Emma was asked out while we were grabbing some coffee. I was kinda used to people asking her out when we hung out. She promised to dump the guy within 20 minutes and meet me at the mall so we could go shopping for an outfit for tomorrow's reunion.
I didn't wanna go shopping but I realized that my closet was filled with just sweatshirts and some dresses that looked like the ones granny's wear. Like hell my grandmother has better cloths and a better fashion sense. It was embarrassing so I decided to take Emma along with me. She was way too excited for this than me.
She finally reached the mall and she better not talk about what happen cause I'm in no mood. She drags me all around the mall and picks random dresses for me to try on. You know one of those scenes where two girls go shopping and does a fashion show for the other friend.
To sum it up that is kinda what happen. I was getting tired when I found a dress lying on a corner. I don't remember her picking this out for me. I realized that it was there before I entered the dressing room, it must be the girl who was trying on before me. It looked nice and vintage, I tried it on and I couldn't believe my reflection.
I actually felt pretty. I came out to show the dress. Her jaw dropped.
"This is it, it's perfect" she says in a calming voice
"I know.....it's just something about this dress. I feel like it's me"
By the time we left the store it was already dark, I hadn't realized we took that long but at least I found the perfect dress to tomorrow.
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I am literally entering the building and walking towards the lift. My hands shake as I press the button to the 8th floor.
"Ok calm down everything will be fine, deep breaths and no matter what happens or who I encounter I will get through this night" I say to myself before the elevator stops and opens.
There are people everywhere. I was approached by Riley and Ryan. The couple of the school. I never imagined they would still be together. Hmm so this kind of love does exists. They recognize me immediately and so do I. They give one of those name tags,
"Just in case people don't recognize you. I mean us. All of us."
"Jesus babe looks like you had a lot to drink. Oh and btw yes we do have alcohol, Help yourself" He winks at me and leaves.
Obviously I needed to get drunk to survive this night. I reconnect with couple of my friends and we had a nice time that I almost forgot why I didn't want to come.
I poured some champagne and went to the balcony to get some fresh air. I feel good and relaxed.
"You like the view?"
"Yeah" I say before turning and I couldn't believe what I'm seeing.
AUSTIN! IT'S AUSTIN, HE'S STANDING RIGHT BEHIND ME!!
He's staring at me with that same smile; he looks different, good different, more mature.
I choke on my drink. Shit like this is not embarrassing enough.
He comes closer with a worried look and puts one hand on my waist and the other on my back trying to calm me down.
The same feeling, the same goose bumps.
"Are you alright Julia?" He says in a comforting tone
"Yeah I am....haha....you know me being me" I say and make the same expression I did the last time he was this close to my body. I haven't heard him say my name in ages so it felt weird.
He has the same smile again, but this time I actually felt comforted by him being here.
*What's happening?*
My body feels relaxed and not to forget the fact that I was already drunk and before we knew it we were having a normal conversation. We were laughing just like old times.
We decided to go to a much quieter place, so we headed towards the roof but it was locked so we decided to hang out on the floor below it. There were few people around, I wasn't even sure if they were my classmates.
"So what do you plan to do after graduation?"
"Probably go for a major in either Psychology or Fashion Design"
"Yeah I could totally picture you doing that"
"Oh yeah, what else do you picture me doing"
"I rather not answer that"
"Oh come on, I knew that you had a crush on me before"
Shit why did I say that. I wish he doesn't answer. Please don't answer.
"So I guess I was pretty obvious huh? Well I still do.."
I look at his face, wind gushing on us and his face is so pretty right now that I could kiss him any second.
"Why" I blurt out.
He laughs and then looks at me, "Because you're you and there's something about you that drives me crazy. I feel like I have to keep you"
He rubs his finger on my cheek and I just smile. I know that he's waiting for me to answer his feelings but I'm completely lost in his eyes.
"Do you remember how we use to go roller skating together?"
"Yeah how could I forget that you were my teacher after all" He says as we both chuckle.
"I know and you sucked at it. I still remember how you fell at least 10 times"
"Ok I get it, laugh all you want"
"Those were the best moments of my life. You made me feel special. Not just then but every moment I spent with you was really special to me. I was really upset when you moved, and was really pissed when you just ghosted me. I taught that I meant nothing to you and-"
He stops me and gives me a hug. I was on the verge of tears; I really did miss him and never moved on.
"I am so sorry that you felt that way but trust me you did mean everything to me. I mean sure we were just kids that time and I taught that was really selfish that I wanted you so much so I did something really stupid and ended up causing pain for that person and I could never forgive myself"
I get lost into his eyes again, his words and the way he says them makes my heart flutter.
Why isn't he kissing me? From what I know he would have grabbed me and never let me go. He would have made love to me.