SEVEN
The cold weather of the Australian climate brushed up my nerves. I felt cold everywhere apart from my eyes that were already tired from tears. I sought for warmth and I wasn't really sure any would come.
As I walked through the pedestrian track which was demarcated by white and black coloured kerbs, I held tightly to my bags. I looked up to the stars and sighed, this wasn't the time to watch stars too.
Even in the dark, the roads were bright due to street lights. I walked sluggishly, I didn't even know where I was heading. My cold weary hand managed to flag down a taxi, while the other clutched tightly to the Bags.
"Where to?" came the voice of the good looking taxi driver. He was putting on a bright smile.
"Just take me to any nearby hotel." I replied entering the car without waiting for a response.
My breath was cold too. The man gave me a - what - is - wrong - look? But I didn't care.
We drove in silence and I wished the wheels moved faster.
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I entered the warm room and felt at ease. It was as though a large burden in me was removed. I felt relieved. I walked straight into the bathroom for a shower, to wash off worries - I would say.
I was awakened by the continuous knocking on the door. I walked towards the door with sleepy eyes demanding that it was disturbing my sleep.
A waitress walked in, placing a tray of food on the center table. "Dinner." she announced, smiling.
"Thanks," I smiled back looking at the dishes. Yummy.
The door made a noise while closing and I realized she was gone.
I rested comfortable on the bed staring at the food, sleep gone. My eyes got attracted to the note attached to the tray.
"Kandos hotel," I murmured, touching the note. How silly I was. I didn't even know the hotel I checked in last night. The receptionist did mention it but I guess I was too tired to listen.
After breakfast, I was bored. Turning on the tv, I searched for a channel.
Alice through the looking glass kept me busy. It was captivating to watch. As Alice tried saving her friends, I remembered home. Should I have done the same? Save Peculiar? But how?
The four corners of that house are filled with worries. I sighed looking around, "no worries." I muttered.
I tried so hard to forget Peculiar but his handsomely devilish face kept appearing. "Did I do the right thing?"
I knew definitely that I didn't run away, I only wanted a break. I wanted peace but that was the problem. How would I have peace when my household was in pieces?
I closed my eyes and tried getting more sleep. Then I thought - maybe I was never destined to be a mother, just like my mom. She wasn't supposed to get married nor have a baby.
I was still mad at her even when I knew she did it with fear and love. Shouldn't she have been truthful?
But the deeds were already done.
The birth of peculiar and I were posthumous. Tears filled my eyes and in seconds I was crying, holding tightly to my pillow.
This was harder than I expected.