This was a hard decision to take. Iris didn't even think of herself about how the black magic would affect her. How it would bring back all the bad memory and tainted her soul. She needed to control the power of it and kept her heart pure.
Iris didn't think about the impact that she would get, but she was torn between the option that she had.
Once she tried to save Ethan, there was no going back from that, because if she failed, not only it would kill the gamma, but she would kill the people around them too because of the backlash.
The backlash from Abby's power was enough to send a great shockwave to the whole campsite, one only could imagine if it was her power that was being backlashed.
Lou wouldn't be able to ward it off too. Iris could see how he was struggling to keep the shield during the shockwave of Abby's backlash.
Aliana kept crying, begging her to save him.
