Dear Diary:
I was on the verge of killing myself earlier. My mom lashed out her entire life at me. She called me a whore, a disgrace and her biggest disappointment because she found out that I'm friends with Noah. She broke my phone but I have enough savings to buy a new one. I can't keep going through this. I was on the verge of crying. My mother's the most toxic person I've ever met and I can't get a break. I'm pretty sure Noah hates me right now or is scared of me because of the way she reacted but gosh.. I'm over it. I'm tired.
I'm just friends with someone and she's making such a big deal about it. Of all the stupid things that happen in my life, she's making the biggest deal because I'm friends with an older boy? Where was all her energy when her husband was forcing me to take everything he was giving me? It was lost. And now she wants to play the concerned mother card? I think the hell not.
In other news, he said he broke up with his girlfriend because it wasn't working out for them. I'm not sure I believe that but it's whatever. No one's obligated to tell me the truth.
The girl wasn't for him. I could see it and so could everyone. But I'm just saying this because I'm obsessed with him and want him for myself but that won't happen so I have to take the only position I can get: friend.
My bottle of bourbon will be hearing about this later. I'm tired. Goodbye diary.