Today I am here to make an important announcement that I never thought I would but sometime we have to take some decision unexpectedly and unwillingly because they are good for us.
So i want to tell you guys that next month I will be in 12th standard and you all know it is a very important class. I am a non-attending student so in 11th standard there is not much pressure but 12th class is a complete hell. I have board, JEE mains and if i manage to crack then advance – the three most important exams of my life in less than a year.
And to me just passing is nothing I want to get very good marks because to me when it comes to studying it is all about marks. I know it is wrong but I am child whose was always compared since childhood so I have this craze that I want to prove myself better than other and I can do anything for that.
I know some of these people never intentionally wanted to do this to me but still they did it they hurt me, made me feel useless and inferior. So I just want to shut their mouth. But I even I want to say sorry to them, sorry I am not a god gifted child, sorry I am not good enough, sorry I am a little confused in my life, sorry I am not a topper material. I know I am not perfect but I am worthy of something and I will not tolerate at all if anyone in anyway make feel miserable about myself at least not anymore.
I want to just shut the mouth of these so called uncle, aunties, batchmates, cousins, teachers and sadly but even parents. I literally remember my maths teacher saying me to focus more on maths and chemistry because no matter how hard I will not be able to do anything in physics and I could not say anything about it rather than just nodding like an obedient child.
Anyways this will just go on for few more years once I get want I want in my life I will definitely cut all my connection with these people.
I don't know why I am writing all this I was here to make a simple announcement but it turned to this. This is first time I am talking about all this may be because I don't really know who will read this and as I don't know who you all really are it doesn't matter what you really think about me after reading all this.
So in total I want to say that I want give all my focus and time to studies that's why I will not be able write for like a year. I am even not sure if I will be using the app all this time or not but if I will be using it and I ever get time and feel bored from studying, somehow end up writing something I will surely upload it.
I don't even if my presence really matter to you guys or not? But I am literally sad about this and I don't know if you will miss me or not but I surely will miss you guys from the core of my heart. But if you guys will even miss me a bit I will be very very happy to know that.
So maybe this is a good bye from my side for a long time but I promise it will be a temporary goodbye and never a forever one.
Be healthy and happy because you have to read my story. I will miss you all and thank you for all your love and support till now.
GOOD BYE!