Lucy's Pov
Being a new kid at school was always hard. It's harder when everyone is giving you pity looks. Somehow they must all know why I am here, my main goal for today was to keep my head down and go home as fast as I can. As much as I loved school and learning new things I didn't want to be with anyone that was only with me because they felt bad for me. How was I going to know if they were truly trying to be my friend or if they were only doing it because they felt obligated to.
The first three classes were fine and I didn't have to say anything. One teacher asked if I was anything like my cousins. I said no and she grinned. It was true my cousins were popular charismatic boys and I was a shy girl content with being in her room forever. Where my cousins would try to make mischief happen I just wanted to learn and get as far away from here as I could. I didn't mind being here before but now it felt like a shadow has fallen over this place. It is no longer a house I went to when I wanted to see the people I love, it was to be my home for good because of all that I had lost. Honestly I was at the age that I could just be by myself but I didn't want to stay in a place that reminded me so much of my family. All the love and loss that we had shared together and the road that I could never drive on again. Even though I wasn't there to see my parents bodies crash or lay lifeless on the cement, my mind had found creative ways to show me their deaths every time I thought about going near that road.
At the end of the day, I decided that I should walk home. The boys had football practice and I did not want to stay at the school any longer then I needed to. I had always dreamed of being a teacher as my full time career but that did not mean that I loved school at all. In fact I hated the stares from people and the feeling of not quite fitting in. Right as I was about to leave Britney caught up to me. I had remembered her from meeting the Gang. She was Ryder's girlfriend. My first impression was that she was gorgeous, confident but also a little possessive and I knew she was not someone I wanted to be close to. She had been very friendly when she first met me but as soon as Ryder pulled up earlier something had flipped when she looked at his face. She obviously saw something she didn't like because she started frowning and wouldn't say a word to anyone after that.
"Hey Lucy I wanted to talk and become friends. It will be so nice to have another girl in the group" she said. Even though her words sounded true I could not shake the feeling that being her friend was not the right move. I knew that she was in the gang so I would have to spend time with her but I wasn't really looking to make connections here, I just wanted to get through the school that I had left and move on with my life. Constantly working towards the next step of my life was the only way that I wasn't breaking down in front of everyone.
"I'm sorry Britney but I am not here to make friends, I just want to get through this year with my head down and no attachments. Don't take this the wrong way, you seem like a great girl and probably a good friend but I just can not afford the distractions of friendships at this moment." With that small speech I disappeared into the next hallway trying to find my way to the door in the maze of a school.