"What do you really want, David?" His replica asks him.
David is just standing looking at his replica, befuddled. What does he really want?, Acceptance?, love? Understanding?
The replica gets closed to him." Do you want Ryan's acceptance?" It feels like teasing him now. He can't even find an excuse to deny it anymore, not after all this time. "Are you that desperate?" The replica looks at him, and smiles sadly." Why?" It's sad because it's true that David is that desperate for apologies and acceptance over anything and everything.
"You know, You are pathetic David, You are desperate for Ryan's acceptance, but you didn't even think of him." The replica teases him more. The room has become cold, the temperature has dropped dramatically, as if it knows what its next move will be. David wants to run away, and hide in his body from the coldness spreading through the area.
He doesn't get the chance because his replica moves faster than he would have thought possible." What will you give me, David?" The replica asks, and it sounds so honest and genuine that David actually forgets how to breathe for a moment. Then it clicks for him that this must be real life too.
This isn't a dream, this isn't some nightmare. This is happening. His self is talking to him.
"You even try to push everything to him, like what is it again?, like he wasn't concerned about every other being around him? Like he didn't care?" The replica mocks him, making his temper lessen. David clinched his fists out of frustration.
"What is it?, You don't even used your brain? Imagine… You leave to go to the temple for training alongside other people. While Ryan is stuck in a dimension with just a wolf to talk. Luckily, Ryan didn't go insane. But who knows, You are selfish. Thinking that Ryan is walking on the same path as yours". The replica says while circling him.
"Out of all the Guardians, you are the pathetic one. Imagine leaving your Shian , getting into relationship, fought your Shian, push everything into him and breaking out of the relationship thinking you leads on it. What happened? It backfires right?" The replica keeps teasing and mocking him. David can feel tears forming in his eyes. The replica keeps pushing and pushing until his heart aches.
His replica stops in front of him and raises a hand before his face. He slaps David, making him touch his reddish cheeks.
"You're Garbage. Character developments? Really doesn't exist on you. That wolf, Voogd is even better guardian than yourself. Oh! did I forgot? That drama in the top of the roof?, Oh yeah! The same night you drug him. Let's also remembers the time Ryan is in Coma. You even try to kill yourself, like a pathetic human been trying to escape their responsibilities." His replica says before, sitting from behind.
It hurts. David feels like he's been stabbed. It takes him a long time to calm himself down.
"If you still believe you can change, then take responsibility for this one. Take responsibility for this one, David." His replica tells him while pointing at himself. David feels his chest tightening up. "Take responsibility for your actions and consequences. It's up to you" The replica adds, looking directly at him. David can almost see the reflection of a red and brown sky reflected from his eyes. It gives him shivers.
There it was again, that same phrase repeated by him over and over again.
"Don't run, David, don't push as well. You love him, but you also show hatred. He is more than a Best friend to you. Be his Guardian, not just his friend. You didn't need Ryan's acceptance, If you are selfish."His replica advises him. "You are two different person, With different paths. Ryan thinks he is the wrong one and literally takes a step to remove his memory just to show you that he cares for the people he once missed. Black kidnaps him when he is 10, gets trapped in the Dimension, And even gets his left arm cut. Those are the things that are impossible to be processed by a simple child. He, of course, misses his life before, and you're a pathetic ass who thinks you are the same?, Let me give you one more thing to distinguish him from you. He doesn't have his parents alongside him since he gets kidnapped and the day before he decides to take his memory. While you are having fun, Christmas and celebrates New year with your family. He is in the home in Coma, in other dimension or just staying in his laboratory alone." The replica added.
Then it hits him. He knows why the replica is telling him these things instead of just yelling them in his ears. They're memories. Memories of the best part of his life. When he and Ryan were kids. "Ryan was the only person you ever loved and cared about. Now it's time to fix that. Now I would like to ask you once more. "What do you really want, David?" the replica asks him.
What does he truly want? He doesn't even understand himself anymore. Why, he wants to apologize, to make up for the mistakes he's made. Why his Shian would forgive him.
How should he tell this to a replica that's supposed to be him? How does he suppose to act when he is supposed to be him? What is he supposed to say? To whom? He doesn't even remember who he wants to explain. So many thoughts are running through his mind.
"To protect Ryan, To be his Guardian, To Love him and to be Better." he replies simply. His voice cracks as if admitting defeat.
He knows he should keep quiet when he has nothing left to offer.
The Replica laughs heavily and smiling. He stands and goes to David's front. He rises his fist and waiting for a fist bump.
"You better do it, The true answer is that you didn't know. There's truly no answer to my question. It's because no one really knows on themselves what they are truly wanted." His replica says. David bump him and smiles. "I will, I know it's hard to accept the truth, but that's what is the foundation for who am I." He proudly says.
The replica smiles and looks at him one last time before dissappering.
David walks to the other side and manages to get into where the tree is. He walks with a smile as Ryan waves at him.
"Thank you, Myself." David whispers.