hello, my name is James, I am 18 this year. I am a kind of spiritualist like in those novels and anime where I can see super natural entities and can get bad premonitions before some events occur. I can sense positive and negative or evil or bad energy.
Now I am standing in front of a collapsed building because of earthquake, feeling dread over the last 5 years from having the dream of destructions and getting the feeling of death everywhere you know that feeling when you are about to finish your lunch or you know that the time is up, yay yay I know I may sound foolish because I can't describe this feeling, I am sensing this grey colour energy which is hissing time is up.
I can see these evil entities when I was 5 years old that's why I grow up more mature than my peers or maybe because I am special from the birth but I know I am more understanding than common people's and it's not that I am alone special there more people's like me who can see super entities and for the last 5 years many these special people's are trying to say that a big catosphere is gonna come.
but this is scientific world where people doesn't believe in super natural entities hell there are people who doesn't believe in God's and religion, so many people's doesn't believe in these supposely super stitious group of people's
but I know that everything is gonna end.
In ancient scripts it is said there are four time periods, first time period is when spiritual energy is present everywhere through which peoples start cultivation their body, mind, sprit and God descends to preach mortals to connect them spiritually.
Than came the second period where a lot of scholars and warriors born they build their empires and build temples
In this period people's are spiritually strong , can destroy large boulders with their raw strength and can control natural powers like fire, water, earth, and air.
Than came third period in which people starts to lose to their seven emotions and six desire, people starts to fight over greed of fortune, lust of power, and starts a period of war, where a lot of warriors born and make their legends of conquest.
then came the last period where spiritual energy is at its lowest
and people's are atheist they kill their own family, their is not a clear concept of relationship and in this period situation keep getting more worse as natural disasters destroy everything peoples start cannablism and this period end with destruction to start a new creation.
that's what shows in ancient scriptures and holy books in religious places.
And today was the end day when whole universe collapsed
sigh-
I hope I got birth 50 years ago at least so I can enjoy my youth but I don't understand how can I still monologue
I mean whole universe gets destroyed.
hm but I can't sense and feel anything
you know it is creepy to feel like you are Floating in dark atmosphere where you can't sense or feel anything, it already starts to make me go crazy and I know if
some ROB doesn't appear and get me reincarnated like in the fantasy novels than I will go crazy.
haaaa I am tired, let's hope I got clear death or I got another chance.
10 years later
Hahahahaha
haaaa
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I got clearly insane with this type of isolation, its is literally make me beg to lose my consequences
haaaa let's focus on meditation
100 years later
oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmm
ooooooohhhhhhhhhmmmm
oooohhhhhmmm
ohm
phew--(exhale)
sssshhh-(inhale)
phew--
hmm
well I can't breathe but I tried do it mentally to keep up my sense,
hmm you know OHM(ओम) symbol was known as sacred syllable symbol and mantra of Brahman , which is the ultimate reality, counsciousness or Atman(self within). It is called the shabda brahman and beloved to be primordial of the universe.
so I started meditation with word ohm to feel my spirit.
I had read in a holy script it says that with meditation you can get your answers like Gotam Buddha.
Like in those fantasy novel where certain individuals study law and harness law powers, so I conjuncture in free time which I have everytime that an individual can understand laws through a lot of concentration which is build through meditation.
hmm
it is tiresome
while I don't get any answers my mental condition is balanced and I am not getting crazy. hmm
let's focus again
ooooooohhhhhhhmmmmm
ooooooooohhhhhhhhmmmmmmmm
100 million years later
now I can feel the presence of laws but they feel like distorted or like they are vague here or like when a land is ownerless well I should continue my cultivation
after unknown period of time
I understand the concept of heaven and hell though it takes a looooooottttttt of time mostly likely this zone is not occupied by law but still it's fascinating to understand these concepts .
while I can't control anything here because of blank state. hmm I still don't understand how survive though.