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After structurally grasping every single gun in the bag - his hand's barely working -, we see Shirou looking at Kiritsugu's most prized gun... A Thompson Contender....With the saddest expression, he could make... When he Structural Grasped the Thompson Contender - from which he found out that the more he used structural grasp the easier it became and unaware to him used slightly less * Prana * each time - and saw that this was the most prized gun of Kiritsugu.... it's what he found out was a Mystic Code? he doesn't know what it means.... but he guessed it's basically a magic gun since it allowed Kiritsugu to use some special bullets.
There was a bullet inside...so he structurally grasped it and what he saw, cemented what Norikata said about a magus walking with death.... He saw how the special bullets were created...The bullets were created from Kiritsugu's first and second ribs on both sides being cut off, extracted from her body, ground into dust and... and... and...
?
.... Something else he knows it....
Yet he couldn't see any further... only blurs for a couple of seconds before he snaped back to reality.
But from what he saw ... he saw...
'She experienced so much pain from this gun...She sacrificed for this gun...And... And she left it behind so that she could spend more time with him...' Shirou thinks remembering from the structural grasp. That the reason she hid all of these weapons, is so that she would be able to spend more time with him, rather than picking them up and continuing trying to be a hero....
...She sacrificed her past for him...
Shirou... Shirou couldn't help but... smile.... at the gun "It seems ... It seems like I can't live...I can't live without making everyone sacrifice their lives..." Shirou says with a broken grin...
" FUCK THIS!!!" Shirou screams
" I WILL SACRIFICE EVERYTHING ABOUT MY SELF TO SAVE YOU THEN KIRITSUGU!!!" Shirou continues screaming promising not only to himself but also to Kiritsugu... As he barely was able to lift his fists up.
After taking deep breaths Shirou looks at the guns around himself.... and then he sees the book.... Ah, right..... He was supposed to see how many Circuits he had and their quality... Should he even do it ?... He does create Circuits and Norikata said that self-created circuits from nerves are of low quality.....
It wouldn't hurt to check Shirou thinks, "Trace On" Shirou repeats his Aria and uses structural grasp on himself.... and.... he was surprised....he saw most of his body....from the inside out before quickly he tries to focus on his nerves which he found easily enough thank's to him always using them... aka sacrificing them...
Before... finding them all, and so quickly deactivates his structural grasp and then saying "Trace Off" deactivates his circuit and.... googles how many nerves are inside of a body finding out that there are over 7 trillion.... meaning if he does sacrifice all of his nerves it will take decades... well sacrificing them.... he now googles what happens if you lose a nerve.... and the least dangerous thing to happen is... losing motor function.... Whelp, ok... he still has to be careful if he loses enough nerves.... IF since as far as he saw... he didn't lose a single nerve....
And then looks at his circuits again and the one he created earlier... or at least is pretty sure... kind of sure.... well not really sure... but would up to some point say that it was the nerve he just * Sacrificed * for a magic circuit and finding while it looked way more greyish than the white or the other grey colored nerves. (please tell me if I'm correct on nerve's colers and if they trully become grayer under strain or pressure )
Why aren't they disappearing?..... well doesn't matter.... He can create circuits without repercussion...
He was about to deactivate his structural grasping before realizing something which he wanted to check.
Being that if he truly doesn't have a magic circuit or maybe he made some mistake with the circle ?
And so, while sitting there looking for a circuit he found a couple of things...
First being that he has a circuit other than his self-created one.... And it's in a much worst state than his strained nerves.... focusing on it he sees it's ...really ?.... 0.00000000000000027 of a circuit..... he doesn't even have a circuit !!!.... 'DIDN'T NORIKATA SAY EVERY LIVING BEING HAS AT LEAST 1 CIRCUIT AND I DON'T EVEN HAVE THAT !?....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA' Shirou screams in his mind.
*Sigh*'There's nothing I can do about it....' Shirou thinks looking sadly at his circuit... At least he can use his nerve's for magecraft ...Does that mean he has no soul since Norikata said you need at least 1 circuit to connect your soul to your body... Shirou shrugs those thoughts not wanting to think about it... If so.... all those he sacrificed were for nothing and well.... he's alive so maybe he understood something wrong ?
Well, it doesn't.... matter..... ?
And this is when he notices something... near his magic circuits.... is a... a scabbard?.... a familiar-looking scabbard...It's way to familiar.... And....It's so warm.... so.... interesting... Wanting to find out more about it and why it's inside of him Shirou tries to structural grasp it and....*Static*.... Most of it was static but he saw a beautiful woman give it to another woman with blond hair. He saw then... she was in a war fighting and fighting and fighting.... until she lost it...it was lost for a long time before it was found by a person called Richard I and stored in a box, and after an unknown time later it was excavated in Cornwall by a family called Einzberns that was later given to Kiritsugu Emiya.... that used it to... Summon the same blond-haired green-eyed woman... in the same condition as he saw before.... But Kiritsugu didn't give her the scabbard nor tell her about it and kept it to herself... The scabbard healed Kiritsugu from the injuries she sustained from her fights with unstoppable beings...
Until.... it was given to him.... To save him....
GOD FUCK !!!! SHE REALLY SACRIFICED EVERYTHING TO SAVE HIM!!!! IF ... IF SHE HAD IT THEN MAYBE SHE WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN IN THIS CONDITION FROM THE CURSE.....
Maybe... Maybe he can give the scabbard back to Kiritsugu...But....Ah.... It only works if the blond-haired woman is around... he feels it....No... The scabbard told him... The blond-haired woman is the scabbard's master... the scabbard is even hiding the identity of the blond-haired woman... he doesn't know how he knows this but the scabbard let him him structural grasp it so he knew that he can't use it, nor should he even try to.... it won't let him.... Especially on Kiritsugu... The woman who kept it from its master...
*Sigh*'Why Kiritsugu.... why did you sacrifice so much for me?.... For someone like me...'
*Pump* Shirou snaps his attention to the 3rd thing he noticed... he can't describe it...it was the place he dreams of after the fire...the plains where he saw the bandaged woman with just 3 swords .... that's now filled with knives and guns... and a woman on a hill looking at the weapons in surprise.... before looking at... ah him... Wait... he's... he's inside of himself?
The woman continues looking at him before starting to walk towards him as Shirou back peddled " Who are you?" ... And she just smiles slightly and moving quicjly pulls Shirou into a hug " You're here... You're here... I was waiting... calling for you " She says starting to cry but even then, she smiles, Shirou not knowing what to do returns the hug and pats her on the back.
After the bandaged woman calms down she lets go of Shirou "Ah...You asked for my name right?" The woman asked and Shirou nodded before getting a confused look " And... Uh... Also what is this place? " Shirou asked looking around seeing no end to the peaceful lands...
Mostly....
Seeing that far end...
he sees...
he sees...
" This is ... Um ... well I really... don't know what it is... aside from it's usually called... But it-" The woman says looking unsure how to answer.... " Wait is this my soul ?! " Shirou quickly asks looking around as the woman looks even more unsure how to answer " I guess you could say it is...Sorry, you're the first person I'm seeing that has this since not many people are able to get it...mostly daemons have this ... as far as I know only 6 other Human's had this.... Mostly beings who lived for 10's of thousands of years if not more... like dead apostle ancestors..." The woman said with a blank look on her face also looking at this place in intrigue saying more than she wanted, which she quickly realized was doing and went quiet.
But this only confused Shirou even more... from what he gathered this place is his soul .... But she said only what he gathered was that demons had it while humans don't.... "But humans have souls so shouldn't they have it also?" Shirou asked the woman who internaly was panicking " Ah you could just call this place your own little world.... well, little doesn't fit it..." She says looking at the infinite land.
While secretly her hand was glowing as she touched Shirou.
Shirou nods his head still not understanding much, but then remembered "You still didn't tell me who or what you are... Ah right sorry I am Shirou Emiya." Shirou said before becoming embarrassed forgetting again that he should say his name first.
The woman just looks conflicted a bit before answering " I am a spirit..." that's all she decides to say. Shirou just looks at her and sees the pleading look in her eyes, so he doesn't push it.... " What is your name then ? " But he still needs to call her something, she sighs in relief and replies " You could call me... Avenger " She decided after thinking.... "Wait what are you doing here ?" Shirou realizes if this is his world then why is she here? A giant smile appeared on her face.
"You allowed me to come here... " She says softly confusing Shirou again "During the fire remember?... You saved me..." She says softly but her smile turns sad "But.... You... You will be tortured forever now... I am sorry I have to do this..." She says sadly.
As the hand she had on him glowed bright red.
Shirou was about to ask what she meant before he closed his eye's grabbing his head, as on his skin blue words started to become engraved.
He felt unimaginable pain for a moment, just for a moment before it subsided, and when he opens his eyes and sees he was.... in a village?
With people around him walking around some talking some just walking, there are even kids around.... but everyone is gloomy or dirty.... he sees a cart selling rotten food.... 'What is happening?' Shirou thinks looking around himself even more.... until he feels his head about to explode.... its memories... he lived in this village his whole life.... This village used to prosper... well not prosper but at least was in good conditions... but in recent years it started to decline... experiencing different disasters from plagues to droughts, to rats' infestation... right now the village is experiencing Famine....
*THINK* *THINK* *THINK* "THE BELIEVERS ARE COMING!!!" A man who's hitting a big bell says in...' In what language is he talking?' Shirou thinks he understood what he said... but it was in an unknown language... But the believers?.... ah right there were rumors about calling the followers of god's into the village to purify it...people started to gossip some questioning if the believers are able to bring them prosperity like they promised...
A symphony of footsteps, denoted by Thumb Thumb Thumb, draws Shirou's attention. His gaze follows the sound, revealing a group of individuals cloaked in robes, their destination the heart of the city. They haul a substantial wooden beam adorned with precious gems, captivating the curiosity of onlookers, including Shirou. He's drawn toward the spectacle, gravitating alongside a growing assemblage to uncover the unfolding drama.
Amidst the chatter, a voice rises above the din, commanding attention. ".... To bring prosperity, we have to remove all the evil around us!!!" The declaration is only partially comprehensible to Shirou, muffled by the surrounding cacophony and obscured by an unfamiliar linguistic veil. A realization strikes—he can glean the essence of the message but not its linguistic composition.
"TO DO THAT WE HAVE TO CREATE A SACRIFICE!!!!" The believer screamed so that everyone could hear him making everyone quiet "Wh... What ?" Everyone turned to Shirou, making him realize it was him who said that. The believers started speaking again "Which one of you accept to be a sacrifice and save this village ?!" Everyone became nervous until a person who kept looking at him screams "HIM!" Gaining everyone's attention and the person points at Shirou " HE CAN BE THE SACRIFICE !!!" Making everyone start looking at Shirou who a long with everyone else was quiet....
Before another person quickly screamed.
"YES, HE CAN BE THE SACRIFICE!!!!" Another person screams and not long after everyone was screaming to make * Shirou * the sacrifice...
* Shirou * meanwhile ?
* Shirou * was in complete shock... So many... people are... calling him towards the sacrifice....
.... He.... was being sacrificed....
He was so shocked that he didn't notice nor feel the people around him grab him and dragged him to the believers. Who just watched this happen, while the people held him down the believers grabbed some chains and started walking toward Shirou.... and started to chain him up... After Shirou was chained up the people grabbed a knife covered with chains and blood-red rubies...
And started to cut Shirou.... no.... carving words into him, he realized....Shirou looks down an sees the same words the bandaged woman had... Is... Is he reliving her life?..... god this hurt.... not as much as that hell but still hurt... after they finished carving the word, one of the believers started to chant some words he didn't understand, and then he felt it.... he felt everyone's rage....looking down he sees the word glowing blue... but quickly turning red... and the redder it got the more rage he felt....
And... he quickly understood.... he's absorbing the rage of everyone around himself... and before long the believers started to repeat the process and he sees...
He see's....
Oh.... No....
He sees.... so much.
So much death...
So much greed....
So much so much so much SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH!!!!
SO MUCH...
Rape.... Ho...HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE RAPPED IN THIS ONE VILLAGE ?! Shirou thinks seeing so many heinous actions... before he noticed another word was carved into him and he sees...
So much.... pain...
And so, he passed out.... with his last though...
' How can you enjoy pain ? '
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To be continued !!!!