Misha
It's hard knowing what you are doing to those around you. Ignorance is bliss.
Jay stayed with me all night. It was nice. I just watched him work out of the corner of my eye as I pretended to read. While watching him, I noticed how much he had on his plate. I am just adding to his stress. I wish I could tell him that I am fine and to go home. I do. But I am afraid to be alone. For the first time, I had someone who told me to rely on them. It's a strange feeling. Is it ok for me to be selfish? After everything I just learned about my past? I feel conflicted. He told me to believe in him, but I didn't even understand what I was supposed to believe in. This is all so foreign to me.
