I can't stop thinking about what happened with Nathaniel. Why am i even bothered by this? He only talked to me for a week so we're not particularly friends, right? But why does it feel like this. Like I said something wrong.
Ughhh.
It's been a week since the argument and at school he doesn't look at me, In hallways he walks right by me like nothing ever happened, like we never spoke. So I guess we're back to how it was before. Like we never met. It's cool, he want's it that way right?
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I have a free period now so I'm at the school's library. I'm studying, to catch up on the things I missed while I was at home. With Nathaniel.
I was the only one here at the time, until someone walked in. Someone I can recognize from a mile away. What was He doing in here. This is the last place I thought I would see him but here he is.
He doesn't see me tho. He walks over to the romance novel collection. Wait, romance? You've got to be kidding me. He picks up what I think is Hamlet and walks over to the reading section. I don't think he notices me as he sits at the other end of the library, facing my direction but eyes glued on the book while my eyes were glued to him.
My phone vibrated. It was a text from an unknown number. "Stop staring at me cupcake" I look up at Nathaniel and he's eyes were focused on me.
I could feel a blush creeping in but I try to hold it back as I look back at my Biology text book. I could hear footsteps coming closer, followed by someone sitting right in front of me. I look up at King and he's still just looking at me. He doesn't say anything, his face expressionless and all.
This brings back serious deja vu from the first time he talked to me at the cafeteria. I don't say anything though, I just go back to studying. But it was hard to study when I could feel his brown eyes staring right at me.
"What do you want King" I finally say "Nothing" he says "then why're are you here" I ask "to read, obviously" he rolls his eyes. "I mean, why are you sitting here, with me" "because I want to".
"Wow, I didn't know you sat with people who apparently do not have a life" I murmur looking back at my book. He just looks at me, like he wants to say something. But he doesn't.
"Look. Uhm....I umm..." he looks at me with pleading eyes playing with his fingers. He looks nervous? "I'm just here to apologize, my outburst was unnecessary and dumb. You said we aren't friends right? So I guess that's it. Bye"
"Hey, look I'm sorry I said we aren't friends. It was just stupid. I really like your company so if you still want to be friends it's cool. But I still don't understand why you reacted that way though" He sighs, running is fingers through his already perfectly messy hair.
"Look, that's not important. Just forget about it, it's nothing" he says not looking into my eyes "but you were pretty mad, it felt like something, are you sure?" I ask.
"Goddamn Veah, I said it's nothing, just drop it please" he says, eyes finding it's way to me. I just shrug and go back to my book. "Thank you" he whispers
"Hey do you have any other class after now?". "Uh no. But I'm tutoring someone after school" I say "oh, I'll be here then. I really don't have anywhere else to be so I guess I'll stick with you till your done" he says not lifting his eyes from the book "okay"
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King really did not leave me alone, he followed me everywhere. He even stayed for the tutoring lessons.
It was so cute seeing him apologize, he was fidgeting and stuttering and all. The bad boy isn't so bad after all.
We were currently at my place. Trish was in the kitchen making a batch of brownies. Not my usual, but I love them too.
Nathaniel was on the couch, my head on his lap and his fingers playing with my hair. We were watching another episode of Wednesday.
"Cupcake?" He looked down "my name isn't cupcake" I say rolling my eyes "doesn't look like I give a fuck" he says "what do you want King?" "Nothing" he says and takes a bite out of my brownie.
I look up at him and the view from here is just magnificent. His eyelashes are long as fuck and his lips are just screaming kiss me.
Wait
What?
No.
I mean, he's pretty attractive.
Yeah. Attractive.
"Why're you looking at me like that?" He says looking down at me. "What? I'm not even looking at you?" My cheeks burning up as I quickly look away "you're lying cupcake" he says smiling down at me "I'm not" I say "yeah, yeah, you're cute just stop looking at me like that" he says still smiling at me "well stop smiling at me like that" my cheeks grow hotter. Did he just call me cute?
I'm used to compliments like this. Why is his having this effect on me. Shit what's happening to me??
We stay like that for a few more hours. Until I fell asleep on his lap. Thinking about a particular curly haired boy.
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Hey Bestiesssss!!!!
How're y'all doing!!!!
It's a day to 2023. That's so crazy.
This year was brutally slow for me but that's whatever, at least it's over.
The age I'll be turning next year seems so serious, it's crazy.
Hope y'all like this chapter tho.
Xoxo
-Shalom