Ryan POV...(mature content below)
People says that, first things doing is always a beyond experience then, the things we do before, either it gives us pleasure or hurt. That's true, I believe that after my first kiss, which happened not a while ago. Sarwat is still staring in my eyes and I also doesn't have a chance to not stare back at those captivating eyes, that shines in light like a star. I don't understand the twilight movies romance, that how can they stare in each other eyes for so long, but now I know that being in presence of those amazing feeling's can't let you go. He held me back by his arm when I'm about to lost my body consciousness. He grab my arms and start making a way out of crowd and I didn't argue. I just take his hand and followed him like a child being scolded by his mother and he didn't have a choice but, to go along with his mother.
We climbed the stairs and suddenly he opens a door hurriedly, and take me in. The light is deem but the passion and lust is too high. He started touching me again and place those soft lips on mine and slowly starts kissing me. Our lips move in sync and he pull my lower lips and bite, I moan in pain along with pleasure, he take that chance to enter his tongue in my mouth and explore all the sweet flavours of alcohol. My mind is too hazy, that even I can't realise what I'm doing? I press my chest against his and fumble with upper buttons of his shirt. When he get in sense, that what I want to do! He smirks and start unbuttoning his shirt, now all those I see only his muscular chest and six abs. I explore all those soft and tender abs with my hands and my lips still in embrace of his mouth. He held me back and I move backward, and then he push me with his hands, I fall back and found myself on soft matress of the bed. He climb on top of me and start ravaging me with his lips on my side of neck, I'm sure his beast side is awaken and now going to bite all over my body. He has done half of my shirt unbutton and our body in a collaboration of rythm moving on top of each other. When he pop his jeans button to open, a fear consume me that causes all the alcohol hangover to gone in one second. The terror influence me like a wild fire and I push Sarwat from above me and rise up from the bed. He also took that in surprised way, but I know it's going beyond limit, what I feel is not love, but the attraction that always end up in guilts or nothing. I done my half of the button which were revealing my pale chest a while ago and took my converse. I doesn't see his eyes and a murmur sound come from my mouth to apologise, "I'm sorry...".
He doesn't reply back for sometime. But afterwards he says "oh! I should not took it that far, I'm just totally driven by the passion at that moments, I'm sorry too."
I doesn't say anything and comes out of that room. It's beyond past eleven at night. I don't know where my friends are? Even Rio doesn't look in my view. The night is now all gone for me, it lost all the charms now only sadness took it's place. I call Andrew, they are probably at home. He answered immediately "yes, Master Ryan, would you like any help from me?"
I reply, "ya! I need a ride.....I will send the address, come and pick me please."
He answered ok! and cut the call. After ten minutes later a car come towards me. It's familiar so, I think it's Andrew. When it stop near me. Andrew roll down the window and ask "are you okay? "
I don't know how to say, so I just smile "ya! I am okay, please hurry fast" and sit in the back of the car. He drives fast and it take few minutes to reach home.
Amanda was inside in living room, when she saw me, she quickly rise up and comes to me and speak " are you okay! you called Andrew so suddenly, I just take it as a bad feeling, are you well?"
I reach to hug her, "ya! I'm all okay, you don't have to panic, it just I didn't have a ride at that time. So I called him up... now I'm going to bed. We have to wake up early for packing. You should also go to bed earlier. "
She only nods and leave after that, and I climbed upstairs. I pass down the hallways and reach towards my room. I open and close after it and fall on my bed with face forward and snuck in my pillows. How, I'm going to face, if things will be happened beyond that limit. The alcohol totally blinded me and make me do that I never able to think in my conscious state. I know he's going to tease me like ever for that. Oh! Forget it, I'm going to develop a headache soon.
The night is gloomy and also partly clouded. The blackness makes me think the dark side of my life. It's better I should start packing now, i took down the hand bags and trolley bags from shelves, it's finally I'm going to see my little sister, how I was wishing to meet her, when she was born. It's soon be the day when, I'm going to meet them all. I should brought some gifts for her, either I should go with Amanda or alone tommorow. I don't know if she likes me or even recognise me. I sighed at that, after sitting down a few seconds, I get up and start doing my work... I take out my clothes and place it in bags. I able to done half of it and I'm exhausted. So, I ignore half of them, to do it tomorrow. I showered after that and sleep with a smile about being with family.