must I suffer like this? am i not worthy to be happy? i just wanted to live my life in peace, so why?... why must i!, I've done everything i can, I pushed myself too hard to be better than i was yesterday... too hard, that i chose to be alone, because having someone by my side would only do them harm.
because I'm not like them... i don't have powers... i will only become a burden… i'll always become one… because I'm simply...
N-O-R-M-A-L
and because of this, I'm bullied like a heroine on all those novels I've read.
the difference is that, they're all too powerful, that they managed to tame all those people who've ridiculed them and make them suffer, and as for me, my ability and everything about me is just so normal, I'm also weak.
lately I've been suffering a headache that i can't even focused on studying... and these memories, these foreign knowledge, started to flood on my mind... i don't know where it came from.
I've suffered for half a day before the pain slowly disappeared.
i kept asking myself, "where are all of these coming from?", though i know that i wouldn't have ask if i know the answer. and so i decided to look for books about magic at the academy library related to what happened with me, but i wasn't lucky.
every night i would see these different images of powerful attributes that all those powerful kids my age has, why? i don't really know… for now.
*knock**knock*
"my lady, your father--" -Louise
"yes, I'll be ready."
hah... as i thought, father has returned, hasn't he?
"My daughter٫ how are you?"-sir Renaud
he ash me in his caring tone.
"Father, i'm fine don't worry about me, i can handle myself"
i said with the sweetest smile that i can give him…
then everything went dark…
——^ ——
when i woke up, everything is familiar to me, I'm still in my room, as i was looking around, father's not here anymore, but...
"aww, my lady is so adorable!" -bianca
"right, right! she got her highness' beautiful and shiny hair and mixed up with his highness' ocean blue eyes, a perfectly matched genes indeed!" -louise
"googaa!"(thank you)
what on heavens! i wasn't... i can't believe this is happening!
i can see now, i came back to when i was only 1 year old... the difference is that other than these retained memories of mine, I'm somewhat feeling... powerful?
i can still remember those knowledge i got about the powerful attributes, and it's clear to me now, it was the ancient attributes that 10/50 kids are born with, there are 12 different attributes;
•Elemental
(fire, earth(rocks&plant), water)
•Heavenly Light (healing, health recovery(doctors))
•Darkness of Dawn (poisons, potions, witchcraft, assassin)
•swordmanship and spearmanship
(usually learnt by knights and aspiring heroes)
•archery
(elven race are the well known race that mastered archery)
•martial arts
•taming
(befriending animals, monsters that are not in berserk mode, if they are, they'll be slaves of whom will tame them.),(all species are valid to tame if reached the 3rd level, if the highest level(5) was reached you can make anyone submit to you with their full loyalty, only if it's not for illegal use, if it is then the power you possess will perish, just like what happened to the evil tamer in the history.)
•transformation
(of yourself or of anything you wanted to transform. 5 is the highest level where you can transform anything at 0.001sec and multiply, the highest recorded was 7. flexibility and liquidation)
•powerful mind
(psychic, telekinesis, manipulation, engineering, architecture)
•God of speed
(can travel across all dimensions in split seconds if reached the highest level of 9)
•Sensitivity enhancement
(all five senses are of a different level with a normal human having quick perception and
•weather power
(rainstorm(basically water but can also make a rain of swords), lighting having the highest chance of ko with demon bear, hailstorm, sandstorm, earthquake, snowstorm, tornado, hurricane.)
the difference of people with born ancient powers to those who awakened at the age 12 are the proficiency of oneself to the powers, if a master who was born with it can master the attributes by 80% then the others would only be at 50-65%.
back to the current situation I'm in, I've just accepted the fact that I'm back to being a baby me, and now I'm currently being fed by Louise.
maybe this is good, i can become someone respected in the future and not being sympathize, or pitied, or ridiculed by anyone, and my mom... I wanna see her so bad.
"ma-da" i unconsciously said, "what is it my lady?" louise ask. i looked at bianca, "i guess our miss want to see her mother, her highness." as always, she's good at knowing what i want.
"miss, her highness will come here later with his highness, let's just play first, okay?" Louise said.
"googagaga" (alright, fine) i forgot that they can't understand but i know that bianca can comprehend what I'm saying, i think that's what her power is, it's different from reading minds though, if so then she'll know that my mind is the older me.
after some time, we were looking at the window and louise is carrying me, then a carriage of white and gold came, "your highnesses are here, quick!" said bianca and then louise proceeded opening the door while bianca dresses me and then put me down my bed.
"aww, how i missed my darling so much!" my mother, i wanna hug her tightly with this little arms of mine. "maaada~!" i said and smiled widely and the she carried me and hugged me tight, the hug that i longed for so many years is now being given to me again by my mother.
on my previous life, my mother died when i was 5, she was poisoned. we didn't find out who did it and so, i will stop that from happening now. i won't let anyone harm my mother or my father, i will protect everyone around me.