Kasabay ng pag-ikot ng mundo ang pangyayari ay umiikot din, marahil ang iba ay hindi napapansin. For me once a person done something it will happened again... and again just like how sunset and sunrise change its position as time goes by promises are meant to be broken. This was a thing that never or will never change even if it's Past, present, or future.
Falling inlove to your friend was shocking, you know it's just came out... The feeling when one day you woke up having a feelings to your friend.
It scares me when that thing happened and the only way to stop it was to stay away... and I did. She knows and she understand. She gave me time to move on she said "Come back to me when everything was in right place, I'll be right here... I'll be waiting for you to come back."
It takes time for my feelings to leave, but thankfully it leaves. I promised to myself that once it goes away I will come back to her and will assure that this kind of feeling will never come back.
And finally I'm home.
I know that there's nothing left, I thought...
We're back to how we leave our memories and past or should I say how I leave? how I left her behind.
We talk, laugh, and made more memories like nothing happened, it should be that way anyway. But again just like how Earth rotate to sun and how sun finally set and rise I can't stop it, my feelings will be back I know to myself it will and I can't stop it from happening it's the thing that I can't control.
My promises... I never believed in promises, all the promises that my parents said got broken and I promise to not be like them... In the end of the day I'm just like them. I turned to a person who I hate the most, I turned to person who I promise not to be like. it's just a two promises... but why can't I fulfill it? Yes I come back... and so my feelings.
Can I just blame her? For being the best. For being the sun that lights my darkest days. For being my comfort place, my home? For being kind and beautiful. For being perfect.
I came back to her, will always be her. If it's not her I'll going to then I just stop from walking. If the path that I take is correct but she's not there then I'll rather running to nowhere... well the paths where never be correct if she's not there.
The long fight were worth it cause I see her waiting for me. No, not just waiting she help me fight.
Running away from her was the dumbest thing I ever did. Thinking that It will be safe if I run away was like getting a knife and stab my self. Running away from her was like running away from home.
If to be with her means broke my promise then I gladly broke it without hesitation. if to be with her means I'm like them... then I love to accept that title.