#Chapter393
Lauren Hastington
I walked into the room of our house in LA and I'm so glad that I always left some of my stuff behind. I needed it now because I didn't bring anything to LA. Before I decided to take a shower, I sat down on the chair on my balcony. I felt so guilty lying to Nial.
I don't know why I didn't think of anything and just texted him that I'm not feeling well. I should've stayed in New York and have a date with Nial. I can't believe I agreed to Dylan in a matter of seconds.
I'm happy being with Nial but there's something missing. It's just weird. Sometimes we do force ourselves to be with somebody when we clearly don't want to be with them. I mean.. it's not that I don't want to be with him. I'm trying but it seems.. useless to try hard for him.
I know I'm a bitch for acting like this but I don't want to make him sad. I canceled our date for a last minute plan. Which is.. quite crazy.
