THREE OPTIONS
Zach's POV
[Dapat lang 'to sa 'yo! Flirt ka kasing nerd ka-]
Currently holding my phone, watching her getting bullied by those fcking btches.
[Tumigil kayo, wala naman akong ginagawa sa inyo!]
I didn't even notice my grip while holding my phone out of so much anger I felt towards those girls.
[Wala! Ang kati kasi niyang katawan mo, eh!]
I was about to throw the fcking phone out of anger when I heard chad's voice at the video.
[Stop it!]
[Si Chad...]
[How could you fcking do this to her?]
[It's her fault, she doesn't fit in here.]
[Yeah, she's a flirt too!]
He didn't react, even only saying one word, he didn't. I saw how he walked towards nerdo with his emotionless face. He even undressed his coat and covers it on nerdo's ragged dress.
[Are you okay?]
For the first time, i lost my eyes on nerdo's pathetic crying face and focused it on Chad's being cool like her fcking superhero.
[Daddy Chad, why are you helping that nerdy girl, huh?!]
[Yes! She doesn't belong here so just get her out of here!]
He just simply stared at them blankly. Not doing something to fcking kill them.
[It is not right for you to hurt this girl.]
[And why is that? That girl is just a nerd, so get rid of her-]
[You leave here. This is my house, now leave before I lose my patience]
[No! H'wag mo ng ipagtanggol ang babaeng 'yan!]
[H'wag niyong sagarin ang pasensiya ko, umalis na kayo rito sa pamamahay ko.]
[Bakit mo pinagtatanggol ang babaeng nerd na 'yan, huh?]
[Don't tell me, gusto mo na rin 'yan-]
[Yes, I like her.]
My hands tightened while holding my phone after hearing those words. I feel like I want to strangle him when he fcking said that.
[What?!]
[I do like her-]
[Hindi, Chad! Hindi kami naniniwala!]
[Ayaw niyong maniwala?]
[Hindi kami naniniwala, walang magkakagusto sa babaeng nerd na 'yan!]
[I don't care if she's a nerd for hell's sake. I also don't care if you won't believe me, i just want you to know, all of you to know that I like this girl that all of you were bullying. By the time this happens, expect it to happen triple times hard for each and everyone of y'all.]
How I wish he was just joking and playing around, but I do know him. He's not that kind of a liar.
[I'm not wasting my time to just kid the hell out of you around. Weather you believe it or not, I like her and I don't want my girl being abused by anyone. you won't want it when it's me who-]
I cut his words by throwing the phone. It splashed on the wall and broke apart. How I also wish he was here right now. I wanted to kill him! I wanted to kill him for calling her, his'!
"Kuya!" It was Zain's voice. I forgot she was sleeping here out of anger.
"Oh, I'm sorry Baby, I-"
"Why did you just throw your phone? Is there something wrong?"
"No, no I... just-"
"Kuya, you won't throw that away if there's no problem? What happened?"
"Oh, hija gising ka na pala, heto at-"
"Yaya Niña, you're here, you take care of baby Zain, may pupuntahan lang ako."
"Kuya-"
"No, baby, I'll be quick. May pupuntahan lang ang kuya mo," I kissed her forehead and rushed towards the door.
My brain isn't working well, only Chad is in it. I wanted to kill him! How could he call Nerdo his girl when he knows someone already owns her! How dare he oppose me! This was the first time and I don't give a fcking chance! Hindi ko na alintana ang malalaking hakbang ko sa kagustuhang makaharap si Chad. I dialed Cai's phone and after the second ring, he answered.
[Hey, what's up du-]
"Where are you?" I cut his words off.
[Hey, easy dude, something wrong?]
"Meet me at Chad's house. That traitor's house!"
[Hey! Wait – what? What traitor are you talking about?]
"That traitor! Just tell me where the fck he is!"
[He's... actually here at... my house.]
"Better! Don't let that bastard go away, I'll kill him!"
[Hey! What are you talking about? What's happening-]
I cut off the call and hurriedly left to go see that stupid traitor. I don't really mind right now if he's one of my long time best friends. All I want right fcking now is to get rid of him! He knew she's mine but he's fcking claiming he owns her. He's a traitor!
My grip on the steering wheel is so tight, I can't wait to face him. To punch him on his fcking face, I want to kill him every time the memory of him claiming her makes me feel like a criminal wanting to kill someone!
"Good morning, sir Zach!" I didn't respond, it's actually my hobby ignoring everyone. whether I'm angry or not. No one noticed it, but she was really the only one I couldn't ignore. Whatever way, as long as I pay attention to her. For some reasons, i just like to talk to her, annoy and irritate her, scold her about something as long as I have social contact with her, my day was already complete.
Her absence makes my day deficient. She's the only one I want to see in my everyday, so why can't I be like this if another guy claims the girl I've already claimed for a long time as his'? I can't just pass this fcking up, Chad's fcking face was all I wanted to face and punch this time.
"Zach!" Cai almost shouted when I opened the fcking wide door.
I ignored him, instead my eyes looked for Chad. Our eyes immediately met, at the moment it happened, kaagad na pumasok sa utak ko kung anong dahilan ng pagkakaganito ko.
"Yes, I like her."
"I do like her..."
When those words of his echo on my mind again, I already lost my control. My eyes immediately darkened while looking at him, and then the last time I know, I was done punching him on his face. My vision of him is still dark, I can't even find the satisfaction on just one punch. I want to crush his face for being a fcking traitor!
I was about to blow his face again when Cai interrupted and grasped tightly both of my arms. But I didn't bother, instead of punching him again, I violently lifted his collar and angrily brought him closer to my face.
"You know i like her, Chad, you know she's mine!" I shouted with my teeth tightening and clenching out of fcking anger.
Like what he usually does, he didn't say a word and continuously watch me with his emotionless fcking face.
"Zach, I don't know what's happening, but calm down first please-"
"You know nothing, so back off, Cai! Don't stop me ruining this traitor!" I turned my head and faced him again. "Answer me, you asshole!"
"I didn't mean to say that."
"Gago ka pala, eh!" I punched him again and this time, he plopped.
"Zach! He's your friend-"
"No, he isn't my friend, he's a traitor!" I shouted back. I stepped at him and gripped his collar again as I pulled him close to my face. "Now, fcking tell me, is being a traitor a profession or you we're just gifted?"
"I didn't mean to say-" I didn't let him finish. I quickly showered him with punches because my eyes were too dark for him and he was responding useless fcking things.
"What now? After you claim she's yours, you we're telling me you just said it unintentionally? What's that, you were forced? I'm not a fcking idiot chad!" I said, same as the time he was punched in the face. Talagang sisirain ko ng pagmumukha niya, fck!
"This is enough, Zach, he's still your friend-"
"Stop calling that word friend, Cai and back off if you don't want to get wasted, too!" I reprimanded in a hard voice.
He didn't listen of course, he gripped both my arms again and pulled me away from Chad.
"You hit him many times, Zach! Isn't that enough?!"
"Far from enough, Cai! Far from enough!"
"Napilitan lang akong sabihin 'yon-"
"Shut the fck up, Chad!" I want to rain more punches on him, but cai wasn't giving me the fcking chance!
"You shut up! I let you punch me because I know what I did was wrong, but believe it or not, I didn't betray anyone, especially you!" he fcking said.
"No, you're the perfection of betrayal, Chad! What you did was so wrong! You know she's mine, and after you said you like her infront of her, you'll say you were forced?"
"Yeah, I was just forced, I lied and I know what I did was wrong. I lied to her-"
"Then you betrayed someone!" I tried to break free but Cai's fcking couldn't let go of me! "Whatever excuses you say, you betrayed someone. Okay! Let's say you didn't betray me, but telling infront of her you like her even you really don't! How can you explain that, huh? don't you know how to consider her feelings? You know she'll be hurt, you fool!"
"Oh my god! What's happening here?! Cairo, son? What's happening – oh god, Chad! Your... face-" Tita kyla together with tito rome quickly draw near chad who has a broken face right now. his face was already full of bloodshots, so vulnerable but he deserves it. he fcking deserves all of my punches
"Oh my god! What's happening here?! Cairo anak? Anong nangyayari- Oh God Chad! Y-your face-" Tita Kyla together with Tito Rome quickly draw near Chad who has a brocken face right now. He's face was already full of blood shots, so vulnerable, but he deserves it. He fcking deserve all of my punches!
I didn't even feel guilty for what I did, maybe because he was the one looking for it. I hate all his excuses, all what he said, I fcking hate it! I don't want anyone to claim my girl to be theirs and I really don't want anyone who cheats, cheats and anything else that only brings her problems. She was already done suffering from all the useless people who are just kidding and playing around her. She was done, especially now that I'm in her side. I won't let anyone, fool her and play with her 'cause I won't think think twice to fcking kill whoever that person is.
She doesn't know anything. But behind her innocent mind, someone's already claimed her, owned her like out of seven billion people she was the only one who will always be my last choice of sticking to.
Never in my life would I regret this choice. She just unlocked my door, opened my windows that weren't even there before, so from now on, I will be true to myself. How I feel and tell the whole world who owns my heart now.
"Zach, what did you do!"
"I'm sorry tita, tito, but he deserves it," I didn't wait for their response yet, I turned and left them behind, all dumbfounded.
While driving, my phone rang so i took it in my pocket to answer the call.
[Hello, kuya!]
"Hey, baby, I'm on my way there-"
[No need na, kuya, we're actually her at the mansion. Just go straight here, I'm with ate Yeri by the way.]
I paused. I suddenly went blank after she said her name.
[Hey, kuya, are you still there?]
"Yeah! Sorry... Uhm... Okay, I'm on my way though."
[Okay, kuya, bye! See yah!]
She ended the call so I focused on driving my car again. But unfortunately, I can't focus myself. I forgot about her and honestly, I don't know what i will feel when I faced her. When her name was mentioned earlier, I felt like fucked up!
I don't have a reason to hate and be mad at her but I really felt that when Zain mentioned her name. She didn't do anything wrong, I should only be mad with Chad but why am I also feeling the same with her?
Pero galit o inis ba talaga 'tong nararamdaman ko?
I walked towards the door and when it opened, Zain, yaya Niña and... Nerdo are all laughing while sitting at the couch. Did I disturbed them? Tss, who cares!
"Kuya!" Zain immediately stood up and ran towards me and hugged me tight. I gave her a hug and slowly putting a glance towards Nerdo. She smiled at me but for some reason I refused to smile back at her, instead I ignored her.
"Why didn't you just wait for me? I would have been the one to take you back here," I said in a cold tone.
"Kuya marami tayong drivers," she said with a sneer.
"Kahit na, tss!"
I gave a glance at her and there she was walking towards us. "Uhm... ikinansela na nga pala yung bakasyon na dapat ngayon sana magaga-"
"I didn't ask," I interrupted. I saw how Zain and yaya Niña looked at me as if I did something really really bad.
"Okay... kagabi nga pala, bigla kang nawala-"
"By the way baby, are you okay now?"
"Of course, I'm okay, it was just a minor accident. Medyo natamaan lang ang forehead ko, but I'm okay now, so nothing to worry about."
"Uhm... Zach kanina nga pala-" Nerdo.
"Let's go, I'll take you to your room. Even if it's just a minor accident, you should rest, until the wound on your forehead disappears." I cut Nerdo's words again. I'm trying my best to ignore her, yet I hate myself for doing this. She was so confusing for fck's sake!
"But kuya-"
"Follow me if you don't want mom and dad to know bout this. Kauuwi mo pa lang aksidente ka kaagad, huh?"
"But that's not my fault!" She whined.
"Until the wound on your forehead isn't fading yet, you won't go out and you'll just rest here. Let's go, I'll take you to your room."
We leave them there as we go to Zain's room. I didn't hear her speak anymore, she maybe noticed that I probably didn't want to talk to her. But I can't get the fact that ignoring her was really killing me! For now, I don't really want to talk to her, I just remember how Chad betrayed me every time I looked at her face kahit wala naman talaga siyang kasalanan.
The whole day went by and that's all I did. I tried all day to stop myself from talking to her, from paying attention to her and just consider her as a passing wind.
I did my best to ignore her and now I can't fcking sleep at this late night hours. I can't stop thinking about her. She tried to talk to me but I ignored her and act like I'm on beast mode to stopped her from insisting on talking to me.
Up to the point that I'm cussing out myself of anger when she was trying to talk to me even though she already knows that I don't want to talk to her.
I stood up and headed to the kitchen to get some water. I can't fcking sleep, I can't fcking stop myself of thinking of her and the fact that I can't fcking tell infront of her that I like her and I envy Chad for having the guts of telling her that he likes her , while i fcking can't!
Kayang-kaya kong sabihin sa lahat ng tao na siya ang gusto ko, pero hirap na hirap akong harapang sabihin sa kaniya na siya ang tinutukoy ko.
I sat at the chair on the tip of this long dining table while holding the glass of water. I can't sleep thinking about that girl!
I was stunned for a few seconds and I turned around when someone suddenly spoke not far from where I was sitting right now. She didn't say anything when both of our eyes met. Instead, she sat down at the chair that was close to mine. I didn't speak any word as well. Instead, I just gave her a questioning look.
"Zach?"
"What?" I coldly ask.
"Uhm..." I sighed deeply and got up from my seat without any words.
"If you don't have anything to say, I'll go to sleep."
"Kung wala, matutulog na ako." I was about to take a step to leave when she suddenly held my shirt. I stopped and slowly looked at her.
"Zach..."
"Put your hands off my shirt, matutulog na ako."
"Hindi, ayoko." I irritatedly looked at her. "Galit ka ba sa 'kin? May nagawa ba akong mali?"
"Wala! Wala kang ginawang mali."
"Pero bakit galit ka sa 'kin?"
"Hindi ako galit!"
"Galit ka, hindi mo 'ko pinapansin."
"What do you think I'm doing right now?" I sarcastically said.
"Halos buong araw, hindi mo ako pinapansin. Wala naman akong natatandaang nagawa kong mali. Pinagpasensiyahan kita kasi akala ko naiinis ka lang, iniisip kong mawawala rin 'yon, papansinin mo na ulit ako mamaya pero buong araw na, wala pa ring nagbago. Ano bang problema? May nagawa ba akong mali?" Tears are almost falling down from her eyes and I hate myself for doing this to her!
"Wala kang maling nagawa, pero ikaw ang problema!" I can't help but to shout at her.
"Problema?"
"Tss! Forget it!" I was about to turn my back to walk away when she stopped me again.
"Tatalikod ka na naman? Gusto mo ba talagang umabot hanggang bukas 'to? Nasimulan mo na, Zach, kaya please! Tapusin mo na at nang matapos na 'to! Sabihin mo, anong problema mo sa 'kin at nagkakaganiyan ka?!"
"Dahil gusto kita, Nerdo! I like you!" My hand bled when I poured out all my annoyance on punching the wall.
Kitang-kita ko kung pa'nong nagulat ko ang mukha niya, kung pa'nong namamanhid lang ang kamay ko sa gitna ng pagdurugo nito.
"I'm mad! I'm mad at myself for not having the guts to tell you that I like you!" I step closer to her as she was nervously stepping backwards. When she had nowhere to go, I quickly blocked one of my hands on the side of his head. "I'm in love with you." That was almost a whisper in her ear.
"Zach... hindi magandang... biro... 'to-"
"I'm not kidding around, Nerdo. You have no idea how much I like you. How much you make me smile, how much I love talking to you and how much I wish you knew that sooner than now," like what she said, I've already started so now, it's up to her.
She couldn't speak, she only swallowed a few times and I know she has a lot to say but she can't even speak one word. She was so speechless while I'm so nervous of telling these things that she doesn't surely know glowing and growing inside of me.
"Zach..."
"No one seems to noticed but since you've been around, I smile a lot more than I used to. For unidentified reason, I get obsessed by little nerdy things in your corner that no one else is interested in."
"Hindi... Hindi to totoo, matutulog na lang ulit ako at nang magising na ako sa panaginip-" she almost squeals when I grab her waist to get closer to mine. Now, we only have a very tight space between our both faces. I tightened my grip on her waist even more until our bodies were completely touching. We're so closed and I'm tempted right now to fcking kiss her.
"This isn't a dream, Nerdo. I am absolutely, definitely, positively, unquestionably, beyond any doubt, in love with you."
"Zach..."
"And I have to know if you're inlove with me, too," I smiled at her nervous face. "Do you like me, too?"
Hindi siya nakasagot,
"I'll give you three options. Now choose."
"Huh?"
"A. yes."
She swallowed hard.
"B. the option a..."
She swallowed hard... Again.
"And C. the option b?"
END OF HIDDEN PERSONA
See you at the Midst of Zari Trilogy!