"spin the bottle doll" autumn giggles looking at me.
i smile back and spin it, spinning, spinning,spinning, it lands on autumn.
"is this just a kiss or a 7 minutes in heaven type thing?" she burst out laughing
"Autumn!" our friends giggled.
"well?" she asked again.
"are u asking me" i turned to face her.
"well yehh" she put he had on my shoulder.
"i don't know, ask monte it's her house" i felt her lips get closer to mine as we spoke.
i blinked. she was kissing me. i kissed her back i was so confused, i know it was just a game but this was going on for long, so fucking long.
after a good minute she stood up still holding onto my hand and dragged me up.
"come upstairs with me dolly, just to talk"
i just nodded and followed her up the stairs out hands still linked.
she sits down on montes bed pulling me down beside her, i wrap my arm around her and she cuddled into me.
"soo a.t, what dya wanna talk about"
"a.t? you haven't called me that im years"
"you hadn't called me doll in years untill this year"
"yes i know"
"why is that"
"what?"
"why do u call me doll now?"
"because. things are different than before"
"different good or different bad?"
"different good, i just think i feel a lot more comfortable with you now"
"i get what u mean a.t i feel more comfortable with you too"
"i wanna go home doll, will u drive me?"
"of corse i will, cmon"
the sky it lit with stars and the warm breeze runs through autumns hair and dress, i wrap my jacket around her and open the car door. walking round to the other side i get a good feeling about tonight. i get in the car, close the door, put the keys in and start it up.
"you're such a boy doll!"
"i am? how's that autumn"
"look at your car"
"what it's a land rover everyone had land rovers"
"every boy has a land rover"
"oh so what"
"you have a few things in common with boys don't you doll"
"here you go again, like what?"
"you both like girls"
"oh well then ur a boy too autumn cuz u like girls"
"yeh but i like girls like you"
"girls like me?"
"maybe just you"
"just me?"
"maybe i like you"
"oh you do, does autumn have a little crush on mee"
"oh shutup dolly it's not funny"
"sorry beautiful, listen im going in the shop want anything"
"foooood"
"okay,okay"
i walked towards the shop smiling but so confused, was she just drunk? we'd been drunk together 1000 time and she'd never done or said anything like this, well not really. she'd cuddle me, but we did that sober.
i got us some snack and drinks and got back in the car, we drove to her place listening to music, my hand on her thigh. we got to her place and i never felt i had to be asked to come in but this time i did.
"you going to bed babe?" i looked up at her as she got out the car.
she leaned back in and kissed me,
"not without u, cmon"