It's early in the morning and I am walking through the narrow lanes of the sidewalk with my head down at our gated street. The grey-colored bricks on the pavement are super soothing for my crowded mind. It is the last month of summer, but the sun is not blazing down on us. Usually, the weather is making the outside feel like the pits of hell. The cooler breeze brings in a sense of relief. Leaves are turning different colors red, orange, and brown. Fall looks like it is coming early and it is only August 9th.
Strangely I feel a wave of calmness spreading over me. This surprises me since I don't know how I got here, to this exact spot. I never go to this park. It's a relatively small park, there is a sandbox and a swing set in the distance. My mind begins to swirl, even the thought of him usually makes my palms sweaty and cold, and my heart misses a few beats. But today, I feel that I am in command of my feelings and emotions for him. I look at the world with joy and each passing face feels familiar. Then my pace of walking slows down and I take the right turn casually. There is a huge pine tree that stands majestically in front of me and it suddenly brings back emotions that feel familiar but yet unclear. The tree covers an enormous area and the roots grow down from the branches and form grand columns.
He can't find me now. I walk towards the edge of the shade and gaze at his windows. The vibration of my cell phone gives me a jolt. It isn't him, he doesn't have my number. Ignoring it because it is on five percent, I shut it off and go back to my surroundings. The railings of the park are painted silver, I go near them and look away. The bridge which connected the eastern part of the city with the west seemed like it was floating in the air. I hear the sound of a twig snap and I whip my head around to see him.
"Are you okay?" He stands behind me in just sweatpants. A few tattoos I hadn't noticed are on the upper part of his arm. One looks like a claw mark and in the claw mark is fur and a very detailed eye of a dog. It looks like it is trapped in his skin which is well done, the artist did a good job. The other one is on his wrist, its snake wrapped around his wrist. From afar it looks like a bracelet. His back is what is covered, but I haven't gotten a chance to view them all.
I turn back to him and look at him with stoic calmness. Usually, I would feel nervous and uneasy in his presence. I normally watch him through a window, avoiding him is my winning game, and I committed everything to avoid this man. But now I am committed to everything to have this man in every way.
"I am fine just looking at the bridge over the trees, the stars are about to go away," I say calmly, taking a deep breath in to look at the scenery. All the colors of the sky look painted and they keep me at peace.
He moves closer to me. The smell of him fills the air, he smells like cinnamon and citrus, it penetrates me and the unseen passions stir. He grabs my hand and once he notices I am not as fast as he carries me across the street, not watching for cars. We walked back to his house. As soon as we get in the door his lips are on mine. The breath of fresh air is knocked out of me as he takes hold of me
He slips my clothes off carefully off me and then takes his off in a rush. They end up in a pile again. This time at the foot of his bed.
Now knowing I can't get enough of him. My body feels very tired at the moment, but I don't care and the want to go back to sleep is nonexistent. Wanting the familiar ache again, I give him a look and he looks back at me in the same manner. I wanted him in me, right now, there are no hesitations. Now that I have had him, in this way I do not want it to stop. I want to see his face, and his eyes, admiring me. I want his sweat to drop onto me as he makes love to me. I want to drop mine on him.
Laying naked now in his glorious form, I run my tongue down his body peppering kisses along the way. Nothing in my dreams could predict this would happen.
I climb on top of him and we slowly start kissing, positioning myself above his cock. I have done it before. I can't believe it; I'm doing this again. He helped me discover something I never thought I would do with someone. I hold onto him as he slides in massaging my bud making it easier to slip in and... felt deeper in me this time. I'll never forget this sensation. I am in charge again and he appears to like it. I hold his hands and put some weight on them. He pretends he is trying to break free. I let my breasts touch his face. He goes wild; he flips our position out of spite. Blade then splits me in two. One of his fingers travels down my body, he flips me over.
I am now on my stomach ass in the air. There is no end to it, no end to the new things we could do. He pounds into me from behind my breasts bouncing up and down as he goes in and out at a teasing pace. He stops and flips me over again. I lay on my back as he sticks my legs over his broad shoulders. His lips kiss my clit, and then his tongue does slow circles around my sensitive bud. My eyes slam shut as he does this, and my hands grip his sheets as the sensation fills my body like white heat.
He then drops my legs and spreads them further apart. He slides into me with a sigh. His tongue travels across my body, a shiver runs up and down my spine. He takes hold of my bottom lip and bites down. Minutes pass as he goes in and out, each stride hits a spot that makes my legs quiver. The little sounds that I make can't be stopped and that makes him make his growl in pleasure. I feel defeated in all the best ways, but he continues pounding into me.
When he comes, it downs us both. We both crumble like sand. All the sensations hit me like a train and I am left gasping for air. He gets up to use the bathroom, returns from the bathroom, and picks up the covers from the floor. He then shows me the rag he got to clean me up with. He delicately cleans me up staring into my tired eyes as he does so with a smile.
I can not move at all, my bones might as well be jelly. I lay just where I had fallen. His cat lays in a cat tower across the room, I hadn't noticed it before. It must have slept through the chaos of us fucking. I then drift off to sleep since my limbs are so tired. Knowing next time the cat is in here I will kick him out.
Everything around me looks snowy. I have never lived anywhere that has snowed so it's odd walking down a snowy path. A wolf cub presents itself and I freak out knowing the pack is probably near. But as I look around I notice no one. A woman with long dark black hair swoops down like an eagle. The wolf is no longer a cub anymore he stands tall with his brown fur, trapped far away from the woman who stands majestically in front of me.
"Find me," she says looking over at the lone wolf. I glance at the wolf and its face turns evil, the teeth show and I freak out as it walks over to me.
"Down, doggie. Down." I say in an attempt to make it not step in front of me, but all else fails. I close my eyes taking a deep breath. Breathe, Breathe. I tell myself and when I open up my eyes the wolf is laying in front of me looking at me as if I am a stupid human. It just looks like a massive dog.
"Are you going to imprint on my future daughter?" I ask, trying to lighten the mood a bit for me, it's not like it can hear me.
I am waiting for it to shift and become Jacob or something. Maybe it will say where the hell have you been located?
This isn't the first time I have seen a wolf in my dreams. This exact wolf has shown up a few times, the last time it came was right before I was recruited into the gang. Not knowing what it is here for I honestly don't know how to get a grip on it. What is it here for? What is it warning me of this time?
"What is going to happen?" I ask and nothing comes from the wolf as normal.
The tan girl comes back as if the wolf is her pet, so it goes away with her. I am left in the snow alone, and nothing clear gets shown in my dreams. It's been more of a puzzle as I have gotten older. Everything goes dark and I have pulled away from my dream world. A random person who I have never seen was in my dream. It's happening again, my visions are back. It's as if she is still here with me telling me to find her. Who is she? How am I supposed to find a person I do not know?