#Chapter120
I know none of that makes sense, but I can’t help it, I’m losing control of all of it and I am left open and vulnerable with another man who only wants to get inside of me, to use my body as a vessel for his perverted end. My sanity scattering on the wind as my past collides and pushes reason out the door. He is as good as holding me down this way and I let him. I stupidly let him have me, to control me in every way to do with and use as he pleases until there is nothing left.
He hurt me, he left me, and now he won’t even look at me as he uses my body like I’m a dirty whore.