It's funny how the more you grow up you do things you never thought your younger self wouldn't do.
ADORIA'S JOURNAL.
Here I was sitting in my room thinking about a boy who did not care about me. He would not even bat an eye if something bad happened to me.
I was just another thing that existed in his perfect world then I thought more and more wasn't that perfect but that didn't matter.
To me, he was the most beautiful boy.
I ought to be embarrassed though. He did not even remember my name and here I am sitting wondering when am going to see him next.
Every time I think of him I have a smile on my face so that means he can make me happy right?
Do you think am being silly?
Well, only time could tell but he is my whole world. I look at him and just see my future with him. I can see kids playing in the backyard as we laugh and remember the day that he didn't know my name.
It just sounds perfect and that's what I want.
Yours Adoria,
Love.
On that evening Adoria wrote this in her diary and asked if we thought she was stupid. Do you think she was stupid for thinking that Lancelot was the love of her life?
As she slept thinking about Lancelot he had no idea she even existed. He had already forgotten about her.
He knew there was no way she would ever want to be with someone like him. He was a bastard son. She on the other hand was the daughter of a rich man who had properties in like half the country.
She was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen and every time she talked and the way her eyes glowed he wanted to just look at her forever and her blabbering about anything but that was something that was never going to happen.
They were two people who were in different worlds and did not know how the other felt for the other one and just cried themselves to sleep whenever things didn't go as planned.
Days passed and Adoria went to see Ayana. The only reason she had gone there was to see Lancelot. All of a sudden Ayana had stopped being her priority.
How could she though when Lancelot looked the way he looked?
The moment she saw Lancelot her face glowed. Her face shined and she couldn't hold back the smile. He was everything she could ever want.
He saw her from the corner of his eyes and wondered how someone could be so breathtakingly beautiful.
He stared at her as she walked past him and waited for her to greet him but she just passed by like he was nothing.
Had she even seen him there or had she just assumed he wasn't there?
Adoria waited for him to greet him but nothing was said. She wanted to speak up and ask him how he was doing but couldn't find her voice.
She was too anxious to talk to him in Infront of everyone. There were things that she wanted to tell him but then she thought he would think she was just stupid so maybe it would be best if she avoided him because he wasn't into her.
Never for a moment did she stop to think to herself and think that maybe he was thinking the same way she was thinking.
In her w, she was the only person who existed. Every other person was below her and how she felt was the only thing that mattered.
She spent the afternoon sulking and regretted even leaving her home to go see someone who did not even want to see her.
She wanted to go home but then suddenly Ayana decided that maybe she should stay the night.
Maybe all she needed was a night with her friend and then she would be back to her senses again.
"Okay I have to ask for permission first you know how my parents can be ", Adoria said as she stood up to leave and go look for her brother.
"They are so uptight can't they just let you live y little you're like almost sixteen now ", Ayana said.
" Yeah, I know but my parents aren't like your parents. My father thinks that girls should stay home until they're married ", Adoria said as she burst out laughing.
" That is so absurd and so to say that he means he will also choose a husband for you ? ", Ayana asked her best friend.
" No why would I accept something like that ", Adoria said and they all laughed at it.
Years later over a bottle of wine, they would wonder how stupid they were while they were young.
Adoria left the room and went in search of her brother who she assumed was with the other boys.
They were already drunk and she wondered what was so sweet in alcohol that they couldn't stop drinking it.
All they did when they got drunk was behave like jerks.
"Hey ", she called over to her brother.
"Just come over here I don't wanna stand up ", he said to her as his eyes were fixated on the screen where they were watching a rugby game.
"I was wondering if I can sleep here today?", Adoria asked and hoped he would say yes.
He was the favorite child and if he agreed to something then Adoria wouldn't be in trouble the following day.
"Yeah sure why not maybe I can also stay here and catch up with the boys ", he said without even thinking about it and Adoria wondered if he had heard what she had asked.
"Are you sure ?", she asked him again.
"For Pete's sake Adoria I thought you wanted to sleep here but if you don't want to that's okay we can still go home ", he said as he turned to look at her.
"No I want to sleep here I was just making sure ", Adoria said as she realized that his patience had run out with her.
"Okay now go ", said her brother.
"Where is Lancelot ?", Adoria asked before she could even think about it.
"Why are you asking ?", Darcy, Ayana's other brother asked her.
"Nothing really, Ayana just told me about his mother and I just wanted to say sorry", she said knowing very well it was a lie.
Why was she even looking for him?
"Ooh, his girlfriend came to see her so he drove her back to town ", Darcy said.
"Oh okay ", said Adoria and left.