"uhhh.. " I hesitate. And glance at each of the faces looking at me intently . I am seated at the centre of the circle and everyone , including my zacky were expecting me to share my story . My eyes met with Zack and he gave me a 'go for it ' look . And I did .

" My name is Rosaline Bloom . I've tried to kill myself three times , I have been exercising self harm ... I still deal with it but ..uh .. Writing helps a lot . It all started when my mother died , my twin helped a lot but, sometimes I get into these dark moods and .. I .. uh .. just stop thinking straight . I've been through a lot ,severe depression , abuse , loss , betrayal . And I just let those bad things control my whole world ... After that I just can't see the good in my life ... My family, My friends . I selfishly stop thinking about the pain my death can cause and i try to find a way that only I can escape . I let my demon's get the best of me .

I try... several times , to Die . But It just never happened . One way or another either there was someone else to stop me or I get too afraid to do it . " I smile when a thought comes to me .

"Maybe , It was God's way of keeping me alive so that I can help you guys and so we can help each other . There are many types of mental illnesses but that doesn't mean we can't get better , after all, those who fly against the wind have the strongest wings. " I give a lingering glance at my attendants smiling happily . My first day ever hosting this meeting but there were way more people than I expected .

Being able to help others who have gone through things you too , have experienced is a blessing. Being the reason for other's lives to change is True happiness .

Even though this is my first meeting with my new attendants , I had a strong feeling we were all gonna make it .

" Okay .... who wants to share next ? "

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My Name is Rosaline Bloom ... People know me as an Author , a Poet ,a Psychologist and a Therapist . But before I became all this ... I was a girl with a broken heart and shattered dreams . I've hurt myself more than others hurt me , I went through depression , a toxic relationship , I was cheated on , abused by my boyfriend ... And I lost my mother .

This is a story hidden behind the successful life I've achieved right now .

But There is a dark side to it .

And I'm here to share that side .....

To help others realise they're not alone .

To help them realise it's possible!