Author's note::
this is my first time writing a novel so I don't know what to do, to be honest, I will appreciate it if you help out
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3 am somewhere on Earth an 18 years old man Is seen reading a fanfic on his phone in his bedroom he lives with his family, his family is not rich nor are they poor but from where things are going they will be poor in a couple of years but currently the live in a nice area in the country
'huh man the fanfics are terrible these days can't find a good one but maybe that's a good thing I have exams coming in soon and I should study can't disappoint the family'
then the voice that he hears all the time that he started calling him the other Y, that thing is weird it always wants something and that thing is usually something bad just like in this moment
'let's go kill some people we know that school is not our calling but who should we kill it should be for good cause tho, cause I am not a murder I just want to help us become stronger just like you want to'
'I want to get stronger not through some murder I just want to get my father's company, use some of my future university connections and my father's connections to get to know some police or military people who will 'help' me with what would be my company then and just get higher and higher in the social anarchy'
'see our ideas are the same after all we just want to do them differently'
'how the fuck is killing people helping my plan In using my father's company to get a good life.... huh answer me you little piece of shit how is fuck is killing my father helping me get his company like you suggested last time you are just a sick bastard'
'I may be a sick bastard but in the end, I am you but the unrestrained one you are the one who decided that you should be a goody two-shoe and be the calm and quiet boy who his mother loves because he listeners to her every word
the person who when the teachers want to tell someone to act behaved they said that the students should act like you, you are just acting to be the perfect person that is caring compassionate kind lovely all the traits that humanity said were good so don't act offended you actor'
'I am an actor I do know that but at least I am not someone who suggested killing his parents I know that I am a greedy, envious, lustful person who wants to fuck anyone he sees but I at least have not done any of that and the proof is that I am still a virgin. I restrained all of that to live a normal life so can you please just fuck off'
'ha-haha so you do admit all of that I still remember that time when you got envious because of Rimuru life, he had it all or that time when you imagined yourself as naruto'
'I said to fuck off'
he gets up and stretches a bit because of the long reading session he was having and the long conversation then he looks at the window suddenly before going to his desk to study
"man that's creepy if felt like someone was watching me"
he shrugs and turns to go to his laptop to study when suddenly the apartment starts shaking and then it stops suddenly
"what the hell is that an earthquake but thank God it stopped"
he then looks back at the window and sees the stars the sky is full of stars that's an unusual thing because they are usually hidden because of pollution
"man that's amazing but why are the stars shining with different colors hmmm are they getting bigger ... wait-wait why are they getting bigger .... shit they are coming closer"
'Run you piece of shit I don't want to die without killing at least a single person'
he runs the other way trying to get away when suddenly a shockwave ran through him and he gasps and tries to look at the window
"is that my body in the air WHY THE HELL AM I SEEING MY BODY is this a dream I am dreaming right now calm down you are better than to be nervous right now take a deep breath and everything is going to be fine shit it isn't working aaaaaaa focus boy you can do it"
he focuses on his body and he sees himself flying in the air but the problem is he is not in his body then he realizes why his body is floating is that time is so slow and the shock wave made his body fly in the air for a bit
"Time is so slow is this what grandpa told me about that he saw his memory flash through his eyes when he was young and about to drown, something is wrong tho I am outside my body he never told me about something like that happening to him..... unless I really am dead
.... I am in my soul form huh that is so weird I am colorless but at the same time all the colors mumbled together"
he then sees all his life memories flash through his eyes and says
"so I am really dead what about my sisters are they going to be ok what about mom and dad they are going to be sad right huhhhh what the hell I haven't even dated a girl or lost my virginity fuck fuck"
'I told you to rape that girl you liked In school'
"why the fuck are you here aren't I dead"
'as I said I am you but unrestra..'
"Can you please just shut up for once fuck fuck what am I going to do is there an afterlife I don't know, shit what should I do"
why is fuck repeated twice because important things needs to be said twice he then looks at the window and sees the sky is full of stars more than before he feels that they are calling for him so he tries to run the other way but
" why am I going closer to them my body fuck my soul please go the other way noo noo noo not to the stars I don't want to please please they look dangerous auhhhh"
then suddenly all of them stop and shoot an energy beam at him and he feels an incredibly strong soul pain
"FUCK WHAT THE HELL IS THIS aughhh I feel like I am shattering no no no I don't want to get erased shit noooooooo"
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