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Chapter 32 - Martins 2

Martins Pov

I had been working my ass out 24/7 trying to find out who this mysterious person is and why the person wants to kill Bella.

Honestly I feel so fucken sorry for her , she had been through a lot and now her mother too?

Grey was just stressed out because of almost Everytime, she would either be crying or depressed.

Honestly I would be in the same mode or probably worse if I had that kind of sad childhood and all with my mother and then when we are finally together peacefully, she dies.

And her scum of a father didn't even attend the burial, or act like it was his wife that died,I had always hated that man.

Finally things had started to die down a little and was slowly getting back to normal.

I just hoped this would stay for a long time.

"Mrs Benson is coming home today" Grey told me.

"Seriously?" I asked.

"Yeah, I told her to come and stay with Bella for a while, at least like a mother figure kinda" he said.

"But ...but.."

"Yeah I know she hasn't had a child before,but at least she has a little knowledge on child bearing stuffs and all that" Grey said.

" Maybe I'll come over tomorrow" I said.

" I wanted you to follow them to the photo dump thing, but I just realized I was stressing you a lot, you need a break" he said.

"Them?" I asked.

"Yeah she and her bestfriend, the Maxwell girl" he answered.

"Oh , good thing I didn't go again then"  I said..

"Why?"

"I don't want to see Suzie" I said

He smirked," still running away from her?" He asked.

"Dude that girl scares me, I don't even know why" I said.

"Dude it's been over a year now, I'm sure she must have gotten over you by now, just call her and talk things out"

"How many times have I texted her, she doesn't even check the text" I complained.

"Then go over to her house, you can't keep acting like this, and from the looks of things you really like that girl..."

"Dude I don't" I stressed.

"What? I wasn't even talking about that kinda like, you're the one carrying the dirty mind" he said grinning.

I rolled my eyes," she's just, really intimidating" I said.

" Yeah I also found her intimidating too until we had that talk in my office the other day, now most of the time I just call her if I need any help with Bella" Grey said.

I groaned.

He smirked,". Dude no seriously, if not for the fact that I know you and all, you seriously act like you're into that girl" he said.

"I'm not seriously, I just really enjoyed her company and all, she was like the first female friend I had that wasn't asking me for dick pics"

Grey laughed," dude you have crazy friends"

"You're one of them" I reminded him.

"Okay you know what, you can go home now, you have the rest of the week off, you've been really worked out.

When you're done, go over to her house and talk things over with her and clear the air.

That is if  you're still interested in your friendship with her, but if not, keep being a coward" he said getting up and walked to the restroom.

I groaned, why are women so complicated.

I packed my things and left the office and headed home.

When I got back, I took a shower and then relaxed on my bed.

I went through my phone looking for something interesting.

No text, no message except business related, no missed call from anyone special.

I sighed and stared at the ceiling.

Honestly I envied how Grey found love and all and I was still here, single.

I understood that their relationship was Rocky but hey at least he had someone to call his.

Most of the times, I found guys I admired and all, but it was difficult to distinct between a straight guy and someone that was gay.

Being gay was hard, most of the time you get judged and weird stares from people, that was why I didn't really publicize mine, I just kept it low-key.

I wasn't like all those serious activist but I believed that everyone had the right to be attracted to whosoever the person wanted.

I wished I was in a relationship and call someone my own and all, but I guess one of the reasons why I couldn't was because I was fucken shy, like I'd meet someone I like and I also gay, Grey would even set up a meeting with the person and I, and I would come there and be unable to talk, my hands would get sweaty and I would just freeze.

I remembered when Suzie asked me why I wasn't in a relationship and I told her that I was shy, she said that there was nothing to be shy about and that if you like someone you should go for the person, and that nothing should distract me from my happiness.

Now she's just someone I used to know.

I actually wished I had told her from the beginning that I was gay, maybe she would have gotten used to it and we wouldn't be having this problem now.

Grey was right, I needed to fix things.

I got up and threw my clothes over my body and grabbed my keys and walked out of my house.

I got into the car and drove out, it was time to be a man.

When I reached her gate, the security men there asked for my identity.

I assumed Grey insisted Suzie also gets protected because if they get Suzie, they get Bella too.

But then one of them that use to work for us saw me and quickly recognized me and immediately let me in.

I walked up to get Front pouch and started thinking if I should leave or not.

What if I open the door and she slams ? What if she throws me out ?

I stood there for about 30 minutes still trying to agree whether I should knock or not.

"Martins" someone called me from behind making me jump.

I turned back and saw Suzie standing there with garden gloves in her hands.

I tried to act normal.

"Oh ahh...hi Suzie...I didn't see you there... crazy weather we are having right?" Did I say normal? I meant abnormal!.

"Uhh yeah" she said still wondering what I was doing in front of her house.

"So what are you doing here?" I asked immediately regretting why.

"Uhh.... this is my house, and I've been in my garden realizing that you've been standing there for half an hour counterpulating if you should knock or not" she said and I smiled sheepishly.

"Yeah.... uhhhh, never mind, you seem busy, I'll just-"

"You need anything?" She asked cutting me off.

Why is she so fucken colllddddd... like why isn't she friendly like Bella.

"Well uhm, I uhm...kinda" I stammered.

"What? Bella isn't back yet?" She asked.

"Oh no not that, I actually came to see you". I blurted out.

I was expecting a " oh good you've seen me now head home" kinda talk, but she went in front of me and opened the door.

"Come in" she said.

I walked in following her behind.

I expected the inside of her house to be painted black with skull pictures all over and all, for the kind of girl she looks like, but it was the complete opposite.

It was white, every single thing in the living room was white, completely white.

Couch, chanderlier, lamps, table, it was beautiful.

She went to the kitchen and got me a drink.

Then she sat down across from where I was and stared at me, waiting for me to talk.

"So uhm.. yeah here's the thing..I actually came to..." Then I paused.

I took a deep breath in and then released it .

"I've texted you like almost a hundred times, called you, told Bella to talk to you and all, but  you're just ignoring me and all.

I mean, whatever happened before, can't we just let it slide? I mean c'mon there were times I wouldn't sleep, I'll just stay awake waiting for your calls and all, just so we could talk.

You were like my bestfriend Suzie, I mean do you really want that little fight, or whatever just ruin our friendship?" I asked very seriously.

She didn't say anything, she bit her lips trying to think of what to say.

I continued," I mean, okay Maybe I fucked up from the beginning not telling you I was gay, and maybe I had given you a feeling that maybe I liked you.

I'm sorry but that was just normal me and all , and I didn't know you liked me, like, I'm really sorry Suzie, but I don't like the way things are going better us. And I really want to fix this, but if you don't-"

" Why are you apologising?" She asked interrupting me.

She continued," like, you didn't even do anything wrong, and you're apologising.

It's not your fault I got attracted to you and whatsoever, it's not your fault that you don't like me back,it's not your fault Bella cried, it's not your fault they had issues.

I was just being stupid okay? I mean I've been avoiding your texts and calls because I've been feeling guilty, very guilty.

And now here you are in my house apologising?

Look Martins I'm sorry, I'm very sorry, I'm just, I'm just very confusing.

I just overreacted and all I'm sorry" she said.

I smiled," it's okay, so can we please go back to being friends now" I knew it was going to be hard, Because there was a huge bridge in between us, but we would try.

She nodded," sure thing".

Then we talked a little, not that kinda long interested talk, just about how we've both been and then we entered into this Bella's killer talk.

When it started getting late, I suggested I get going because I didn't come with body guards.

She walked me to my car.

"Hug?" I asked nervously opening my arms slightly.

She shrugged and hugged me.

Weirdly, I didn't want to pull away, none of us wanted to.

Then she slowly pulled away.

I didn't understand what was going on, honestly because things started becoming weird.

Our faces started becoming closer.. very close..

Wait...are we gonna kiss??

Almost immediately, her phone started ringing making us pull away from each other.

"Grey what is it? She said picking the call .

Grey?

"Uhh... Maxwell? Uhhh I kinda need your help, major emergency right now" Grey said sounding like he was running.

"What happened?" She asked worried.

..." Grey where are you, hurry.." I heard Mrs Benson's voice from behind.

"Uhhh, it's Bella, her water just broke, like... right now" he said sounding worried.

"I don't understand, I thought it was next week?" Suzie asked.

"Yeah yeah, me too, Early labour, wasn't expecting it either" he said hastily running downstairs.

"Okay okay, where are you heading to?" She asked.

"I'll text you the address of the hospital" he said cutting the call.

She turned to me," could you please drive me there" she asked.

I nodded and we both got into the car.