on the table.
I did the same process over and over again growing into my new life. I inhale the smoke until there was none left of what I could make use of I throw the little part into the trashcan beside the couch before settled in to relax my head cause it hurts a little.
Any time I need a thing I do get it. I have everything name it money, investment, power I have to at a cost, just at the snap of my finger. But I craved for one thing, just one little thing which seems to be hard at the snap of my finger right now.... Ooo
Every single time I wonder how she would taste in front of me when I have her. How she would scream out my name as I ride her along the way.'really wide right now.
She's my everything right now, my addiction I want her in my life, I need her seating next to me . I have always had control of myself from claiming her at hand for the very first time I saw her at my office. So I just had to act like I never needed her. She made it so hard at the point I always just imagine ripping off her clothes everytime she gets close to me. I wanted to have her all to myself and not to share her with anyone else, just me and her.
"Fuckin me I blow it all"
"How stupid of me"
" I really messed things up ".
" I cried out" I realize I have made things really bad for myself which hurts me badly right now. Well I'm the type of man who doesn't think of things twice before going in a thing.
I just want to be everything to her if she would let me be there for her. I know I have done more harm than good to her. Ever since I realized, I had feeling for her. I just want to build with her but then it all not going as the way to.
I wonder 🤔 how she would look at me . Not after I have inflicted much pain on her for All this year's. Since she have been working for me which made me realize. It wasn't only lust I had towards her because my heart ache a bit when I saw tears rolling down her eyes.
Well not something I want to see from her, it just makes the urge of protecting her more grow up in my heart and keep her safe from anyone who will want to harm her. I want to take care of her, love me and stand for her as her only family she can get when it comes to that.
Such thought just keep growing up in me every day.
"She's two In one, she wants to be a bad ass bitch and yet she wants to be Loved truly cared for by someone. I wish I could be.
Which I had known I would have done this in the first place now no more.
I don't know why, but my anger got the best of me letting me mess things up big time. I knew,I have hurt the one that Loved me so much. "I tried to Mark what's mine I didn't think it would be hard for me to get it".
My phone vibrate on the table. I took the phone to see what it was all about.
"Hey hurry up, I really need you. Help me out right now. Please you are the one I can count on right now.
Really
Really
Really.....