Aidens pov
I think I'm dead.
Fucking hell, I can't remember the last time my hip, or anything for that matter hurt this bad.
But I wouldn't be hurting if I was dead right?
And my throat feels like the Sahara.
Damn I really need to drink something.
My mouth waters at the thought of something to drink.
And don't let me start on a delicious meal.
I reluctantly open my eyes.
Immediately I'm blinded by the sun streaming through the wide window to my right.
The next thing I notice is the strange room I am in.
Am I- is this a fucking hospital?
At last I find Azalea asleep to my left. Half on her chair and the other, upper half of her body on the bed I'm currently on.
I notice the rings under her eyes and immediately begin to worry.
Did she have enough sleep?
Has she even eaten anything?!
Wait wait wait-
Did that motherfucker seriously shoot me?!
I try to move, but have to bite my lip so hard I'm surprised it's not bleeding, to keep from making a sound because fuck, it hurts.
"Aiden?" I look up and notice Azaleas eyes on me.
I smile halfhearted.
She gets up and hugs he me tightly.
"I'm so glad you're okay! You are right? Wait do you need anything?"
"Some water would be nice." I say because my throat is killing me, even though I don't want her to move away.
"Of course!" She says as she gets up and hands me a glass of water.
I gulp it down greedily. I'll never take water for granted again.
I'll have to be more grateful.
"How are you feeling?" She asks and I look at her again.
Even with the rings under her eyes and her uncombed hair she's the most beautiful woman I ever saw.
She could wear a garbage bag and I'd get hard looking at her.
(Not something I'm proud of. I'm just saying.)
"Honestly? Like shit. But where are the others? No wait, what the hell happened?" I question and Az winces.
"A lot actually." She sighs and sits down on the bed next to me.
"What's the last thing you remember?"
I think for a second.
Going over everything that happened last night. I'm a little dizzy but I'll live.
I had to go get something with the bike.
After that I returned to the mansion and looked for Azalea.
I clench my jaw as I remember how I found her.
I look at her and notice the bad concealed bruise on her forehead thanks to Damien pressing his gun there.
I can't believe the motherfucker touched her!
I'm going to kill him.
"I think I saw Callan entering the room. And everyone was kind of shouting."
"That's about correct. Damien then- um he, he shot you. He would've aimed somewhere far more severe if Theo wouldn't have been as fast as he has been."
The fucker shot me into my hip?!
I can't believe this shit.
"Is he okay?" I ask.
"Theo is fine. As is everyone else except for you. He's currently looking for something to eat." I snort, that's no surprise.
"Come here." I say, I really just want to hold my girl right now.
She looks at me "are you sure? Your wound-"
"I'll be fine."
She mutters an 'okay' and climbs into the narrow bed with me.
Putting her head on my chest.
"Tell me what then happened." I need to know everything.
"So like I said, Damien pulled the trigger but Theo luckily reached him, so nothing too severe got hit. You were damn lucky-" her breathing turns rapid and I tense.
"Lux mea? Baby are you okay?"
She nods into my chest.
"Are you sure?" I kiss the crown of her head.
"God Aiden. I was so scared! What if something worse happened to you?" She shudders.
And I get it.
I don't know what I would've done if something happened to her.
I can't loose her.
I love her.
The thought shocks me, but I can't deny it.
At least that's what I think love feels like.
I wanna spend every second of every day with her.
I can't breath without her around.
And when she's hurting it feels like my heart is getting shredded into tiny pieces.
I have been in love with her for quite some time now I think.
Should I say it out loud?
I don't know if I should.
"I'm fine." I whisper and kiss her head again.
After a minute or two she continues.
"Then everything went so fast. Someone called the ambulance and the police. I think it was one of the guests, since some had already arrived.
The police took Damien, but that's all we know. Callan is making sure he gets his punishment and like I already said, Theo is looking for some food."
He should get a lifetime in prison for touching Az.
He can rot in a cell there, for all I care.
"You should get some sleep." I whisper.
"Um, you should! You were shot Aiden."
"Believe me, that didn't go unnoticed by me."
"Smart ass." I chuckle but wince immediately.
"The doctor should check on you in a few minutes." Azalea mumbles, already half asleep.
~
Somehow we both fell asleep.
But I groan as I hear the door opening.
I see my uncle walking in and immediately tense.
"What are you doing here?" I ask and Azalea stirs and I instantly feel bad for waking her.
He holds up his hands "Don't worry. I'm not here to harm you in any way. I just wanted to see if you are alright after my utter disappointment of a son lost his mind." Even though I now loathed Damien with everything I had, I felt bad for him for a tiny second, because I know how it feels to be a disappointment to your father.
But he deserves it. So my short lived pity is instantly replaced with smugness.
"As you can see I'm fine. Thank you." I say and wait for him to leave. When he doesn't I pull Az tighter against me.
"You can leave now."
"I'm sincerely sorry. I hope my son gets a proper punishment. I for sure won't help him out of his own dug grave." He scoffs as if it's an audacity to even think about him helping his son.
I nod along just wanting him to leave, so I can finally kiss Az, since I was too confused to do so earlier. Which is just sad.
"I do hope we are good. And that your father has the same mindset."
Now that makes sense. Of course he just wanted to make sure my father wouldn't start to become a complication.
"I have to go now. Have a good day and recovery nephew."
I just nod at him and let out a breath when he finally leaves.
"You okay?" I look down at Azalea and smile.
"I'm fine. What about you? Were you able to get some sleep?" I ask.
"Yes, I was asleep surprisingly quickly."
I lean down, her soft lips touching mine for a precious second before the door creaks open.
"Oh sorry! Am I interrupting guys?" I fight hard to not glare at Theo, since he saved my life. "I can go y'know? I would never want to stand in the way of my nephew being produced!"
I hear Azalea groan but I can't contain my chuckle, at least until she shoots me a deadly look.
"Okay there's no reproducing happening here I guess. But I brought us some food!"
Fuck I'm damn near starving.
Theo hands us all a microwaved box of noodles. But I'm grateful for anything I can get at the moment. And it's probably much better than the hospital food I'd get anyway.
"So how are you feeling bro?"
"Aside from the fact that I got shot I still feel like shit."
"Oh. Damn that sucks. Anyway, I'm okay with practically anything that costs at least five hundred bucks."
I look at him confused.
"Well since I saved your life that's nothing. Am I right? So that's the minimum."
I notice Azalea, raising an eyebrow and trying to contain her laughter, out of the corner of my eye.
"Did you hear from Callan?" Az asks while still munching on her noodles. Would she hate me if I stole them from her?
No. I won't risk getting shot again.
She's crazy when it comes to her food.
"Nope. Not yet. But I'm sure everything's fine and he'll call us soon." Theo sighs deeply "as much as I'd like to stay here with such humorous, amazing people, I gotta go." I narrow my eyes at him, pretty sure what he just said was sarcastic.
"I have a date!"
"Oh really? Then you shouldn't be late. Thanks for the food Theo. Text me." Az tells him and Theo kisses her cheek.
He walks towards me and pats my shoulder for much longer than necessary.
"Why are you petting me like a dog?"
"You just remind me so much of Eli." I choke on nothing.
But before I can ask what the actual fuck he means, he's out of the room.
Az clears her throat.
"Well, that was um something." I raise a brow and she laughs out loud.
And I'm mesmerized by it once again.
The way her eyes light up.
The way her whole face transforms.
So damn beautiful.
~
The doctor came some minutes later and told me that I'm safe to go home as long as the bandage gets changed regularly.
Az drove us both to the mansion and I'm currently lying in bed, thinking about all the ways I'd hurt Damien.
Motherfucker.
Az is currently checking up on her mom and I'm being left alone with my thoughts.
God, how much I hate my mind.
Luckily I fall asleep fast, thanks to all the painkillers I took.
~
Azaleas pov
I was short of crying when Aiden woke up.
I really don't know why I'm so emotional at the time.
It's not my period. So why?
Mom is doing good. That's at least some great news.
She told me about her new found friends again. And how she has a possible crush on one of them.
I'm so damn happy for her.
She deserves everything.
I just arrived back at the mansion.
Theo is still on the date.
And Callan still hasn't called but I'm trying not to worry.
I walk into Aidens room and notice him sleeping.
I think I'm repeating myself, but he looks so peaceful while sleeping.
The constant crease in his brow is not there.
He almost looks like an angel.
I begin to turn around not wanting to wake him, when he calls out my name.
"Lux mea." Or my nickname. I love how only he calls me lux mea.
I love the meaning behind it. Okay, I adore everything about it.
"Yeah? I just came back. How are you feeling?"
"Much better. But I'd feel even better if you came into bed with me." The left corner of his lips turns up and there's a dimple again.
Oh how much I love them.
I raise an eyebrow, but walk towards the bed nonetheless.
I slip under the covers next to him and he instantly pulls me close to his chest.
I ignore the fluttering in my stomach.
I look up into his eyes.
"Does it hurt badly?"
"It's manageable."
I kiss him gently, because I can't resist.
He kisses me back instantly.
After a minute he leans back for a second but when he sees the look in my eyes, he kisses me again. This time harder.
Almost greedily.
As if he can't get enough.
I put my hands in his soft chestnut brown hair.
I get on top of him, but I'm careful with his injured side.
I kiss and kiss him. Our tongues touching. Our scents mixing.
I pull my shirt over my head because I need skin contact.
I need reassurance that he's still breathing, that he's okay.
"Never do that again Aiden!" I mutter almost angrily even though I know it's stupid. It's not his fault he got shot.
"I'm so sorry love. Never again. You don't know what went through my mind shortly before."
"What was it?" I ask while he peppers kisses all over my neck and cleavage. But my bra is still on.
"You. Only you. I only thought about you. The whole time." He clasps open my bra and my breasts fall out, for him to see.
He instantly puts a nipple into his mouth and I gasp.
"Beautiful. So damn beautiful." He whispers while switching over to my other breast.
I lean back a bit, to be able to pull his shirt over his head.
The next thing I know, Aidens pants are on the ground, next to mine.
His boxers and my panties follow.
I don't know what comes over me, but I take the blanket and wrap it around myself.
"Can we uh, can we turn off the light?"
I ask shakily.
"Az are you okay?" Aiden asks, his brows furrowing in worry.
"I-" my breathing gets faster.
"Hey, hey, hey." He puts his hands on my cheeks and makes me look at him "baby look at me. You're okay. We won't do anything if you don't want to. Just say the word and I'll leave you alone. Tell me what you need."
I immediately calm down.
He said the exact perfect words.
We don't have to do anything.
I don't have to do anything.
He'll stop if I say so.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath "I'm sorry." I whisper.
"Lux mea, stop saying sorry. You're okay. We're okay. Yes?"
I nod, and I feel my eyes burn.
Don't cry.
Don't cry.
Don't cry.
"Azalea what is wrong? Do you want to tell me?"
I look into his beautiful eyes and know, I would tell him everything.
I want him to know everything.
Every single secret. Everything about me.
I'm about to apologize again but then I remember Aiden doesn't want me to.
And he's right.
I have nothing to apologize for!
I take a deep breath "it's Liam." I hate speaking his name. Especially now.
But there's no way around it.
"I haven't told you everything."
He smiles encouragingly, so I continue.
"Like I already told you, I wasn't doing good after my sister passed away and everything else that happened. It was a hard time and Liam took the chance and he knew what he was doing.
I became dependent on him.
He was everything.
But it was a joke for him as it turned out.
One day, he had a football game and I visited him in the changing rooms.
I was still a virgin and I knew he wanted to have sex for a long time." I take a deep breath and Aiden starts making circles on my hip with his thumb that had a calming effect.
"Well apparently he didn't wanna wait anymore. He didn't directly force me. But he coerced me into having sex with him for sure.
I would've done anything for him to stay at this point. So I gave in.
In the middle of um- y'know, his teammates came into the room and I froze. It was my first time and I obviously didn't want a whole fucking team to see.
I thought Liam would scream at them to leave. But he laughed and told them they could join. I still remember how shocked I was. I still remember how I thought this couldn't be real.
I was speechless and didn't know what to do. They started making remarks about my body.
Rating everything. And-" I take a deep breath, willing the tears back "it was horrible. And it felt like forever. But luckily before any of those pigs got their hands on me, they had to go because the game was about to start.
I ran out as fast as possible. I still don't know how. My legs were wobbly like jelly.
I ran into the bathroom and I think I sat there for about an hour. Crying and crying and crying. But I can't really remember the exact time span.
I don't know if I told you, but Katie was once my best friend." I don't miss the way his eyes widen a bit.
"She found me and laughed at me. And I don't know how I was still able to function. The two people closest to me, betrayed me both in one day. She showed me the video she took of everything that happened in the changing room. And I thought I was gonna die. She knew about everything. She said she would send it to everyone. I didn't have any power in me left to fight her as she showed me the video. The video of my first time, where a whole football team came in. And I heard all of their remarks and jokes about my body once again." I can't stop the tears from falling now. But Aiden catches every single one with his fingers.
"But then Chiara came in. She took the phone from Katie and after she deleted the video and completely destroyed the phone, she punched Katie square in the face.
God, I thought she was an angel at that moment.
Since then we we're best friends. She was there for me. And I'm sure, I wouldn't be here today, if it wasn't for her." I smile sadly.
I can't wait to hug C again.
She really was my angel.
"I-" Aiden begins after a quiet minute.
I interrupt him. "You don't have to say anything. But it feels good. To talk about it I mean. And I'm glad you know now."
I look down at us.
My blanket slipped from my hand and I'm completely nude in front of him.
But I don't feel the urge to cover myself again.
"I'm sorry for ruining the mood." I whisper.
"You're sorry for ruining the mood? Azalea stop apologizing. I mean it. I don't even know what to say, to be honest.
I can't explain the rage I feel towards those people. And I wanna fucking kill every single one of them, but I don't think that'll be helpful.
Az, you're so damn strong. Stronger than I ever could've imagined." He smiles at me sadly.
And it means so much to me, to hear this from him.
It's quiet for a minute and we're just looking each other deep in the eyes.
Aiden begins to get up to get our clothes but I stop him with my lips on his.
I kiss him like I don't ever want him to leave.
Like he's everything I'll ever need.
It's exciting just as it is scary.
But I'm ready to do it for Aiden.
To go down that road.
I kiss him deeper and it feels like I'm falling, but I'm not scared.
Because I know for sure he will catch me.
I know why he's being a bit hesitant at first, but I take his hand in mine and place it on my breast.
"Touch me." I whisper into his mouth.
"You don't have to tell me twice."
I feel him hard against my thigh.
So close.
Close close close to there.
I take him into my hand and Aiden groans into my mouth.
"Are you sure love?"
I nod. There's nothing in this world I want more right now.
"Use your words lux mea."
"I was never more certain about anything else. I want you Aiden. I won't let anything or anyone from my past ruin that for me."
"You're so strong Azalea. And so beautiful."
"Wait-"
Aiden immediately stops moving.
"What about your hip?"
He breathes out a sigh of relief "don't worry about that. I'm fine."
I raise an eyebrow but don't argue. If he says he's fine then I trust him.
Aiden changes positions and I'm laying underneath him.
He looks at me.
The real me. But I'm not shying away this time.
I'm enjoying it.
And in turn I look at him.
He's perfect. There's no other word for it.
Beautiful comes close.
He's so damn beautiful it hurts.
"You're beautiful." I whisper and I think I see his cheeks redden a bit.
"Are you safe?" He asks and I nod.
I'm on birth control since I was fourteen.
My period cramps were next level.
He lines himself up at my opening and I suck in a breath.
"I love you." He whispers a second before he pushes in.
Not fully.
I haven't had sex in forever so it burns a bit but he's being careful.
My fingernails will for sure leave scars on his shoulders.
He pulls out slowly and then pushes in again. This time fully. And even though there's still a slight burn, the pleasure I feel is overpowering anything else.
"I love you Lux mea." I suck in a breath as I finally realize what he just said.
I look at him, my feelings going crazy.
I'm feeling so much pleasure.
I feel a tear escaping.
He kisses it off my cheek.
"Don't cry my love. I want this to be perfect for you."
He goes deeper and hits a point that brings me so much pleasure I think I'm seeing stars.
His thumb finds my clit and he starts rubbing.
I doesn't take me long until I find my climax.
I only see black for a second.
It feels so good.
So so good.
When it's over I slump into the bed, but Aiden keeps pumping into me.
And it's impressive considering he got shot yesterday.
He hits that one spot so deep inside me again, and I feel pleasure once more.
"Come for me again love."
"I don't think-" I start but it turns into a moan.
"For me."
One hand of his finds my breast while my hands explore his whole body.
I feel this tingly feeling in my lower stomach.
And I come again.
I feel Aiden twitch inside me and I know he's about to come.
"I love you too Aiden Torres."
His eyes snap to mine and I watch as he falls over the edge.
It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
I feel his cum fill me and I shudder out of pleasure.
He slumps half on top of me.
The room is quiet for a second.
The only sound is our hard breathing.
Aiden lifts his head and looks me in the eye.
"Say it again."
I instantly know what he means "I love you Aiden. I love you."
He kisses me gently.
So gently I almost start crying.
"You're my everything." He says, his forehead against mine. "Thank you for this."
He pulls out and I immediately miss the absence of him being deep inside me.
He walks into the bathroom and comes back out with a wet cloth in his hand.
He starts cleaning me up.
Cleaning the evidence of what we just did from my thighs.
After that he gets back into the bed, and pulls me tightly against his side.
The side that isn't injured.
My head resting on his chest, I hear his frantic heartbeat.
"Your heart is beating so fast." I whisper.
He chuckles.
"Is your hip okay?"
"Yes, it's fine. Now sleep my love. You need the rest."
And it doesn't take long until my consciousness slips a smile on my face.