I woke up all sweaty and scared, The night had passed quickly and morning came with a cheerful blue and bright sky, I sat up, my body quivered in fear but decided to think less of the absurd nightmare.I walked straight to the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror, I was a walking ghost, my eyes were puffy and swollen, I lost interest in crying as it had dawned on me that it wouldn't change anything, I was now at the stage where I wallow in self pity, self doubt and the feeling of having a huge void in my heart was inevitable. I sighed deeply.
"This will obviously not change anything, what do I do?" I bit my bottom lip and ran my hand through my messy hair and just as I had landed on a possible conclusion, my stomach grumbled viciously, "oh right, I have successfully starved myself yesterday while crumbling my weak self with loads of anxiety" I thought and quickly turn on the tap and gave my lifeless face a splash of cold water before processing to do my usual routine. I went out of my room rocking a white knee length loose gown with a blue jean jacket and a heart shaped diamond necklace with a light but bold make up, being dumped last night must have awaken my self consciousness and the need to be more detailed and feminine with my look increased, but mostly my makeover was dominantly influenced by my resolution earlier this morning.
I had settled for the most reasonable action I could think of at the moment since it was my first time suffering from a break up, there doesn't seem to be any right way to approach the situation besides my feelings for Tim didn't seem to have subsided, so my rational and pathetic resolution seem like it was worth it. I was going to go to Tim's office, I don't know what I was hoping to hear but whatever it is I hoped it would heal the wound I had in me.
"Wow flora, what's the occasion, you look rather flawless this morning" My mom called out enthusiastically. she was sitting on the counter with a mug in hand sipping her coffee gently while the house was filled with. different aromas of food that was waiting to be devoured.
"Good morning mom, I decided to change my look a little" I replied with a smile walking over to give her a little smile, she climbs down from the counter and followed me to the table where we sat down as she dishes out the food
"where's Dad? didn't he return home yesterday?" I asked noticing his absence, I watched my mother's face drop a little and I sighed nervously, it seems they haven't settled whatever issue was going on between them.
" I got a call from him this morning..." she stood up to refill her coffee from the counter "... apparently the catching-up meeting had escalated into a business meeting and he wasn't able to make it home in time yesterday" My mom said smiling sadly, I couldn't say much since I was in a relationship chaos myself, I wondered what they were beefing about for a few seconds before I began to anticipate my meeting with Tim, it was obvious he hadn't ended things with me because of the company alone, there was more to it and his sudden personality disorder than he showed. As soon as I finished the food and I had tamed my little monster, I hopped into my car and headed towards Tim's company.
The walker company was just right at the heart of the city, famous for its luxuriousness and quality, although it just started few years ago, it had made it mark in the business world and it's probably counterparts with a company like mine which is only surviving on legacy and prestige, but it still doesn't justify Tim's idea of buying a whole lineage's work and incorporating it in a newbie company like his, they are only thriving as a result of their new innovations which could unexpectedly loose it's touch as time goes on.
I parked my car by the side of the road a little far of from the entrance to the gigantic looking skyscraper, I rested my head on the car seat while staring earnestly at the entrance guarded with body guards and swarm of people making their way in or out chattering very loudly, I sighed, I guess it's a busy day for me. After minutes of deliberation I finally decided to go in the building to see if I could meet with Tim, I made my way through the busy crowd to the counter where the receptionist stood.
"This is Walker steel...how may I help you?" she beams with a huge smile on her face and her blue eyes glittered magically.
"I would like to speak with Mr Tim Walker please" I replied with my most sweet tone flashing her a compelling smile.
"Well do you have an appointment ma'am" she asks and begins to type away on her laptop.
"Actually...I don't....but I'm his girlfriend" I blurted out and almost bit my tongue off my mouth as she flashed me a confused look, "of course if I were is girlfriend I should have called him to inform them I was coming" I thought trying to read the mind of the blonde receptionist. I guess I still wouldn't come to accept that I and Tim are done so easily and that ignited the agony that I had hid deep within me again.
" I'm sorry ma'am, but you could only meet with him if you have an appointment" she replied after a long pause in her usual cheerful tone. Just as I was about to instinctively switch to negotiation mode, I heard a loud roar of laughter in the lobby at the side and saw some group of body guards escorting Tim and a man with big dark shades, a huge scar on his face like he was scratches walking out of the elevator towards the exit, they were so engrossed in their discussion I didn't bother to hide when they walked passed me, I gulped down nervously and tailed them out of the company, I stood few meters behind as the stopped in front of a big black tinted Jeep. Tim and the scarred man who was obviously in his early 50's shook hands which made me realize, Tim was not going with him but was going to return back to his office, that will be my chance to meet with him, just as the scarred man and his army of guards left, Tim who was now left with only one guard turned to walk back to the building, I was already standing at the door and he paused as soon as he saw me, a look of disbelief in his eyes, he rubs his face with his large palm and I could only awe at his alluring demeanor and gesture, there was no way I could get over this anytime soon, I still loved him and he has to know that. He walks over to me and stopped when he was only an inch away, his smelt nice and fresh despite looking fatigued.
"What the hell are you doing here" his cold word pierced my already bruised heart as he spoke and I froze as he stares coldly at me.
"I I want-ed to tal-talk" I stuttered, I had never dealt with this cold aura from Tim before so I was shaken and stunned.
"There's nothing to talk about Flora..... leave this place" he barks and I jumped at his sudden action, he was about to walk away then I settled for an embarrassing and pathetic plea.
"I'm sorry Tim--- but I still love you" Tim stopped in his tracks and gave me a long hard glare. he rubs his face again before breaking into a devious smile.
"You still don't get it, do you? life-" he said before I rudely interrupted him, I wasn't going to let him add more salt to my injury, I was already broken, there wasn't any need for me to stand there and watch him smash me anymore.
"Yes.....I don't get it Tim, you act as if all this years we spent together was a joke or it never happened and you suddenly called things of with me over something as trivial and menial like a business proposition, I find it hard to understand Tim, did you stick with me this long just to ask for my family's company? that's just ridiculous" I snarled all my sadness evaporating into boiling fury.
"You see....flora, that's the problem with you, you don't understand anything yet you act so stubborn and immature about every single thing" Tim launches closer to me he tilts a little so that his cold gaze was intently locked with mine.
"Then explain yourself and quit being a bitch about it!" I yelled back, his cold and emotionless eyes setting off a fire I didn't know was kindled within me. He laughs maniacally
"The business world is changing and it's leaving you behind, you're so tied up with this delusion of losing your sister, you can't run the damn company with a pragmatic approach and it's all crumbling down in your face...yet you're so adamant on accepting my generous offer to revive what's left of your carcass, low- life, extinct company of yours....this isn't about family, legacy and all those bullshit your mother filled you up with, it's either you're in the game or you're out of business. Quit making things much harder for the real entrepreneurs and businessman in the city and you can take your dead ass company and obsolete ideologies emanating from a dead person and shove it up your--" Tim rambled on before I angrily slapped him, I couldn't take it anymore, his face tilts to the side and he froze, he was as shocked at my actions as I was, I couldn't believe it, did I just hit Tim? he had it coming disrespecting my family and my dead sister, I couldn't hold back anymore no matter how in love I was with me, he chuckles softly and took a step back away from him "I probably deserved that" he chuckles rubbing his palm gently on his cheek.
"I get it that you've suddenly become ambitious and greedy...but I can't believe you'd blindly throw what we had out of the window for your desires" I said as few drop of tears trickled down my eyes against my wish.
"Don't get me wrong Flora...those years with you were years I treasured the most in my life.....but you and I are not.....meant to be, you're the problem Flora.....you see things very differently from the rest of the world but it's only slowing you down, your progress....your talents... everything about you!...I can't you drag me back anymore.....it's better this way" Tim scoffs and tears forcefully poured through my eyes, he was rejecting me the second time and it hurts just as much as the first even greater.
"Tim...I-I-I " I stuttered and he scoffs, I closed my eyes in hopes of getting my tears to stop falling.
"It's over Flora....don't ever come here again" he said coldly and turned his back to leave.
"TIM!!!!" I could contain my pain any longer. he paused just as he was about to walk through the door
"And on more thing Flora..... you're gonna lose the company....one way or another" he smirks and disappeared immediately.
"WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN!!!!" I yelled out with all my strength getting mad at my inability to control my tears...."TIM!! TIM!!" I yelled so loud the people walking by stared at me awkwardly, nobody understands the amount of pain I was in, I fell to my knees in front of his company and I was crying and I was furious at myself....why did I have to love him so much? the once bright sky had turn a shade of dark blue, it was going to rain today...the sky rumbled loudly as if it was aware of my adversary. I mumbled Tim's name and hugged my knees against my chest, my phone beeped. It was a message from my Dad.
" Alhambra westside restaurant....be there by 7pm, I fixed a meeting with Mr Blake Jones" It read.
I wiped my tears and stood up sniffing, I wasn't the type of person to stay down too long...I have to get up and take the next step... ALWAYS!!.